Life Update

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nobody’s gonna stop me

nobody’s gonna stop me from posting whatever i want on here.

ok maybe the moderators will and if i violate the tos, but i mean like the amount of times i post in one day. i have one follower who is my friend, i think i’ll be fine.

anyways, i saw a movie today it was fun!!! went with my dad and i don’t really like action movies but this one was alright. he wanted revenge for his wife (the amateur is the movie name) after she was killed. anyway, i also saw an ad for Thunderbolts. it looks fun and i wanna watch it with my friend so we can pregame prom. ALSO MY DAD ASKED AGAIN IF THERE WAS ANYTHING ROMANTIC BETWEEN US. NO‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ i don’t think he understands that people with 3 years age difference shouldn’t be getting together??? like i mean cause he’s 18 and im 15??? so like????????? what??????????? bro is literally about to graduate and i’m a freshman. get my dad outta here.. ALSO I HAVE A BOYFRIEND???

also, during the movie i kept thinking about brr brr patapim (those who know).

@frankcastleautism enjoy the read i promise you’re mentioned

Where’d my title go… anyways, Blocking Freely

yo… how do people block freely. sorry guys i feel too much guilt… i had to get my friend on call with me in order to block an actual creep…. someone give me the confidence and courage to block freely. okay i mean i also don’t have to block often in general??? i just think like idk maybe they deserve an explanation guys…. right…. right guys…. i feel like im being pointed and laughed at 💔 sorry guys i’ll do better

i physically cannot go outside without music, without my phone, without something. i cant go outside until ive had enough because i'll be bored by then. this should be my excuse for being so brain rotted, is that i cant have 0 stimulation. if i dont have stimulation i explode.

Not to go "if you have ADHD just go for a run" or anything, but I am so serious if you have ADHD you should regularly go outside, no headphones no phone no nothing and just stand and observe for a while until you've had enough. Not until you get bored, until you've had enough. Drink your coffee without watching tiktok. Have a bath without music. Turn down the volume in your headphones. I cannot overstate how much learning to be bored is cruicial with ADHD. Life is not just about pleasure, no matter what your dysregulated dopamine system thinks, and when you teach your brain to be okay with being bored, then boring tasks stop feeling like torture. By letting yourself be bored you are yoinking your system out of the high/low binary and allow for the highs to feel like actual highs and not just anything that isn't low. I am so serious go literally touch grass. Listen to the sounds in your flat. Stimulate your body the way it was designed. It lowers anxiety and makes you feel like you're real and best of all it's completely free

ok i’m back guys

okay i was watching instagram reels and not studying like i should be. anyways, i saw a reel and this kid was crying. it was fine but oh my fucking god, what pissed me off is that the other people there (they were trying to comfort him) kept lifting up his face and touching his face. like get the FUUUUCKKKK away from him. at the very least don’t lift his face?? sorry maybe that’s just a me thing? like yes i get it you’re trying to comfort the boy but also he’s literally pulling his face away from your hands… stop touching him lil bro… like just give him a hug stop trying to get him to lift his head. i’m just putting myself in that situation, which people have lifted my head while i was crying in the past. it does jack shit like stop touching me lil bro. let me cry in peace. like i don’t want to show you how red my face is from bawling my eyeballs out… sorry guys is this just a me thing or do you also get annoyed when people lift your face while you cry..

pov mom left 5 yo me alone with scissors for 10 minutes

good morning

a question for the masses:

life update

sisters tennis thing is over with, now i’m in the car. mom is smoking outside, i can smell it. it’s definitely not my favorite smell in the world, i can’t wait to get lung cancer from second hand smoke!! phone is charging, back at 22% now. it’s so hot in the car. Drain You by Nirvana just finished and now i’m listening to American River by Destroy Boys. i miss my boyfriend. siiighhhh. just got a lil bugger off my hand. also i in fact did not get any videos of my sister. perchance. ugh im baking in this car. i saw someone with a Kill Em All shirt, it was lit!!!

moms grabbing another cig?? no nevermind this is lit. listening to War Pigs by black sabbath now. i think my mom feels better? she seemed a bit down after the tennis thing. it’s alright though, we’re lit. phone is at 25% now!! we’re going back to my city now. i feel like saying city means they’re super far apart, but it doesn’t feel that way. we’re actually going to another city which isn’t mine, but close. i’m kind of tired, but i’m glad to be hanging out with my mom :3

Good afternoon

currently watching a tennis match while typing this, but i’m more so focused on typing this.

yesterday i got some cookies and cream ice cream (my favorite) and i went to the tennis thing :3 it was FREEZING COLD (in the 50’s) but i had a jacket so it’s okay!! tennis was fire and i stole a piece of pizza (it was free dw). i ate some pasta for lunch and oh my god that was so yum. omg omg also i was passing some girls earlier yesterday and they were speaking in a different language but as i walked by them they started whispering and giggling so ummmm i hope they weren’t talking about me!! fire fire 🔥🔥🔥

today i’m eating famous amos cookies and watching a match, like i said earlier. it’s 55 degrees out (feels like 50) but i have layers on!!! 3 layers of socks, 2 layers of pants, and 5 layers of shirts!!! goated!!!

woah

woah guys!! guess who just went prom shopping!!! i ended up getting a vest and a black collared shirt (which ended up being free!). i was looking for a vest and pants but i guess i’ll have to make due with the pants on this one 💔💔💔 SO EXCITED FOR PROM THOUGH IVE NEVER BEEN