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I would die for Bond. No joke.

i’ll forgive a fat girl for so many annoying things simply because i know how fucking miserable it is to be a fat girl. like. you dont get to exist freely and with any joy until you go through a decades long soul search full of extreme emotional pain OR you nearly kill yourself to become something society might accept. or you toughen up after years of bullying forced you to be more confident. literally there is no painless route to being a fat girl in your 20 somethings. so like. fat girls can be annoying as a treat. you have all been annoying our whole lives

Currently going to the Barbie movie blasting Barbie girl and dressed in all pink. Step up.

On November 25, 2024, I took Cacoa to the vet for a Solensia injection. She's 18-years-old and has painful arthritis, hence the treatment. I thought her life would improve.

I was very wrong.

Her body tanked. Here are the results from the blood work and urine sample. The short version is she's severely anemic and no longer producing blood cells. As for why, the vet thinks it's due to how Solensia works and the possibility of Cacoa having cancer. She had blood work done on November 11th, and it was completely normal. This is no longer the case. The vet thinks her body was managing the cancer and the drug shut that part off and suddenly cancer flooded her body.

Her total bill, from the checkup on the November 11th all the way through today is $1418.33

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All I wanted to do was relieve her of her pain. If I had any idea this would happen, we would've just continued living as we were.

Update: she died, here at home, on November 28th, the same day Jasper died two years ago. She's gone.

I have no idea how I'll manage my grief. 2022 was a horrific year. 2024 has been a shit year. Her health was in decline, with an anal gland rupturing into an abscess, then crystals in her urine, less energetic, less walking around all day, more sleep and sleeping on me. I just wanted to make her feel better, and now she's gone. I haven't been alone, truly alone, for 18 years. She was always with me when I was home, which is damn near 24/7 due to my disabilities. The house is too quiet.

$631/$1418.33

This is the bill thus far. On December 2nd, we will go to a laboratory, with Cacoa's body, and have an autopsy done. She will be cremated when the autopsy is complete. When proof of the drug killing her is presented to the drug manufacturer, we may be reimbursed for everything spent since the drug was administered. Until then, we will have to pay the bill, which will only grow with the cost of the autopsy and cremation. We were told those may be another $1k on the current bill.

I guess whenever men get a microphone, for a podcast or hosting an award show, they always have to be assholes, huh?

there’s absolutely something to be said about ‘booktok’ books being largely wattpad quality written erotica i’m certainly not reading them however having seen a guy on tiktok make a video like ‘all the women in your life are READING PORN’ about a book he picked up and read in his FEMALE FRIEND’S HOUSE in a tone of scandalised horror and disgust i actually don’t think men should be making those criticisms. he said he picked it up expecting a romance and was horrified it was GOONER SHIT he said specifically like ‘who are you getting your pussy wet FOR??’ in a tone of revulsion. idk man im not sure shes the weird one. i kind of wish you were dead

me when i get asked why i suddenly dislike a character (i can’t tell them it’s because i read a fanfic where said character made y/n’s life miserable and now i have personal beef with them)

Your fifth most recent emoji is what your soulmate thinks about you