I Can’t Believe That The World Is So Fucked That I Felt Unsafe To Come Out As Trans On My Main Tumblr.

i hate emos theyre so preppy

yall ever get so high you actually rewrite the 10 commandments

I DONT WANT TO BE A DISUSTING PIG ANY MORE

shouldn’t have smoked that Ethel Cain joint… now i’m in the backroads of the deep south

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i guess it's scary to me when white leftists say that the punk scene is the scene where you wanna go if you're trans or a person of color or a drug addict or someone else who's been kicked down in life. cuz like, if you've lived in this scene, is it really where you wanna send people?

i got involved in my local punk scene and the problem is that people aren't actually focused on looking out for each other. punk is heavily white. punk is heavily abled. punk is heavily cis. i know everyone says "real" punk is this and that, but the problem is: i live in a punk house venue. i live in a house where punks throw punk rock shows weekly and invite other punks into our home to throw music and art shows. the DIY scene is a mess. it's full of abusers. it's full of enablers. it's full of queerphobes and tranny chasers. it's full of people who collect vulnerable traumatized people. it's full of people who will hand beers to recovering alcoholics and pass lines to recovering addicts.

this scene is full of people who scribble "this machine kills fascists" on every object they own and turn around and cower and say "I'm scared, can you come pick me up, there's some scary guys outside." because some black dudes listening to some rap posted up outside of the punk show. this scene is full of virtue signaling assholes who put antisemitic symbols on their "battle vests". this scene is full of half-assed "communists" who just want to brag about the big scary words they learned like "praxis" and "proletariat" and "bourgeoisie".

this scene is full of fake socialists who won't lift a finger to help each other, but will drag each other into hell instead.

the problem with punk as we know it is that it's whitewashed to hell and back, and the spaces created by these individuals are not centered around safety, but violence. yeah, you kill fascists, but do you provide meals for the hungry, shelter for the homeless, and harm reduction for the addicted? do you pass out extra blankets and clothes? do you help people get to the hospital? do you pat someone on the back when they turn down that beer? do you remember to not offer a baggie to the person who just got out of recovery?

no? then you aren't a safe person to be around, and you ain't punk. you are the reason this scene is unsafe.

EDIT: UPDATED PATCH PANTS POST HERE!!!

yes i am posting my current patch pants at 2am…

(i need to add so many more base patches on the back ☠️☠️) but these pants have been torn apart and sewed back together soo many times it’s crazy.

my patches are as appear from left to right, top to bottom:

front:

anti-bomb/nuke patch, razor blade patch, tiny little reference to my favorite band…, an angel i drew and then painted, knocked loose patch, just a zipper, orchid patch, wristmeetrazor patch, (can’t see it but there’s a brass knuckles patch on the right(when worn) pocket), HKFY lamb, city of caterpillar patch, werewolf or vampire teeth(up to interpretation..)on the knee, thursday band patch, saetia patch, seeyouspacecowboy, the “cover heart” ep symbol from the band the saddest landscape(this is an original! how cool is that…), a patch that is an inside joke…, and a patch from the metalcore band dance of the seventh crow.

on the back: upsidedown peace symbol (“regular” peace symbol is technically incorrect and kindaaa… Used. to. be used by nazis…. history here) , mitch lucker stomp, another reference to not only my favorite band but my favorite album ever…, anarchy and equality patch, welcome the plague year (band) patch, on the very bottom: “all i wanted was a pepsi!”…

just saw someone put a TW on politics. now it’s bad enough that you think something that is a crucial part of every day life needs a trigger warning. whats worse is the post literally just said “i hate the us.” like yeah thats great. do you understand that the government wants me and my loved ones to die?

now don’t get me wrong, i do understand how SOME politics can be a “trigger”, i once was at a point in my life where certain political talk gave me severe ptsd. but i quickly got over that after realizing that coddling my own feelings for the comfort of blissful ignorance, while literally thousands of people are dying and human rights are being violated, is extremely privileged and incredibly inconsiderate.

(i have so much more to say about this but i’ll cut it off for now…)

let’s do better.

got the fragility cd signed & a t shirt

this is what being on antidepressants feels like