The Thanksgiving Curse Fucking Got Me Again

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shadow is here too say hi shaodw

My Gender is Their Gender

People forget the true definition of xenogender, which is a gender that cannot be described or experienced or fully explained by humans. And while this often leads to hoards, as people try to capture their understanding of their own gender. But for me, it’s been slimming down instead of gaining, turning to one point.

My gender encompasses the gender experience of animals, most specifically, the animals I am as a nonhuman. Parts of my gender are obvious, I wear brown feathers like the mallard, I avoid the mane when I can. But underneath there is this iceberg. The xeno part of my gender that I can only describe as the gender an animal experiences. A gender I in a human body will never fully quantify.

Lets for example, take the bird. Humans like to make it simple, applying their gender norms to them, female takes the eggs, male fucks off. And yet male emus are the most devoted fathers, female cuckoos abandon their clutches for other hens. Okay then, maybe males are big and flashy, and females are brown. And yet, a large majority of bird species are not sexually dimorphic. Femininity and masculinity encompass and share so many aspects that they don’t exist. And the “social construct” aspect of gender is exposed, and the rules break. Human gender means nothing to an animal.

The lioness who hunts for the pack grows a mane, the mallard who cares for the chicks grows in their iridescent colours.

And that, in some way, is me. Femininity, nullness, neutrality, transness, binary. All of it, in all its wonder, and all of it that i cannot handle to think of, is mine. I’m a female animal and that basically just means nothing and I love it. It fulfills everything neutrois and nonbinary is meant to be. I feel so gendered, it’s just in a way that humans don’t understand.

I’m brown like the mallard. It makes me female and yet it just doesn’t. and I have nipples on my belly like a lion and a lioness. None of it means anything and all of it is everything. It makes me want to chirp loudly with joy.

THIS IS ACTUALLY INSANE OH MY GOD????

Parallels.

[ID: Stylised, digital art centering Peril and Glory from Wings of Fire. They’re both shown from shoulders up, mirroring each other. Glory is placed upside down in the upper part, facing away from Peril, both frown with eyes closed. Kestrel can be seen above Peril, gently cupping her face, while snarling at Glory. Mirroring this, Scarlet is snarling at Peril, while cupping Glory’s face. Both their talons look ghostly and reach from offscreen. Particles of light, like sparks or fireflies, are all around them. The background is dark green, brightening in the center, where Peril and Glory almost touch. A light star outline can be seen there. Swirling clouds are drawn on the left, behind Kestrel and Peril, while tropical leaves are seen on the opposite side. Glory’s and Peril’s color palettes are almost identical, both using reds and teals, with their accent colors matching each others main colors. End ID]

HAPPY ALMOST OVER VALENTINES DAY TAKE SIME ART AND WIPS!!!!!

ok so i got to do stuff with shapes and colors and like some math and writing random symbols fast. more to come in like two weeks.

going to get psychiatrically evaluated today!!!! let’s see if there’s a reason why I act the way I do or if it’s normal and it’s just a random placebo effect!! or it’s also normal and everyone is the way I am they’re just more used to it and I’m for some reason not!!!!

I feel obligated to reboot this

Why the fuck does "womanizer" mean what it does, that shit sounds like the name of an instant sex change ray gun invented by some guy who has beef with a platypus.

posting my cute Christmas doodles of my ocs when they were little! the first one is a remake from last year!!!

y’all will NOT catching me forget to christmaspost.

this is life changing

as requested on my stream, a simple water tutorial!

ALLL MY ART THIS YEAR!!!!!!! excluding june and October. sorry June and October.