me: hmmm. I wonder why fangs and horns feel like they'd be gender affirming? I think perhaps it's because experiencing transphobia is so dehumanizing, and knowing that people find my body monstrous makes me feel very small, and if there were something about me that were actually monstrous, something about me to fear & hate that truly isn't human, I could lean into it, revel in it even, delight in the discomfort my body causes other people and be proud of it and love myself. maybe I could learn to feel that way anyway. Mayb 12 year old me, manifesting into the room with her nintendo DS: it's because fangs are hot. they're sexy. do you wanna play nintendogs or are you too esoteric now
i think laios touden is cis purely out of convenience. i think he feels absolutely no attachment to gender one way or the other, but he's in the dungeon so that's like the least of his concerns at the moment. i think if he sat down and thought about it for more than a few seconds he would be some flavor of nonbinary but gender is not monsters or grilling so he doesnt give a shit
๐ ........ (says nothing but the force of my emotion throws everyone backwards 20 feet)
i was seeing all these little blue flowers everywhere and kept thinking "dang what are these bitches, i can't remember..." well guess what. they were fuckin forget-me-nots. can't believe i failed step fucking 1, the hot girls on iNaturalist are going to laugh at me and i'm gonna flunk out of hobby botany school.
angel who hides in an abandoned torah ark
I have not stopped writing the trilogy. It was not even supposed to be a book and I tried to drop it multiple times but now that I have reviewed a plan it probably will be a trilogy... It's been a decade.
Obsessed with characters who portray themselves as worse than they are. Who are lying to everyone including themselves about it. People generally assume if someone's lying about themselves they're trying to look better but sometimes they're trying to look worse. They attribute agency to where they had none, add intend to accidents, try to convince everyone that this is something they did instead of something that happened to them.