My Rudolph AU Is Very Normal

last song:

favorite color: purple/pink 💗

last film: despicable me 4 (never finished watching)

last show: the last of us (CRYING)

sweet/spicy/savory: sweet all the way i am a sugar demon from the depths of the north pole

relationship: nah

last google search: "deer eyes red" (i wish i could wear contacts rip)

tagging @missevahpony @feliciteacup @identifying-deer-in-posts (you don't have to reply if you don't want to!)

Tagged by the splendiferous @megkenobi (sorry it took me so long, I was in the mental hospital again rip).

🌙 Last Song: 'Steamboat' by Adrienne Lenker

🌙 Favourite Colour: Orange

🌙 Last Film: The Equalizer 2

🌙 Last Show: Lost

🌙 Sweet/Spicy/Savoury: Sour!

🌙 Relationship: Happily divorced

🌙 Last Google Search: "is liquid nitrogen poisonous?" (it's not!)

Tagging: @m34gs, @caesarclowningaround, @queenarahbo, @rudyreindeer, @sarcasticsciencefictionwriter

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ily ugly robots ily

Annual Rudolph the red nosed reindeer art bc its almost Christmas, guys! Woohoo!

If someone comes around the corner or spooks me and I don't expect it, I jump so far backwards they make fun of me 🥲

When I hear a noise that startles me I perk up and turn my head towards the sound and listen for a bit. Sometimes I feel like my ears "move" towards the sound. My hearing focuses better, in a placebo kind of way.

If I'm in a "herd" of people I know I feel wary, like I'm not high enough in the social order, if that makes sense? Likely has to do with my autism, but it reminds me of not being one of the lead matriarchs of the herd. That's a thing exclusive to my whitetail side, however. When I have strong reindeer shifts I feel confident and safe around my "herd" and I have a strong protective instinct because I'd actually have antlers for part of the year along with the natural strength of reindeer in both herd size and strength.

Just a thought post but does anyone get example “ prey instincts “ upon being scared? Like when im scared all i want to do is buck and turn away swiftly but im so limited in this stupid body and also would look weird doing so, also just feeling on edge around people i deem as carnivorous.

The stag in me wants to protect myself and my herd but it’s like no antlers!!

Curious on how it is for anyone else if you are a prey species! Share your thoughts too

When the deer picks a better distance than your horse usually does

I was innocent and wise, and full of pain. Now that I'm a woman, everything is strange.

UPDATE: i am on hiatus from my socials right now. i still lurk a bit but i can't handle talking/posting online or in fandoms again until i get over everything that happened in my life and online. i have trust issues because of some of my experiences online (abusive and/or predatory people taking advantage of me being naive, along with people not respecting my boundaries when i ask them not to bring up triggering or NSFW subjects while talking to me, etc)

just to clear things up NONE OF MY FRIENDS/MUTUALS ARE INVOLVED IN ANYTHING BAD THAT HAPPENED, i'm not trying to vague post about anyone in particular, im only referring to specific incidents that lead up to me needing to detox from the internet (the people involved probably don't even know i have tumblr so they won't see this)

if you need to reach me for whatever reason i will check discord sometimes but please don't talk to me unless you need something, i cant handle people right now. thank you to everyone who has been kind to me and patient, it means a lot.

i just slipped on a leaf this us so embarasing

welcome to my turmblerer this is a work in progress :P