So I’ve Scanned The Pages Of My Risographed Fashion Study Zine (you Can Buy That Here)

Here’s the complete comic, compiled in one spot. 

11/14/22: I’ve taken both “Naruto: The Last King, The Last Priest” and “Therapist R. J. Hill” off my etsy store. Both comics can be read, in their entirety, on this tumblr.

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Dreamed that my cat, Winnie, had kittens. I knew that cow milk actually wasn't good for kittens, so I was frantically searching the Internet to figure out what to feed them. Dreamed that I was downloading the music of a band called "Intervesante." The band's lead singers were a set of Jewish-Jamaican teenage twin girls. I really wish that band existed in real life.

Did I tell myself I would wait to post these until I’d completed a couple more pages? Yes. Did I get impatient and post them anyway? Yes.

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Christina the Astonishing

13x14

acrylic

A gift for a therapist.

Christina the Astonishing was a woman in the 13th century who, around the age of 20, had a seizure so severe that friends and family thought she had died. During her funeral service, Christina levitated out of her grave, and up to the roof of the cathedral. When Christina came to land upon the church altar, she told the congregation that she had seen Hell, Purgatory, and Heaven. In Heaven she asked for angels to return her to Earth so she might lead others to salvation.

Christina claimed she could sense the sins of others, and they pained her. To escape this, she levitated into the tops of high trees.

She is sometimes considered the patron saint of therapists, mental health workers, and the mentally ill.

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Cute people at the bus stop.

Drawn from memory.

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Reblogging for the daytime

CHARITY ART COMMISSIONS!

I’m opening 5 slots for 5x7in painted portrait commissions (in this style). Each piece is $45, $20 will be donated to @RAICESTEXAS, $20 will be donated to @AmazonWatch, $5 will be used for shipping the piece.

Email me at panicvolkushka@gmail.com or DM me

Patrons will receive the original painting, a high-res scan of the painting, and a screenshot receipt of the donation to RAICES and Amazon Watch.

You can make your own prints, put it on a shirt, use it as an avatar, as long as I’m credited. I will not sell prints of the pieces, I just ask that I’m able to post the image to my tumblr and other social media sites.

Gather 'round for the tale of the apartment horrors I have just escaped!

At the beginning of March, upstairs neighbors' fish tank leaked through their floor and my roommates' ceiling. Landlord came by, said the water was cleaned up, we just needed to open windows and run a fan, not a big deal.

In a semi-basement apartment. In the pacific north west.

I requested the place be inspected for water damage and mold. Landlord said he'd have the upstairs neighbors bring over a fan.

Just... A regular fucking fan.

I sent another request, this time citing local landlord/tenant law. Landlord agreed to get the place inspected.

Over the course of two weeks, we had THREE different inspectors, NOT including the city inspector.

1st inspector said they'd need to open ceiling and wall and deep clean.

2nd inspector said the place had foundation problems and seal around underground walls was cracked.

3rd inspector said they'd need to open ceiling and wall and take out the carpet.

3rd inspectors came in, opened the ceiling and found mold.

As well as asbestos.

(BTW, my maternal grandfather died of asbestos-induced lung cancer.)

So the landlord ~generously~ allowed us to move from that unit to a vacant unit. Which probably also has mold and asbestos.

While this was happening, I was having to take off from work and cancel appointments at my internship to meet inspectors and tenant advocacy groups.

I lost my appetite, barely ate.

Developed new anxiety symptoms: Heart palpitations & shortness of breath.

I found a studio apartment, smaller than any place I've been in so far, shared kitchen, more expensive, but nicer, in a nicer neighborhood. It basically wiped out my savings, but I was able to move out and get my name off the lease.

Landlord is now trying to make upstairs neighbors pay rent on the unit we vacated. He hasn't done any repairs in their unit or that one. They, and my ex-roommates, are lawyering up.

Idk if I'll get any of that deposit back but I'm fucking O U T!

To those of you that bought art from me or gave to my ko-fi, I can't even begin to say how much that meant to me. It really did make a difference.

These are my breasts and nipples, complete with acne, moles, and hair. Will this image violate tumblr’s new content rules?

Examples of exceptions that are still permitted are exposed female-presenting nipples in connection with breastfeeding, birth or after-birth moments, and health-related situations, such as post-mastectomy or gender confirmation surgery.

I am a transgender man. I have not had the opportunity or the money to have top surgery. I am excruciatingly aware that the “gender presentation” of my nipples is in the eye of the beholder. Disconnected from the context of the rest of my body and gendered presentation, they look like “female-presenting” nipples. Hell, there are plenty of cisgender women with more chest hair than me.

Are we going to determine the “gender presentation” of my nipples based on my legal gender? That’s debatable too. My most recent legal IDs list my gender as “male,” but my birth certificate lists my gender as “female.” I cannot change the gender on my birth certificate without going back to the state where I was born and getting an order from a judge, and paying a fee. Until I have the time to and money to do that, there will always be at least one legal document where I am still considered female.  

Written content such as erotica, nudity related to political or newsworthy speech, and nudity found in art, such as sculptures and illustrations, are also stuff that can be freely posted on Tumblr.

I would say this painting has artistic merit, at the very least from a technical standpoint. I’m sure there are plenty of people who would see no artistic merit in this painting, regardless of technical skill. The line between “nudity found in art” and “adult content” is as indistinct as the line between “naked” and “nude.” Tumblr and Facebook’s new policies stem from SESTA/FOSTA [LINK] and corporate monopolies [LINK].

Policies meant to curtail sex work always hurt more than they help, whether the sex work is voluntary, coerced, or forced. Example: NYC, LA, San Francisco, and Washington D.C. have all had/have laws that allow possession of multiple condoms to be considered evidence of prostitution, resulting in arrest or the confiscation of the condoms. So, no safe sex if you're doing sex work, I guess?

Policies like these disproportionately effect people and communities who are viewed as being "inherently sexual" or "overly sexual." Facebook's overzealous new policy prohibits reference to "sexual preferences." I will bet money that policy won't be enforced when a cis het man makes a status update about "I like girls with [insert physical attribute here]," but it will be enforced when a queer person refers to a top, a bottom, a switch, a Daddy, a [insert relational attribute here].

As to what constitutes art and how that concept gets weaponized against LGBTQ people (and other oppressed groups, I'd argue), just read about the history of conservative loathing for the National Endowment for the Arts [LINK].

I don't think my little protest painting will make tumblr and their corporate overlords change their minds. But I couldn't not express my opinion on this.

I don't know if this blog will get flagged or deleted or whatever. I'll keep using tumblr until I no longer have a reason to. But, just in case, I'll be setting up a pillowfort, and maybe a poizen. In the meantime, you can keep up with my shitpost tweets HERE.

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Panic, from what you have posted lately I cannot help but feel that you are Good and Kind and A Friend, thank you, it is very important what you share, it helps us all. I hope you have a good day, thank you.

Thank you so much! I hope you have a good day too.