I’m On Season 12 Episode 4 Now! So Close Yet So Far From Jack, But Hey I’m Close To Kelly Time!

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CLAIRE NOVAK!

it’s so scary that fish teeth sometimes look like people teeth. you’re not supposed to have that. well maybe piranhas are scared of us having piranha teeth. i will reflect on my human centric worldview (folds my hands behind my back and gazes out at the horizon)

as a celestial being, jack chose to age himself up so he could have autonomy and decision making. it’s actually so frustrating and heartbreaking to see that taken from him after he fought so hard to have it by being constantly infantilized and used as a prop. like obviously jack isn’t a real person, he is a character and therefore doesn’t feel things like the autistic people in the fandom that actually see the real world effects of ableism, but i have a strong suspicion if he was he would not like how he is perceived by the majority of the fandom. his reality is bloody and goofy and full of scales tipping too much one way or another. he is sensitive, he is kind, he is ruthless, and intense. many autistic people are contradictory and we see y’all take our complexities within him. and we also see him watered them down into something more palatable. we have anger, rage, the highest stats of self harm and substance usage, we are locked away for losing control, we are killed for it. all of these things are so relatable to jack as a character and it’s such a disservice to autistic young adults who see themselves in a character to see them infantilized and basically lobotomized, because damnit not children stuck in adults bodies and most autistic children don’t get to be themselves. we are seen as either babies or threats and if that isn’t jack, idk what is. i think because of this, much of the content surrounding jack is OC and OOC purely because of how much different he is, based on how much is stripped. it feels like people don’t see that because they only see his mask when that’s only one part of him. jack is an all encompassing character and i really wish we saw more depth with him in art, fics, etc besides just being a baby. maybe it’s because im an autistic adult who never got to be a child and who everyone loved as a baby when i didn’t have problems, but it reeks of ableism to give an autistic person an entirely different personality and age to make them more digestible to the allistic/neurotypical reader.

"mid" wife?.....ha, ha......no such thing.

Sam and Jess took a creative writing class for credit and Jessica wrote horror and Sam corrected all the details about killing monsters for her and when she asks how he knows he finally decides to tell her the truth and goes “one time my family killed a werewolf” and she laughs and goes “yea right youre so funny babe” and he drops it forever

Marie: it's rufus

Jordan: 100%

Marie: it's cate

Jordan: 100%

GOD. SAM SHOULDVE KNOWN EVERYTHING ABOUT LUCIFER.

He should’ve known it wasn’t Cas from the second they got back. He should’ve known where Lucifer would go, he should’ve known all his plans.

They were together for DECADES. And Sam knows nothing? I refuse to believe that.

Casifer makes one movement, says one thing after coming back and Sam sinks to the floor, screaming “That’s not Cas.” At the top of his lungs and Lucifer is QUICK with his “Never could’ve fooled you, Sammy.”

Now I cant stop thinking of demonic Sam post demon blood addiction and killing Lilith. Cas said the amount of demon blood that Sam would need to ingest would change him irreparably yet Sam was normal post s4 finale. Maybe he was thinking of Lucifer but I doubt but God clensed him so maybe he fixed him but eh. So Imagine Sam being permanently marked by the demon blood but not entirely, like it's just subtle enough when he's not drinking it, like his iris are more yellowish but still his usual colour, his pupils are always dilated and theres a thick ring of black around where his iris meets his sclera (whites of his eyes) and when hes drinking demon blood or using his powers the black expands like a usual demons.

Sam has blood that reacts to holy water which makes sam really nervous around other hunters because if the water gets in his wounds hes fucked. Sams able to see hellhounds and other demons who are possessing people. He can walk through most devils traps except when hes been drinking it.

obviously dean digging himself out of his own grave is the cold open of the century but I maintain that there’s a version of Lazarus rising which exclusively follows a nameless and increasingly frightening tax accountant looking mf who gets a couple of talking tos from his boss about “the mission” and “what he has to do” while intermittently suffering disturbing visions about a woman named anna who keeps saying you have to REMEMBER, try and remember and he’s like remember what remember what??? and it culminates in a featureless room where he stands before a mangled body and begins pressing his hands methodically into the flesh, like a potter. and we see that he’s healing it. increasingly loving, this act of healing. somehow passionate. somehow artful and unstoppable. he gets to a cluster of old scars on the shoulder and overcome presses too hard and it hurts, it BURNS, it sears them both. when he finally jerks his hand away, his handprint is branded into the skin and his own palm is raw and bloody, the first layer of skin brutalized. he reaches down again, closes his hand around the brand he just left. fascinated. unable to stop himself. and THEN dean seizes to life in his coffin