Always The Fool With The Slowest Heart

shocking

I would like to be a hippie, all flowers and kindness and such, but unfortunately the state of the world has made it so I must be incredibly punk. The ideologies are similar and share a lot of roots, but, the hippie mindset can only get you so far-- you can't put a flower in a gun that has already fired into you. You can't sing a song about peace and togetherness when molotovs are more appropriate. And it's hard to be homeless in a I love nature way when the earth is being destroyed to the point that I don't think there's much nature left. All of my friends are at a constant threat of being homeless, and, I want to make a sweet little commune somewhere, and have a garden with vegetables and a chicken coop, and play a very random assortment of instruments around a fire-- but here we are, needing to scream and cry and protest with our faces covered and our phones left somewhere far away and wear non descript clothing and know that we will probably be arrested. Here we are, needing to spread resources for health care that has been made illegal through zines and graffiti on bar bathroom stall walls. Here we are, unable to walk barefoot to feel the earth, because we must wear combat boots and running shoes, because we are being hunted.

wishing all crowdkillers a very painful day. u must taste what u inflict.

for real, crowdkilling doesn't make you punk, it makes you a dangerous asshole who clearly doesn't care about the health and safety of those in your community. quite literally the opposite of punk.

last night after getting badly injured by some cis dude during a song about, by, and for lesbians, someone told me it was my "fault for going to the show". no it's fucking not. attending a show is not an open invitation to be maimed.

punk should be accessible for disabled people. punk is largely FOR and BY disabled people. anybody that says "well if you're disabled then you shouldn't go" can fuck themselves into oblivion. it was OUR show. an event put on and performed by disabled queers. FOR DISABLED QUEERS. ALWAYS.

disabled people have just as much right to attend events as you do. in fact I'd argue we have more of a right to be there bc we don't constantly put the general public at risk of bodily harm.

we should be able to attend our own shows without the risk of life changing injuries bc some dude is taking his anger out on a bunch of strangers.

don't get me wrong, I love moshing. mosh all u want, but have some fucking etiquette and remember that not everybody is healthy and able bodied. and they especially wont be if yall keep hurting everyone.

punk is about community. it's about caring for eachother and creating a safe place for people to express themselves. it is NOT about being violent or destructive, or seeing how many innocent people you can mow down. if you do that shit you're not punk, you're just an asshole.

Willpower is getting stuff done despite bad dopamine regulation. Motivation is what dopamine regulation is.

THIS OMG.

as i said i’m certain the letter is fake, but what’s really concerning me is the possibility of more faked letters that everyone believes, or people who luigi has genuinely took the time to respond to posting those letters online for everyone to see. you do not give a fuck about him if you think it’s okay to post his private letters on the internet. why would you not want to keep the letter between you and him? it’s great that millions of people talk about luigi, but this is the issue with ‘lowkey-fans’ of him or ppl who just want to join in on the ‘trend’ of writing him to see if they get a response. those of us who genuinely care would never think of posting his response online, but because he’s being treated as this trend/spectacle, people know they’re going to get so much attention if they share theirs; they want the media to post the letter because they want their 15 minutes of fame, sparing no thought for luigi whose every move is already being heavily scrutinized. he does not need his private letters being posted on top of that.

one thing that makes me feel better is i do feel like he’s never going to share anything that will go any deeper than simply thanking supporters and wishing them well like he’s been doing so far, because he and karen will know the likelihood of people posting his responses online. it’s sad that he can’t engage in lengthy conversation because of this, but at least it means that if people do post his letters there will most likely be nothing the media can properly manipulate.

the thing that honestly worries me more is people posting fake letters like that girl has done. it’s so easy to do, and this morning i scrolled for ages in her comments and every single person apart from me blindly believed it was real. it just scares me thinking about what else people might pretend he has said - we know for example the daily mail don’t care about factchecking, so like they did today they’ll jump on whatever he has ‘supposedly’ said /: the most dangerous thing is if both the media and the general public are spreading the same agenda, the public who support him might be doing it accidentally just because they’ve naively believed a fake letter someone has posted, but that’s all the media need to worsen their attack on him

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book bfdi

I can't stop thinking about ehr I would go to sleep but I just need to find some sort of outlet fir this intensity involving book so im making a crazy Tumblr rant that literally nobody's gonna read the ramblings of its 1:35 am, which isn't late, but if you consider the fact I usually sleep around 8,9, and sometimes 7, + having to wake up at 4am to eat and 7 am to go to school ,it kind of is. bu ti cast sleep cause my minds too active thinking of book and ways I can create and consume media about her but everything sucks because of course im only interested in the underdog characters that literally nobody acttually gives a shit about, but I guess better for me because I know what to make rants about booookkkkkkk she's os silly and real she has abandonment issues and is just a stupid silly nerd trying to be nice and find her place in a friendgroup people think she's just a typical nerd character, despite her only notable phrase being ' I am actually a book on _' people say she has no substance but then go absolutely feral over fries, like I get the appeal but it makes me sad because your okay with that and not book hookbobookbobookokokobkokokokokokokookokkit would be cool if she had like a price tag as a bookmark like that's so epic she keeps her angel wings and has like a star or something from that one book variation hrhhruhruhrhurhrhrrhr book is o cool she has so many designs and even her own game I need tennis ball and book interactions, or even friendship because why does it feel like the writers are avoiding it. I only realized when in bfdia 18 tennis ball called him and needle the 'only nice/non-saboteurs' despite book being kinder than both them combined. I dont think I've seen tb and book Interact recently. they're both like silly and decently kind and nerdy smart green objects who are known to take a side role in friendships. I really dont get it, but maybe they have something in store because that's how I felt about needle and book before they actually started interacting this episode. im gonna motivate myself to sleep by dreaming about book no w so goodbye if managed to skim read all the way over here

this is what makes me angry. I can't imagine that NOBODY knew about this before the kids actually died. Is this what it will take for people to notice? to CARE?

WOOOO

YAAAAAAY!!!!