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Thinking about how badly Andrew must’ve wanted to be known. For someone to actually notice things about him and be curious and piece all these observations together. Like. The truth game was just as much about wanting to know things about Neil as him wanting Neil to know him. And even without the truth game being evoked, when he knows what answers Neil must be digging for, he gives in more often than not. I think about how when Neil started noticing Andrew’s odd memory, especially when Neil believed him not to be paying attention and when Neil started finally asking questions, and how quickly Andrew answered them, how he must’ve been thinking, finally.

How much he wanted to be known and by someone he knew by now he could trust. Someone he knew could understand him and the implications of things he’s told. Someone he could tell his own secrets and things he’s been keeping to himself. Everything he let other people assume or misunderstand about him. This little nobody runaway is paying attention, piecing it together, understanding in a way that no one has ever been willing to do, not even his own twin. And when Aaron and Nicky asks him when this happened or other variations of the questions Neil’s already solved himself, and Andrew tells them they should’ve figured them out himself.

The way Neil was the first person to take him at his word, especially about something that wasn’t violence. To look further into him and the things he says and does and actually try to understand him. Not just write him off as a violent psychopath who does things for his own pleasure. The way Andrew wanted him to see more of him and understand him. And I just. My mind is tangles. But I want to go on about this forever.

still foaming at the mouth at the fact that neil and andrew have matching flip phones, matching coats, matching armbands, they both have keys to the maserati. the fact that they are inseparable to the point that jean notices the way they move like they are caught in each other's gravity, the lingering looks when one falls out of the orbit for too long. neil learning the importance of give and take from andrew and offering jean something in exchange for keeping him alive. you are what you love or whatever

can't stop thinking about how nora said that because jean and neil resemble each other a lot, if jean had stuck around more, he and andrew would've gotten along pretty well

"kevin day doesnt see more than the exy court" is such a blatant lie. kevin day i saw ur emo ass crying in the middle of the court telling neil to run away so he wouldnt be hurt. i saw u telling jeremy knox to be careful with jean moreau. i saw ur ass keeping the letter that said wymack was ur father. faker! u care! and u see so much and everyone writes u off as some psycho athlete but ur a lover boy! i see u, kevin day!

andrew and aaron minyard are so "i wish you liked me" "of course i love you" "but do you like me?" coded

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Loneliness has followed me my whole life, everywhere. In bars, in cars... sidewalks, stores, everywhere. There's no escape. I'm God's lonely man.

Taxi Driver (1976) dir. Martin Scorsese

despite all of their traumatic connections to exy, kevin and neil just love and enjoy it so much. when they had nothing, they had exy or the memory of exy. when everything crumbled down around them, exy saved them. in the form of a coach taking them in, in the form of a team having their backs, in the form of a boy promising to protect them and telling them to stay... fell to my knees in walmart crying over these jocks