Due To The. Ah. Tiktok Situation I’m Prob Gonna Be Posting More On Here!!!!

I’m. There’s. The fuckinf. AAAAAAAUUUUUUHHHHHHH

The animaTRONICS OF UNIVERSE HTTYD IM I CAN

IM LOSING IT. HEART PALPATIONS. SHAKING. QUIVERING. SHAKING SCREAMING SRUONG LIGHT FURY ANIMATRONIC MAY E?????

When I was like eight I put into my diary, word for word, “I am a semimer. I am part cat, wolf, and bunny.” (if any of yall get the semimer thing I will marry you.) I was also fully convinced I was turning into the light fury.

I am even worse.

- signed, a lightfury and mermaid otherkin, felid and canid claedo and cheetah therian. i am so, so much worse.

My Gender is Their Gender

People forget the true definition of xenogender, which is a gender that cannot be described or experienced or fully explained by humans. And while this often leads to hoards, as people try to capture their understanding of their own gender. But for me, it’s been slimming down instead of gaining, turning to one point.

My gender encompasses the gender experience of animals, most specifically, the animals I am as a nonhuman. Parts of my gender are obvious, I wear brown feathers like the mallard, I avoid the mane when I can. But underneath there is this iceberg. The xeno part of my gender that I can only describe as the gender an animal experiences. A gender I in a human body will never fully quantify.

Lets for example, take the bird. Humans like to make it simple, applying their gender norms to them, female takes the eggs, male fucks off. And yet male emus are the most devoted fathers, female cuckoos abandon their clutches for other hens. Okay then, maybe males are big and flashy, and females are brown. And yet, a large majority of bird species are not sexually dimorphic. Femininity and masculinity encompass and share so many aspects that they don’t exist. And the “social construct” aspect of gender is exposed, and the rules break. Human gender means nothing to an animal.

The lioness who hunts for the pack grows a mane, the mallard who cares for the chicks grows in their iridescent colours.

And that, in some way, is me. Femininity, nullness, neutrality, transness, binary. All of it, in all its wonder, and all of it that i cannot handle to think of, is mine. I’m a female animal and that basically just means nothing and I love it. It fulfills everything neutrois and nonbinary is meant to be. I feel so gendered, it’s just in a way that humans don’t understand.

I’m brown like the mallard. It makes me female and yet it just doesn’t. and I have nipples on my belly like a lion and a lioness. None of it means anything and all of it is everything. It makes me want to chirp loudly with joy.

IT DID BOTH😭😭😭😭

Tomorrow is act three day. we’re either going to be fed or ripped apart emotionally limb by limb there is no other outcome

honestly I think this would heal me

My favorite time of the day is when my wife opens the back door, checks my tag to make sure she can still get updates on my exact location, and then my partner always says "Be Free". For the next 2 hours I explore all my spots and go as far as I want/can and once my free roam time is up they pick me up in the car and whistle to find me.

Get you people in your life that will fully embrace you for everything you are.

dreamworks not making this into an actual scene is KILLING ME this is HOMOPHONIC!!!!!!

ok so i got to do stuff with shapes and colors and like some math and writing random symbols fast. more to come in like two weeks.

going to get psychiatrically evaluated today!!!! let’s see if there’s a reason why I act the way I do or if it’s normal and it’s just a random placebo effect!! or it’s also normal and everyone is the way I am they’re just more used to it and I’m for some reason not!!!!

!! (not real) RELIGIOUS THEMES !!

We both have ocs with religious psychosis (we’ve done research into how to portray it properly!!) so we wanted to do an art trade with them!!

this is Fretowa. she is probably not ok rn but im not sure. her gods are not very nice but it’s their will so they’re probably right I think

(this isn’t Christianity this is random made up oc religious stuff)

Tomorrow is act three day. we’re either going to be fed or ripped apart emotionally limb by limb there is no other outcome