Actual Best Thing In The Apothecary Diaries Is Maomao And Jinshi Thinking Their Relationship Would Be

Style sobbing, Kant telling him it's going to be okay...

With the sequence of Fadel and Bison going through processing...

I can't!!!

I am not okay.

Give this boy his threesome

MY ''RAY PROPOSES THREESOME ONLY TO BE REJECTED YET AGAIN" PATIENCE IS RUNNING THIN @ P'JOJO

Chen Yi + looking at Ai Di

I normally don't repost stuff but OMFG

if anyone finds the op on douyin I'm grateful 🙏

Thank you !! @poetry-protest-pornography

No one in this show is truly evil. This show is not made to put characters into clear boxes of good and bad. This show is made to show how the lines between those always blur.

They are not good or bad , they are messy and making mistakes. That's not a box, that's human.

There's been a lot of "this character is so selfish" (mostly about Ray, but I already tried about that), and like. That's the point.

They're all selfish in their own way.

They're 22, they're all financially comfortable, they're emotionally illiterate.

Cheum and Mew have cast themselves as superior to the rest of their friends, and treat them all accordingly.

Cheum sees herself as a good friend, as a caretaker, as the one with their shit together; the rest of them are useless fuck ups. She can't even not complain about April-- who is basically perfect, because April wants validation for her movies, and Cheum doesn't get them, so she's annoyed at having to watch. She's constantly talking shit about her friends.

Mew thinks his not chasing sex and relationships makes him superior to his friends. He introduced them all in unflattering ways, while holding himself above them. He doesn't really see them as people, they're characters in his life, and that means he can't see them for who they are. And all this is before his revenge fantasy kicked off and he actively manipulated and used Ray.

Ray's addiction makes him selfish. He wants to be loved so he goes where he thinks he'll get it, even if it's not good for him. When you spend so much of your time trying to numb yourself, it's hard to see anything beyond that. He's still generous with his care and his money, but he doesn't share a lot of himself with most people in his life.

Sand let his need for revenge on Top drive him to do something that he knew would hurt Ray, and used Ray's feelings against him to do it. He lied to Nick and went through his phone.

Boston can't see much beyond his dick, and where his next orgasm is coming from, and even though he isn't particularly fond of anyone in his friend group, he plays the part while purposely doing things to hurt and work against them. He uses Nick's feelings to string him along so he has someone who will provide all the trappings of a relationship without having to commit to someone.

Nick went through Boston's phone multiple times, including before they knew each other for jerk off material. He was so focused on getting Boston to be his that he recorded him and Top, and then told Sand about it, which led to that whole confrontation -- Nick knew about Sand and Ray, and about Ray knowing Boston and Mew at this point, he had to know that that wasn't staying secret. Also, I think it's possible-to-likely that Nick is at least subconsciously manipulating Boston into moving his commitment line every time Nick mentions he might start seeing other people (a friend read this theory and I'm obsessed with it, going to rewatch with this in mind. If you're op of this idea, please lmk!)

Top... Top let petty jealousy over something that Boston-- who he doesn't trust -- told him happened convince him that having sex with Boston again was fine. And then he lied about it, and he consistently used the same "I win you lose" type of language about Mew that Boston does. (I know Top feels bad now, but I don't think he really realized that he loved Mew until Mew dumped him)

They're all dicks in certain ways and circumstances. They're all selfish and self involved and messy.

That's the show, friends. None of your faves are unproblematic. They've all got something that makes them sympathetic to varying degrees, too, but this is about a group of messy bitches who are struggling to keep themselves together, and to hold onto what appear to be the only relationships any of them have without destroying each other (which means lying, or hiding, or ignoring important things).

This is literally just a group of college kids, y'all. And they're here to hurt our feelings and entertain us.

(And maybe let's especially stop calling out the addict with mental health issues for being irredeemable and bad, eh?)

In the middle of nowhere , just the two of us.

BOC loves this theme

Hurt so bad, my handkerchief is drenched. I asked for messy not pain.

“You wanted me to go to rehab cause my dad hired you right? All this time together, did you duped me, making me fall for you and sleep with you?” Ray

“Do you think I don’t have dignity?” Sand

“Yes! You will do anything for money.” Ray

“You can think what you want, but whatever I did was because I care for you.” Sand

“You care about me?? You said that, you wanted me to stop drinking, but here you are, making liquor and selling them!” Ray

😞😢 - offff that hurt even more so that I thought! (And Ray was finally taking the right step….throwing away his alcohol bottles before seeing Sand with his Dad 😭) - but as much as it pains me to say it, Ray is correct - Sand will need to make a communal effort to also minimise alcohol exposure for Ray to successfully be weaned off alcohol, cause the slightest thing can set him back

Only Friends, Episode 10

14/10/2023

biggest reason i make so many flop posts on here is because everything i do reeks of the desperation to make a popular tumblr post. this is deliberate, because it is what protects me from ACTUALLY making a popular tumblr post. so long as i crave it, tumblr fame will never find me. it is only when i turn away, and accept my fate of obscurity, that people will lay their eyes upon me. and it WILL be because i tripped and fell on my stupid face while i was turning