— Lorde, Sober II (Melodrama)

list of mundane things that feel like ancient human rituals

cleaning or wipe your bare feet

breaking off a piece of bread and handing it to someone

putting the weight of a basket on your hip or head

eating nuts or berries while hunched over close to the ground

seeing something startling just out of your line of sight and very quickly stepping or leaping on to a larger object to get a better view

cupping your hands into running water to wash your face

the unanimous protection of a baby or child in a public space where women are present

when an elderly woman laughs and grips your forearm tightly

food from my dreams

an ongoing list

Glenn Miller; an alcoholic drink composed of bourbon, scotch, maraschino cherries and a slip of something literally golden.

Enoki Mushrooms; mushrooms brought in a plastic box-marinated with garlic, spring onion, soy sauce and chilli sauce.

Sushi mix; a combination of Indian food and sushi, shoved into a laptop fitted for that purpose. The entree consisted of a sushi bento box inside the laptop, while the mains-a larger bento box of more varieties (rice, soup, large sushi-all heavily saturated in colours) were outside the laptop in a similar crevice.

Pistachio macarons; macarons with pistachio filling, resemblant of the ones in Coles that I really wanted to try

Ramen rice; a mixture of ramen with traditional Indian rice and curry that I made for a friend.

Buffet course; the first course was this strange baked cream roast chicken in bread and when you opened it and the waitress also poured a little crouton soup. The second one was this beef dish that looked genuinely so extravagant—the beef was carved like a flower petal on top of the rest of the dish which was a mix between a tartare and something cooked with lots of fruits/vegetables and garnishing

[LATEST] Donut Pistachio Tiramisu; Two or three Krispy Creme donuts that were used as the lady fingers of a tiramisu. Pistachio crumble. The cream that used heavy cream, sugar that melted into cream and vanilla extract. Coffee powder. And I left TeeVee snacks on the counter but never used it.

Teatime :)

Character quirks based off people I know II

- obsessed with making films even as a kid 

- has a weird red stain on her jumper that doesn’t seem to ever go away 

- has lost her viola about three times in a year  

- buys things to impress people (eg. fountain pen, notebook) 

- used to experience slight auditory hallucinations 

- wrote poems about raspberries being metaphors 

- suffers from burnout a lot 

- ‘my cutoff date is 28. I either die committing art theft or assassination or I don’t die at all.’ 

- despises the word soliloquy 

- continuously says the word soliloquy 

- has an (almost finished) KYD wall 

- constantly working on something 

-  brings board games to whatever house she goes to

- incredibly happy when gifted world maps 

- someone once called her dumb and now her life goal is to become better than them in every aspect 

- has leverage on anyone about everything 

- constantly treats everything as a (subtle) competition 

- *draws six lines on leg* “look I’m a guitar”

- constantly comes up with strange pick up lines 

- wants to ‘pull a Henry’ every time she slightly fails at something 

- has a specific due date for crying and it’s a friend’s birthday 

- named all the statues they could find in a small town 

- wore a plague doctor mask to a party 

- has a real knack for wrapping presents 

- her gift for her Valentine was a cheesy heart necklace and a poem based on TSH quotes

- still wanted to be in the rain, so put coats over each other and huddled together 

- her entire personality is ‘JAMES IS ALIVE.’ 

movies that make me feel physically ill

It reminds me of a house that teens would sneak into on a warm Autumn’s day

this blue house feels so cozy yet i have never been inside it

Goya (Luciano Emmer, 1950)

and will you never cut the cloth, or drink the light to be? and can you never swear a year, to any one of we?

oi guys for the love of fuck, i’m not gonna be nice about it

if you’re a non black poc, or worse, white, do not fucking make this about you. do not make it about aesthetics. do not make it about anything other than it is.