Thinking About The Time When I Re-read The First Draft Of The First Piece Of Work I’d Ever Written

seeing straight men be disgusted by booktok smut recommenders has actually radicalized me to the side of booktok smut recommenders. girls your taste may be atrocious but i will never disparage you for exposing mainstream discourse to the concept of soaking through your underwear. spent my whole life listening to men talk about penises it’s about time they get jumpscared by women talking about pussy in crude detail on social media. go forth and goon my warriors

“taylor swift ruined football” “sabrina carpenter ruined fortnite”

THANK GOD. men don’t deserve to have an ounce of fun

grumpy x sunshine, i hate everyone but you, four core female group, brother’s best friend, troubled girl x sunshine boy, secret relationships, poor girl x wealthy boy, small town romance, found family, childhood best friends to lovers, it’ll always be/it’ll never be you, dual/multiple pov, sapphic romance, slow burn romance, forbidden romance, one bed trope, fake dating… and more.

oh nooooo i’ve found another cute, awkwardly endearing, adorably nerdy smart funny man to obsess over!!! nurse, she’s out again!!!!!!

except this one really is my soulmate fr i’m manifesting it🕯️🤞🏼🪄🕯️🤞🏼🪄🕯️

i know some people hate when books have playlists… but i honestly love them sm.

from an author pov, it’s my way of showing readers which songs were going through my mind as i wrote the story AND which songs best relate/convey the emotions of whatever my characters are feeling/going through. it just makes them feel more real imo.

it’s also just fun! god forbid a girl have a little fun with her writing!

anyone else have to remind themselves from time to time that they’re in charge of their characters and the plot line? meaning you can quite literally make them do *whatever* you want?

idk why i tend to forget that sometimes. i’ll often find myself pondering certain ideas i get and think to myself “hm, no. i couldn’t possibly do that.”

when i quite literally can???

like i just had the craziest storyline idea for three of my characters and thought to myself “no, i can’t do that. that’s too big of a game changer.”

the thing is, i could do it. and i probably will😭 god this is too much fun. i feel like a mad scientist who’s been given too much power

just tried to outline future chapters and my brain nearly short circuited. my creative mind is not meant to be confined to the chains of bullet points and organization she simply isn’t

just woke up from the most perfect most realistic dream omg i’m never letting myself sleep again💔💔💔

i was IN LOVE with the most perfect man i’m DEVASTATED💔💔💔

sometimes i wish it didn’t take me so long to rediscover my love for writing. it’s something i LOVED as a kid. i loved books and was so mesmerized by the fictional world. then that love got lost as i grew older and i only just started rediscovering it almost two years ago.

can’t help but wonder how much closer i’d be to my writing dreams had i rediscovered my love for it sooner or never lost it to begin with.

Your best writing happens when you stop worrying about what’s “good” and just write. Messy, chaotic, too-long sentences. Weird, overdramatic dialogue. Scenes that make you feel something. You can always clean it up later, but the rawest, realest writing comes from writing like no one will ever read it.