Your latest post was very eye-opening because since forever i have been a very possessive person with just about everything in my life: objects, people, even concepts. So to think that i own nothing and everything at the same time is very freeing but also very scary because of my extreme attachment to my things. I feel attached to my appearance, my circumstances, the stuff i own, everything. Sometimes, i catch myself wishing things were permanent and indestructible because just the thought of losing that attachment is dreadful. Now, i know thats not a me thing, i know everybody has at least a little bit of this possessiveness in them, but i really go to extremes. i have had multiple professionals tell me im way too attached and dependent on external things. And all this is to tell you that when i read your text, i really understood why im so persistent about not going within, and im very grateful that you posted it. Thank you, and sorry for rambling šµāš«
Omg I was just thinking of answering asks what a coincidence I finally got one! I get what you mean I used to be possessive too always trying to win people over and keep them around, desiring to be perfect physically and mentally and worrying what āotherā people thought of me, which is funny now because if people are judging me itās just them judging themselves. Donāt be hard on yourself if you still have the habit of desiring just remember separation doesnāt exist. š«¶š¼
Uk I can hear a voice in the head, idk who is it so I keep going back and forth š that's why I can seem to lose the sense of I...
How is the voice you if you are the one watching it? Are you the songs that play in your head too?
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Yeah but I donāt really get your explanation.. so rn youāre reading my answer but itās not a person reading itās just Brahman reading Brahman ??
Exactly, but āreadingā is a concept
Iām a drummer so last night I had tendonitis from drumming too much but I remembered that there is no one inside the body to experience tendonitis, and this morning the pain is gone. You are everything, being an individual inside the body is a delusion.
Helpful Swami Vivekananda quotes:
The only reason you seem to be limited is because you believe you are. If your entire life everyone around you told you that you were a limitless omnipotent being you would have no limits right now. Without memory there is no doubt, no fear, and no desire. Right now, ask yourself āWho am I without my memories?ā Without memories there is no āreferenceā for what you can and cannot do. If you shed all memories thereās no āOh yeah I canāt perform miracles because Iāve never been able to or society told me I canāt.ā But memories are like a mirage in the desert, you look closely and realize they arenāt real just like any other thought. Last night I was watching my mind freak out because of wanting survival of the body, it brought up past memories as a reference point as to why the body was ill, and projecting a future of running out of money to pay for medication. Then this morning I woke up feeling different, in a dreamlike state, and I got the epiphany that memory is the root of all limitations. Anyway I started to play around with the idea of having no memories, and the invisible chains seemed to fall away. When doubtful feelings come up I see that itās just a feeling, and each moment is a new moment so thereās no need to rely on the past. The whole world is like a dream now and I canāt wait for you all to experience this.
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Guys when you think about something and desire it you are creating 2 characters, one who is desiring and one who has something. The truth is one does not have to change to become the other even tho you make it seem like Character #1 wants to become Character #2 itās just part of the play. You are always Character #2 because both the characters are in your mind. Donāt fall into the trap of becoming/getting. Only identify with Character #2 right now in your mind (the source of all creation) do not try to become them bc you are still being Character #1 by doing that.
Yes Iām also hitting myself with sticks when I play the drums š¬
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Classical philosophical advaita Vedanta
Non-dual rizz be like:
Youāre my favorite illusion
Youāre my favorite expression of ā. ā
Youāre my everything and nothing