Sawtiism - Hitoshi ඞ

Ryan: Do you know a turtles only weakness?

Shane: No... well, their slowness.

Ryan: Their weaknesss is they can't roll over when they are on their backs.

Ryan: Now I have a plan.

Ryan: If I duct tape two turtles together, they'll be unstoppable.

that finale huh

oh to be a hippo in a loving relationship with a worm news anchor

“10 youtube series that deserves their own tv show”

where is the lie

things from the tsunami arc that altered my brain chemistry irrevocably and eternally:

buck's hand twisted in christopher's shirt pre-wave

you're gonna be okay, kid and the hand on buck's face

the way buck cups christopher's head when he's finally got him in his arms

and the way he clings to christopher as soon as they're up on the fire truck for the rest of the episodes, always keeping chris nestled against his side or tucked under his chin whenever he's not saving people

how he freezes when he hears christopher fall in and just Knows its chris

buck finding christopher's glasses

the fact that we see the moment buck cuts himself and he doesn't even react because he's too heartbroken to feel anything else besides the grief

do i even need to mention buck carrying himself through most of LA on willpower alone?

or the black tent?

or buck calling maddie and not even worrying about telling eddie, just worrying about christopher, until he sees him at the VA hospital?

or how eddie nods as buck stammers through his explanation like he believes that its not buck's fault even as his heart is breaking over losing his child?

or the way buck hands eddie christopher's glasses?

or he was looking for buck?

how about the way eddie presses his forehead to christopher's temple?

and the Look between buck and eddie? buck, disbelieving, relieved, just utterly and completely relieved because whatever happens next, even if he never gets to see his diaz boys again, at least christopher is alive. and eddie, disbelieving, relieved, entirely and wondrously in awe of the man that kept his son safe and alive despite a tsunami.

and buck collapsing because finally, finally his job is done. nothing else matters now.

not to mention!!! the After

wait for me to come home my beloved <3

buck's whole voiceover

the way chris walks into the loft and rests his head against buck's stomach, trusting him to wrap him in a hug, and the way buck hesitates like he's not sure he's allowed

eddie pushing in, eddie, the strong silent type, filling the silence that buck would usually to try to drown (poor choice of words, i admit) out whatever thoughts are going through buck's head as he tries to object to being left alone

eddie's instantaneous, easy switch from nonchalant teasing to serious reassuring

two men five centimetres apart because they are gay!

eddie's hand on buck's shoulder and the fucking thumb on his neck... kill me :D

eddie being honest and vulnerable about his parenting

i love him enough to never stop trying and i know you do too because of course eddie has just had more than enough evidence of that, and not just evidence but tsunami-proof evidence that buck would quite literally go to the ends of the earth for christopher, but this quote, buddie or not, links buck to christopher, to that co-parent role, indefinitely and irrefutably

eddie's little comment about buck losing weight (sir... why are you paying so much attention 🤨)

and FUCK, perhaps the worst of them all, eddie pausing in the doorway, one hand on the doorframe, eyes down as he says buck's name and that little moment of hesitation before he looks up and says thank you. for not giving up.

while we're on the topic of talking about changes the pjo show made that i love, im glad they didn't push the whole Annabeth saying she and Percy *have* to be enemies because athena and Poseidon have beef. Instead she's just this cryptid autistic strategist 12 yr old who stalks Percy and pushes him into the water. She's like "hmm this white boy will perfectly serve my purpose and schemes" and she's so real for that

Ok but have we addressed Apollo's need for perfectionism and how that relates to being the former golden child and how that never really goes away?

How he desperately needs to do everything perfectly and if it's not perfect then he thinks he has failed, no—he believes he IS the failure. That he's not worth anything.

How that was already reflected even before his trials when he went to Percy and Grover to fetch his lyre while he kept practicing for his performance? How he felt the performance could not go on with just three out of four of his golden singers.

When given that new instrument by Leo, how he felt the need to try and master it right away? How he wanted to keep practicing, to get it right.

Sure, he complains about needing to practice but that's not what he was truly upset about. He is used to practicing, he is used to learning. What he was so upset about that he swore an oath on the Styx was the fact that he had already been perfect, he had mastered archery, and music, and then he suddenly lost it all. Apollo was a perfect archer. Apollo was a perfect musician. These were skills that supported his self esteem, his sense of self, these had always been truths, being perfect at these things mattered to Apollo. No matter how he failed at other things, these had always remained constant, he could always reassure himself of his worth.

This is why losing it is like a punch to the gut.

follow the yellow rabbit

diversity win! the man who just stabbed you with his adamantium claws is transgender!