Latest Posts by pluralheartmachine - Page 3

i don't CARE if i'm already an introvert, please isolate me more and more and MORE!!

i fucking hate that I can barely make a cut in my arm without passing out t_t

I'm sure I could push myself further but just have zero willpower. I'm so pathetic I think I need someone forceful to make me fall in love with the pain and self harm in particular

transharmed culture is wishing you had bigger pain tolerance :(

Transharm culture is...

Summoning circle

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Please send rq friends! Please send rq friends! Please send rq friends!

please!!!!

I need to be encouraged to get worse, encourage me to get higher, take stronger substances, take more, get drunk, cvt more, make me destroy myself more then I already am, encourage me to just be the destructive little fuckhead I am

transharmed culture is encouraging your transharmful partner to slowly edge out of their comfort zones

transharmed culture is reassuring your transharmful partner that youre ok with the harm theyre causing

transharmed culture is feeling giddy whenever your transharmful partner gives aftercare

<3

Transharm culture is...

I can't really imagine romantic relationships anymore which don't involve tons of abuse, sui-baiting, manipulation, and eventually getting me to unalive myself for their pleasure,, uwu

Ok I won't be picky, we can have a platonic abusive relationship too, but it'd be nice if I could feel romantically obsessed with my abuser

Being human is so exhausting i wish i could get kidnapped and then eventually murdered after a few years

yes hello owo

TransHarmful4TransHarmful | TransHarmed4TransHarmed

Pretty self explanatory but for people who are transharm(ful/ed) that experience attraction to other transharm(ful/ed), exclusively or not.

Yes the flags are just inverted shut up I'm lazy

I'm not delulu enough :c

ppl in my asks should egg me on to smoke more weed and to feed my psychosis :3

omg yes please. feed every self destructive tendency I have. make me break all my own boundaries to impress you.

if someone paid my rent and weed money I'd become their loyal bitch fr

I need someone who is desperate for abuse. I want them to crawl back to me after I kick their ribs in. I want them to kiss my hands and up my shoulders while I caress each scar I messily carved into their flesh.

I need to transform them into something pathetic and vile. I need to make them cry themselves to sleep while I rest peacefully. I need to isolate them socially until they depend on me for interaction. I need to completely ruin their life.

the walls are looking at me cutely 🥺

can i request a trans ppd (paranoid personality disorder) flag?

— transppd [ trans-ppd ]

when an individual wants to have / identifies with having ppd !

we irl

- randomly burst out giggling and answer questions we hallucinated having been asked

- have limbs jerking in circles (not the horny kind :c)

- think everyone outside the house knows who we are and are out to get us

- have blown off every social activity we said we'd go to for a month

- treat the reflection in mirrors like they're different members of our system and subsystems.

- have back and forths with the mirror selves and express our (romantic) relationship this way

we,, have definitely become more psychotic the last year uwu

Which is funny, since our life is actually going ok. its validating to know we can feel this way without it meaning our life is ending or falling apart

do you have any transpsychosis tips?? ^.^

TRANSPSYCHOSIS TIPS 𖣘

- talking incoherently!! like maybe you start a sentence but it like gets mudldred with lgnger words and it compelwtlyy falsl aaprtt andnsdoslme or something like that!! (irl though lol)

- repetitive movements!! do tasks over and over maybe for a sense of comfort or maybe because someone will hurt you if you dont or maybe something else

- hypervigilance

- anxietyyyyy

- social isolation!! nobody can know you know what you know. nobody must know

- depression

the rest is for delusions and hallucinations and i just copied and pasted that section from my transshcizospec tips!! i really need to make an archive

delusions:

- a delusions is simply a fixed belief that doesnt change despite contradicting evidence. let your imagination run wild and then just gaslight yourself. eventually youll believe it.

- if you need more guidance, some common delusions are grandiose delusions (which i experienced), paranoid, erotomaniac (parasocial), somatic, and many more you can google.

- paranoia is very very common!! incorporate it!!

- look at the "how the delulu girls" trend on tiktok!!

- whether or not you choose to talk to people about your delusion is up to you

hallucinations:

- honestly, make them up to gaslight yourself and/or manifest them

- draw whatever comes to mind and tell yourself its your hallucinations

- get sleep deprived!!

-watch things that make you anxious!!

- listen for small background noises and tell yourself its a hallucination

bf and I are doing movie night and we're both so giddy about it uwu

we put up a mirror next to our seat so we can turn to each other to make jokes and it feels validating as fuck,,

"Get angry at #Thing so I dont have to think about it" is just so stupidly textbook behavior, I feel sorry for people like this online,

Victims of social media honestly more than anything else. Annoying cuntwads nonetheless.

Fuck it. Go have fun with your system. People tell you that you're roleplaying because you have odd/cringe experiences? Fuck them. Your experiences are real. And regardless, roleplay is available to everyone and is a fun past time, even if you ARE roleplaying about your system. Go system hop, date your headmates, get overt with it, obsess about interests (which if you're an introject, may be yourself). Life is too short to be worried about haters hating on you. What are they gonna do? Send a hate anon? Ohh I'm so scared~

"identifying that way is invalid" makes zero people not identify that way by the way

is there a trans-id for being made of balloons, like your organs (including skin) or hair

We started dating again and I'm his phone wallpaper 🥺🥺

while we are a traumagenic did system ourselves, we are pro-endo, and i (samuel) wanted to say to any anti-endo's reading this or following us,

ITS IS FUCKED UP TO DENY A BEINGS EXISTENCE BECAUSE YOU ARE CAUGHT UP ON HOW THEY CAME INTO EXISTENCE.

wondering if the #pro delusional community still exists somewhere

Do it halfway. Take one piece of trash out of your room, throw one dirty shirt into your hamper. Go to one class and miss a different one. Start a drawing without pressure to finish it. Give yourself space to Be without the expectation to Become, and do small things to make the Being livable.

Rainy days in fall are the best :3

FRIENDS! PLURALS!

This review regarding non-disordered plurality was just published September 12, 2023 - and better still, it focuses on the voices of those with lived multiplicity experiences, not just professionals' opinions & observations! (AND it's free access!)

https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/full/10.1002/cpp.2910?fbclid=PAAaYA2EcZAxCD7cDTUWhV93l1pCsh9ovJMddm5oZ8_V1-PQ7pjum3K4AxhEo

Some highlights:

...DID is characterized as having ‘two or more distinct personality states’, in addition to gaps in memory recall, which cause significant distress to the individual (Reinders & Veltman, 2021, p. 1). Comparably, multiplicity describes the experience of being more than one self and is not a diagnosis. Multiplicity is associated with a lack of distress, and impairment in functioning, and often does not involve amnesia between selves; however, some people who experience multiplicity have received a diagnosis such as DID or OSDD (Young Voices Study, 2021). Due to the heterogeneity of dissociative experiences, multiplicity can encompass various presentations as described in this review.

...prevalence rates of multiplicity-spectrum conditions are difficult to extrapolate due to limited reporting and identification, although suspected to be between 4.6% and 46% (Loewenstein, 2018). Indeed, Ross et al. (2002) acknowledged many individuals do not meet clinical criteria as a result of a lack of negative impairment; however, they do align with other descriptors of dissociative experiences. Thus, there is a need to understand the wide spectrum of experiences multiplicity encompasses to consider how an awareness of multiplicity can exist outside of an illness model, reducing stigma and thus stigma related distress surrounding multiplicity (Eve & Parry, 2021; Parry et al., 2017).

...there remains a paucity of understanding surrounding multiplicity-spectrum experiences, especially for people who identify as multiple but for whom multiple selves do not cause functional difficulties in day-to-day life. For people who experience the presence of inner multiplicity but do not suffer distressing consequences from their multiplicity experience, they can feel misaligned, misinterpreted and overlooked by the medicalization of their inner world.

The findings of this review support the notion that multiplicity experiences are complex and varied, existing across a continuum inclusive of multiplicity, DID and derealization–depersonalization (Sar, 2011).

This is huge! So cool to see these perspectives and some scientific literature surrounding non-disordered plurality!

for some of us, this community is all we have. the people we know in "real life" don't really know us at all, and sometimes this secret of ours is more of a burden than a gift. please treat one another with kindness.

Plural culture is thinking you're faking when you can't hear your headmates for more than 0.5 seconds.

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anti-endo logic: endogenic systems don't exist, quick, bully them until they develop enough trauma to become a REAL plural

wheelchairs and canes and glasses and hearing aids and every single other mobility aid should be free btw and if you disagree i hate you

i just wanna say i love my headmate boyfriend very much >:3

You werent evil, you were 13 with an untreated personality disorder

more sysmojis

in order- in-sys s/o, in-sys bf, in-sys gf, in-sys fp

"You must have trauma to be a system"

"You must have dysphoria to be trans"

Skillfully avoiding a bingo it seems

edit: OH SHIT i realized since last night someone fake-claimed me :D :D but still doesn't get me a bingo :(

To anybody who likes bingos :)) - Unknown