I Don’t Want To Feel Anymore.
I don’t want to feel anymore.
Numb. Yes, that’s the word. I want to feel numb. I don’t want to be on this rollercoaster of emotions anymore. One minute I’m happy, the next I’m sad. One minute I trust you, the next I think you’re a liar.
Trust. It can’t go on without trust. And you’ve ruined that trust once before. I used to think you were the best person in the world. Now I’ve come to learn you’re the worst of them all.
And I refuse to trust you again. I won’t do that to myself. You’ve put me through enough.
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Sleep, where art thou?
Look like my insomnia is back tonight. I haven't had bad cases since college, but when I get really stressed I just can't sleep. It's not like I'm even actively thinking about things. Maybe it's just all in my subconscious but it's enough to keep me up. I tend to worry. A lot. I know it's not a good thing, but it's in my nature. Someone used to tell me that I worry too much, but he admired that aspect of me. I never understood why. Why would overthinking and excessive worrying ever be a good thing? Did he not know I have a crazy strict conscience, where things literally eat at me? (True story: I get stress ulcers when I stress.) So whenever something doesn't go the way I planned or I'm anxious about something, my head and body goes into worry mode. To anyone reading this: don't be like me! Don't stress over the little things. Everything happens for a reason. If things don't go the way you wanted, just give it time. Maybe it will go your way after all. Just don't give up. Don't lose faith. With that said, I'm working on following my own advice. Everything will be okay!
Time.
Time is a funny thing. It could mean everything. Or it could mean nothing.
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Thankful.
Today I woke up. I woke up in a warm bed, had a warm shower, had a delicious cup of coffee, had a good car help me get to work. All those might not seem luxurious, but it might be considered a luxury to some others out there. It's a blessing to wake up breathing and living healthy. It's a blessing to know that you have a full day ahead of you, and that it's not your last. It's a blessing to have a job to go to, to have an income. It's a blessing to anticipate the next day. So even though the day may have been hard, it's only a few hours away from tomorrow. If tomorrow isn't great either, then hey, there's always the weekend!
Bridges.
"It takes both sides to build a bridge." But does it only take one side to burn it down?
Why, hello there!
My first post! Hmm, what to say?
I got nothing... Just hello! Nice to meet you! Whoever that’s reading this, that is.
Time.
Time is a funny thing. We both love and hate it. There are days and moments when we wished the time would go by faster (for instance, while we are waiting at the DMV). However, there are moments when we wished time could stand still or go slower so we could cherish that moment longer.
Heights and Falling.
I never minded heights. I love roller coasters and high top views. Seeing everything from a new point of view. But falling... Afraid of falling from that high point. Afraid of falling in love. Afraid of getting off that high that I get from you. And so I refuse to fall in love.
Confrontation.
Is it better to wait it out to see what happens, or is it better just go outright and ask what's going on? What if the timing isn't right and you just messed everything up? Is it necessary to know right this instance, if nothing is really wrong? Or does the fact that the curiosity is eating at you enough to make you push for an answer? Or maybe it's just a waste of time to bother. Maybe it's all too late and the changes have already been made. And who are you to alter what's already happened?
