Made These, Like, Forever Ago. Thought Maybe I'd Share Them

i LOVE to see how we're all reaching insane levels of delusion over bobby's death

hi, ummm. this is awkward. haha. yeah um do you think you could push your boulder up somewhere else? like a different hill? because this one’s kind of already taken. yeah it’s the one i’ve decided to die on, so.

Listen, you know why Andrew loves Neil? Why Neil Abram Josten was the one Andrew would allow into his inner space, to allow growing roots where Andrew keeps the remaining fragments of his heart?

Because hardly anyone respects Andrew's boundaries. Renee does. Bee does. Wymack does. Andrew respects his own boundaries to the point of enforcing them at knife point.

But Neil? Neil Abram Josten?

He views Andrew's boundaries as sacred.

Renee, Bee, and Wymack would view crossing Andrew's boundaries as disrespectful at best and a violation at worst. They earned his trust that way.

But NEIL???

Neil views crossing Andrew's boundaries as a fucking sin. As blasphemous. A devoted disciple would sooner spit in their God's face than Neil ever conceiving of crossing Andrew's boundaries.

Some people would look at you erecting brick walls covered in barbed wire and would start looking for a good crack to aim a sledgehammer. Some people would watch you lock a door and try knocking, just once, to see if you'll open it for them. And some people would watch you draw a line in the sand and never dream of stepping over it.

Neil parked his ass on the other side of Andrew's barbed wired multi-layered brick wall surrounding his concrete bunker and stayed there, running his mouth. And when Andrew revealed the hidden door, Neil smiled, stayed put, and kept talking.

Andrew didn't fall for Neil because Neil wouldn't come in.

He fell because Neil waited for Andrew to come out, waited for Andrew to extend his hand, and waited for Andrew to lead him inside by his own volition.

And that's why Neil was the one who earned Andrew's "Stay".

These two make me SOB

STOP SHOWING ME THE BOY WITH THE FLESH HAT

Jon I love you

(The Sunshine Court, ch.13)

I'm still not over this in any way, shape, or form. Like, firstly, what would he have done if she told him no?

But also, can you imagine this from Cat's pov? This ex-raven, who everyone thinks is going to be this huge problem, is actually one of the most gentle souls you could ever meet. He punched your girlfriend hard enough to make her bleed, but it was an accident triggered by touching him without warning at the wrong moment. Despite this, he immediately submit to the idea of being punished, and apologises when you ask it of him. And the longer you live with him, the more you learn of the horrors that mar his past — The scars, the lack of autonomy, the rape — But he still cares enough to ask about the safety of your friend? It wasn't his business, but he had to ask. No one cared enough to protect him in the past, but he still has it in him to care for someone he doesn't really know.

And I love so much that she answers him seriously. She wants him to know that Cody is safe, of course, but she really needs him to know that she wouldn't just allow them to be unsafe like that. She wouldn't be so heartless to tease them if they were in danger. She has a good idea of a lot of the things that went down with Jean and the Ravens, and she needs him to know that things are different with the Trojans. Even if he doesn't trust them yet, she'll say it as much as he needs.

Despite everything, Jean is a good man, and I reckon she'll say that as many times as he needs, too.

so upset with myself, the only jump scares that actually got me were the balloon boy ones😭

Maddie: you need to make new friends

Buck: I slept with my ex

Maddie: please learn to be alone