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Freddie: You've been out cattin' with some white boy, I hear.

Uma: He ain't white. He's Scottish.

Freddie: Oh, that's a new kind of white, is it? Scottish White?

So many intrusive thoughts.

But I have to say this about Elsa because I feel like people really don't realize this, but her lack of control was COMPLETELY a mindset thing. It was COMPLETELY an anxiety thing.

I understand a lot of people see her powers as metaphor for autism/being queer/mental illness and all sorts of things. ALL VALID.

Buuuuuuut I have a special connection with her magic because the way her magic functioned when she couldn't control it was incredibly similar to the way my mental illness functioned. I had really chronic intrusive thoughts as a kid that were so bad, I had to get on medication for them. Still on those meds to this day.

I am going to talk about the cycle of fear with her magic.

The way the intrusive thoughts worked for me was a cycle.

Intrusive thought -> Fear I am dangerous -> Push thought down -> Thought grows more intense -> Combined Fear/Resistance creates push for impulse/compulsion -> Fear of being dangerous grows -> Thought grows more intense and harder to control -> Fear turns to anxiety -> Self-loathing -> Growing belief that I am a monster

For those who aren't educated on this, I never hurt anybody or myself. This isn't sadism, psychopathy, or anything that could turn into a violent disorder. This is a form of OCD called harm-OCD and the reason this particular form of OCD is so intense is because the compulsion to release the anxiety/fear/intensity of the intrusive thought is to act on it. Which people with this disorder FLAT OUT REFUSE to do. But if you have OCD, you know how hard it is to resist the urge for the compulsion... but with this version, YOU HAVE TO. On average, people with this disorder are harmless and are in pain because they just want to be a good person.

It's also a very good metaphor for how Elsa's powers function when she was afraid. Because the key here is that the more you resist, the more powerful it becomes.

Elsa has magic -> Elsa accidentally hurts Anna -> Anna almost dies -> Fear will be your enemy -> Elsa fears fear itself -> trauma-induced symptoms develop from her sister almost dying/parent's panic/hurting somebody else sets in -> Anxiety forms around the fear of hurting others -> Mental illness impacts her way of thinking -> Self-belief she cannot control herself becomes a complex -> Magic "misbehaves" -> Elsa gets scared/represses as a form of control -> Magic intensifies -> Elsa grows more scared -> Magic intensifies

There is a difference in the development of my own problem vs Elsa's problem, but the point is we both have this "dangerous" force inside of us we cannot control, that is only worsened by fear.

The comparison continues on, also, in how to handle these "dangerous forces" (outside of medication). The way to handle them is both with love. In Elsa's case, she had to let in love in, Period. Isolation was the worst possible strategy for her when she was a kid. She needed people to believe in her, not fear her. This I can attest to because my parents didn't understand what was going on with me either, and one parent in particular was afraid of me.

In Elsa's case, it was about trusting herself. Love brings trust. And it functioned the same as intrusive thoughts because just like her magic, trusting yourself is key for the thought to pass.

In my case, one thing you can do is sit with the thought. Give it the space it needs. Do not resist. Because I am not violent and just because my thoughts are violent does not mean I am. It is that innate trust that can be built if you apply this strategy to intrusive thoughts because it is resistance that gives it it's power.

Self-trust and external love and support is a big part of what can help both of these examples to go in a positive direction. As a result, Elsa's magic - or my thoughts - can finally flow easily without any fear of hurting anyone.

Aye!

ALL IN FAVOR OF RED WIDOW ENTERING THE MCU SAY AYE

I REPEAT, THIS IS AN AVA ORLOVA/RED WIDOW APPRECIATION POST. I THINK IT WOULD BE REALLY COOL TO SEE HER IN THE MOVIES AND/OR A TV SHOW REBLOG IF YOU AGREE.

no because the bone i have to pick with marvel over the development of female characters. why do we only explore their characters when they’re dead, or going to die. seeing maria in such a personal way with her glasses on and minimal makeup just for her to die? getting black widow when natashas already dead? exploring wanda’s character when they make the switch to villian/anti-hero? not when she’s trying and she’s hurting? but steve has three movies, and bucky has an entire backstory, and we just keep adding onto tony’s long list. these women are constantly a second thought, or a last resort to boost engagement, and i’m sick of it.

Aunt!Yelena x niece!reader headcanons

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a/n: here’s the second one !! writing auntie Yelena has to be one of my favourite things ever :))

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Auntie Yelena who was more than ecstatic to meet you when she first heard about you. She was totally overjoyed when she found out that Natasha was adopting a baby girl

Auntie Yelena who spoiled you with gifts ever since you were a baby. Natasha had once tried telling her to stop because her house simply couldn’t take much more stuff, but after she saw the joy it brought Yelena she had given up trying to stop her

Auntie Yelena who always stole you out of Natasha’s arms when she came over. She always wanted to hold you. After Natasha would put you down for a nap Yelena would sneak into your room and hold you while you slept. Natasha caught her once but decided not to say anything. She adored watching her sister love her daughter so much

Auntie Yelena who took you with her when she went to adopt a dog at the shelter. She valued your opinion more than anyone else's

Auntie Yelena who, when she came over, always brought you a gift from whatever place she had been to then. She was always travelling, and her favourite thing was bringing something with her for you

Auntie Yelena who ‘accidentally’ taught you multiple curse words, enjoying Natasha’s face when you blurted one out. Obviously you didn’t know what they meant. All you knew was that your auntie Yelena would laugh when you said ‘fuck,’ and you took great pride in being able to make your auntie ‘Lena laugh

Auntie Yelena who, when you got older, would take you on little road trips around the city. She would simply show up in front of the house and demand Natasha to lend you to her for a couple of hours 

Auntie Yelena who made the best hot chocolates for you when you felt down, and who would make the best mac and cheese when you were sad

Auntie Yelena who didn’t hesitate to drop anything and everything when you called her while upset, and who would fly or drive to you in a heartbeat if you needed her

Auntie Yelena who loved that you loved her so much. Ever since you were a baby you always wanted to sit in her lap and play with her, and when you grew up you still wanted to hang out with her whenever you could

Auntie Yelena who scolded Alexei when he made fun of you once, claiming he was fat and mean and had no right insulting you with whatever he insulted you with 

Auntie Yelena who broke your trust only once, and that was when she called Natasha while you were being bullied in school. Natasha had comforted you while Yelena went on a little house visit and nearly made the poor girl piss herself from fear

Auntie Yelena who was the sweetest person you had ever met, yet made people fear her with a simple glare 

Auntie Yelena who, despite your age, took you to build a bear when you turned 16. She helped you pick out a soft, adorable bear and when you got to the dressing bit she had basically forced you to give it a small black widow outfit

Auntie Yelena who always supported whatever hobby you started, making sure you had plenty of supplies in stock. If you ran out of something she would know before you did, making sure you were restocked before you started another project and missed something

Auntie Yelena who, in the end, loved you more than she loved herself

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So true. But TBF, @hadeantaiga, Kim Jong Un was deinitely no saint, to understate.

I really think people have forgotten just how bad things were under the Trump Administration. Literally every day there was news about some service being cut or someone terrible appointed somewhere they shouldn't be or what have you. He constantly flirted with WW3 and military dictatorship. It was such a blur of badness that there aren't big standouts for people to point to to make him "the XYZ president." it was everything. all the time. Why do we not remember this.

here is your gentle reminder that there are dandelions growing through cracks in the sidewalk. there is a fence lizard on the porch who is growing a new tail. there are trees growing through an abandoned house, branches tearing through the ceiling, ferns carpeting the floor. there is life pushing forward, pushing through. 

I did not state that you said that Kim Jong Un was a saint.

I really think people have forgotten just how bad things were under the Trump Administration. Literally every day there was news about some service being cut or someone terrible appointed somewhere they shouldn't be or what have you. He constantly flirted with WW3 and military dictatorship. It was such a blur of badness that there aren't big standouts for people to point to to make him "the XYZ president." it was everything. all the time. Why do we not remember this.

I love this!

My version of the Tucker family (PostCovid!) +extras

Added my version of Kenny n Butter's child + Style's daughter (I'll add her brother some day `~`) ++ Wendy's daughter!!! (Ik a lot of daughters, I can't help it that I like drawing girls whoops)

GET TO KNOW THE GIRLS!!!

Christina (Chris) Tucker:

**long black hair, usually braided in the back, has a mole above her lip**

>Peruvian/White

>is her Papa's (Craig) mini me // from the way they act to the way they speak in their nasally monotone voice

>looks more like her papa but gots her dad's (Tweek) nose

>is close to Kam McCormick // Kam calls her "her sister from another mister"

>speaks spanglish often // much to the point where Tweek also picked up some Spanish as well

>her in game persona is always a guy because she finds it endearing (hints to her might being genderfluid or Trans)

>Ace!

Kameron (Kam) McCormick:

**dirty blonde hair, shaggy like hair cut with her ends dyed pink, has freckles**

>Hella white

>makes sure you know she ain't white trash

>loves scene culture hence her hair style

>is a self proclaimed "weeb"

>follows the internet culture religiously

>is always seen with some type of orange on her // bcuz of her dad (Kenny)

>is also his mini me // Butters claims that they can be twins

>looks identical to Butters tho

>Pan!

Stacey-lynn (Stace/Stacey) Marsh-Broflovski:

**black hair (w/ red undertones), is usually seen with a blue headband and gold earrings**

>Also white

>plays volleyball for the school's team // and is the captain and right wing hitter

>learnt how to read and write in Hebrew to please her Baba (Sheila)

>is her Baba's favorite

>her and her brother lived in New Jersey for most of their middle school years

>yes that means they have a jersey accent // though they can mask it pretty well

>has her Papa's (Kyle) attitude but her dad's (Stan) looks

>is a people's pleaser (oof)

>is dating Irene

>Lesbian

Irene Testaburger:

**short black hair, is seen with a pink hair clip in her hair, drawn on hearts underneath her eyes, dimples**

>is from Australia // yes accent!

>not Wendy's bio daughter as she is the daughter of her diseased coworkers

>was adopted by Wendy when she was 13

>moved to South Park when she was around 16 // junior year bby!

>is Korean/Australian

>though new to South Park High, she is already the VP of her class council // last VP dipped

>is a huge nerd

>loves dancing // was in a dance group back in Australia

>is dating Stacey!

>Lesbian!

//I want to personally add the fact that I named her Irene after Red Velvet's Irene! I also made her Korean name Yerim Yoo (shares names with Yeri) and her birthday Feb 10 (shares bday with Seulgi). It pairs perfectly with the fact that she's Wendy's kid too 💛. Testaburger family = Red Velvet?? *insert vine boom* (sorry Joy, I'll add you somehow my love)

Hey 💌 I’m Saja — a mother trying to hold onto hope through days that feel impossibly heavy.

I know you probably see a lot online, but if you could take just a moment… I’d be so grateful.

💫 A reblog of my pinned post could help our story reach someone who cares.

🌿 And if you’re in a place to give, even a small donation could bring comfort to my daughter and help us feel safe again.

@sajagz, thank you for listening.

Even gentle support creates strength.

From one heart to another — thank you 🤍

Thank you for asking! I will re-blog your content.

I hope you and your family are able to find safety.