AAAAAAAAAA

it's barely been a week since the new semester has started and there's SO MUCH work

meetings are endless and workload is piling up im trying to get ahead of tasks but staying motivated is difficult :/

also, happy new year to everyone (⁠◕⁠ᴗ⁠◕⁠✿⁠)

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

random uni photo dump

these are pictures from my last week of my first year at university and my first week of summer break

can't believe first year is over, i feel like i didn't do much extracurricular-wise but atleast my academics were good? eh

i have a lot of things planned for the summer break, hopefully im able to complete atleast half of the list ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ

ill make the list here so i can hold myself accountable lolol

things to do over the summer:

Intern at NGO - mandatory uni requirement

Take my DSLR out more - improve photography/documenting skills

Join dance class again

Make a LinkedIn account

Get into politics

Try new Art - embroidery/a new painting style

Join a gym (very scared about this)

Learn driving and get a license

Play more badminton

Do major-related courses/workshops/internships

Learn basic cooking

🌹🌻🌈

nothing like studying biological bases of behaviour at 8 a.m.

mark my words, your sleep WILL be taken away. doesn't matter if you're very drowsy, it WILL be gone because there's so much content (⁠ ⁠･ั⁠﹏⁠･ั⁠)

second year of uni has started in full swing!

went through personality theories for my personality psych assignment

made a cute study set up <3

(tried) to start my biological bases of behaviour course's assignment by reading the assigned research article

did a mini art project for said biological bases course because ✨why not✨

rant coming up because why not

so i feel like im sucking at the whole "college experience" thing

i haven't hit rock bottom in terms of my academics but im so SO scared that i might. istg college level assignments are no joke and I FEEL LIKE IM ALWAYS LACKING UGH

i haven't participated in any clubs or committees or any student activities. either because whenever there's smtg, im tired or because im undermining/second guessing my skills.

LMAO recently ive also been thinking that im just plain talentless like everyone has their 'thing'. what's my thing? nothing. there's nothing that i can confidently say is my thing.

yeah my self esteem has taken a hit after coming here.

i keep comparing myself to one of my friends and honestly im envious of how she's actually experiencing college and how involved in the clubs/activities she is. and she's so funny, bubbly and smart and everyone likes her.

okay that's it for the rant, ill be fine eventually (atleast that's how i pacify myself). maybe others also feel the way i do, maybe my friend feels this way too and i just don't know it🤷

omfg first class of uni today, im so so scared but it's intro to sculpture so im a littleeeeee relaxed

but then i have academic writing in the evening

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

anyways wish me luck

second year of uni is over!

felt like it was yesterday that i moved in, all excited for the new year and it's suddenly just over :(

also technically it's not over because i have an abnormal psychology exam still left tomorrow but most of my exams/jury exhibitions are over and i feel sad ngl

but anyways i will try my best to study for the last exam after a cute dinner i had last night while watching apothecary diaries (love maomao sm)

till next time <3