Depression Is A War. 

When you finally overcome the helplessness just long enough to talk to a professional about how messed up things are, and they call to cancel two hours before the appointment.

It's just like ordinary, everyday experience, only two inches from the ground. Of course it'd be my favorite piece by Audiomachine that's an industry release... They really did capture the feeling.

I beat up myself so I don't beat up others.

Seems I've underestimated my capacity to hate.

Never have I been so frustrated by anything. Kyudo is possibly the most difficult thing I've ever undertaken as a discipline. Guess it goes to show little control I have over my own movement and breathing.

I realized today my list of people I want to meet is almost empty. A lot of them are dead now, and that's pretty depressing. All I can hope is to meet Cary Elwes someday.

Dream job right here. Saving the world from Mordo and other-dimensionly things whose mere existence would make your head explode.

The funniest thing is that the same argument can be given about the F35. Only the F22 wasn't several billion over-budget by the time it started working. To my knowledge, the F35 still doesn't work the way it's "supposed" to.

Uhg... Why am I awake?