My Current Feelings On Episode 8:

Sooo…. do you prefer the Goth and Lover-Of-Life-And-Finer-Things-In-It Dynamic where the Goth ditches their Life-Loving BF(F) in overly dramatic fashion….

…ooor the Goth and Lover-Of-Life-And-Finer-Things-In-It Dynamic  where the Lover-Of-Life-And-Finer-Things-In-It ditches and ghosts the Goth in overly dramatic fashion (possibly sending the Goth into a self-destructive spiral involving a lot of drinking and a mental breakdown)?

just askin’

I do have a piece of writing advice, actually.

See, the first time I grew parsnips, I fucked it up good. I hadn't seen parsnips sprouting before, right, and in my eagerness I was keeping a close eye on the row. And every time I saw some intruding grass coming up, I twitched it right out, and went back to anticipating the germination of my parsnips.

But it turns out parsnips take a bit longer than anything else I'd ever grown to distinguish themselves visually. It's just the two little split leaves, almost identical to a newly seeded bit of kentucky bluegrass when they first come up, and they take a good bit to establish themselves and spread out flat before the main stem with its first distinctive scallopy leaf gets going.

I didn't get any parsnips, not that year, because I'd weeded them all out as soon as they showed their faces, with my 'ugh no that's grass' twitchy horticulture finger.

The next year, having in retrospect come to suspect what had happened, I left the row alone and didn't weed anything until all the sprouts coming up had all had a bit to set in and show their colors, and I've grown lots of parsnips since. They're kind of a slow crop, not a huge return, but I like them and watching them grow and digging them up, and their papery little seeds in the second year, if you don't harvest one either on purpose or because you misjudged the frost, so it's worth it.

Anyway, whenever I see someone stuck and struggling with their writing who's gotten into that frustration loop of typing a few words, rejecting them, backspacing, and starting again, I find myself thinking, you gotta stop weeding your parsnips, man.

i’m so glad earth only has one moon, if there were more i’d have to pick a favorite and that sounds too emotionally taxing to even fathom

my favorite moments from ep 8:

rue absolutely destroying the chorus

THE HORSE REVEAL SNSJDHDJ

hob and binx cry ranting on how much they love rue and andhera respectively

andhera back talking his mom then immediately throwing up when she left

my least favorite moments:

WUUVY NOT DELIVERING THE GOD DAMN LETTER

the goblin court. thats it just the goblin court.

Found several packs' worth of pokemon cards strewn across a target parking lot and took a pic to show my friends without realizing how much my outfit elevated the scene to "aftermath of a wizard duel"

i am treating stranger things 4 volume 2 like the magicians season 5. "If i dont watch it, it doesnt happen." and im happy to stay in my delusion :)). also im not watching season 5 bc im pissed at the shitty writing:)).

it's hard to be a shipper

what ship is on your mind right now?

I just wanna talk about the beauty of Binx and Andheras relationship.

When Binx had the glamour of Gwyn she was gifted half of a shell from Andhera. Unintentionally he gave them a thing that holds beauty but isn't complete due to part of it missing. This is stupidly symbolic of Binx and their court.

Then theres the moment in the maze. How Andhera sees Binx, realizes that shes Gwyn by her eyes. They see her for who she truly is and accepts her entirely. I'm not gonna lie I was on the floor with emotions because of this simple moment.

Then one of the moments that made everyone scream, the crystal heart. We know from the great hart hunt that Andhera feels most comfortable in the darkness and we later learn how truly awful his court treated him. He could use the crystal heart to finally get the respect he deserves but instead they find Binx and place it in their hand. And she in turn mirrors that moment in the maze of recognition even though they can't see who it is, for she knows this is Andhera by his scent alone just as they knew it was Binx by her eyes alone. I'm just gonna stop before I go on forever about this but it was such a beautiful moment.

THE LETTERS! We as an audience are very much aware of the fact Andhera is absolute shit with words but their able to shape the words so elegantly for Binx, the letter comes from the heart for him and it's evident in how wonderful the letter ends up being. Binx leaves a simple note but sometimes the shortest phrases have the most impact. They see each other and they let the other know that.

I could go on and on about the moment in Binxs quarters but I won't. (this is in fact a lie I absolutely am) Andhera trusts them enough to ask them to make him the outfit for the ball. The vulnerability and trust that Andhera shows and gives Binx without a second thought when showing them the shard. How Binx basically spits out her disgust for what the unseelie court did to Andhera. How Andhera is a oath of devotion paladin and he swears an oath to Binxs cause. The knighting of Andhera by Binx, someone who is not of his court but is more deserving of his devotion than his court.

The apple moment lives in my head rent free as well. Andhera has never truly known what it is to have a loving family and in that moment of sharing a memory he was able to experience it for probably the first time in their life. His life has been changed forever because of Binx, she lit the kindling for his happiness. For the happiness he experienced were mere sparks but this moment caused a fire.

I love them and their relationship means so much to me. Till next time thats all. :))