Nonlinear-student - The Infinite Chaos

Shout out to @messy-does-cosmology for putting in work, and being a good friend.

29.3.2021

This date is kinda fraudulent because it's past midnight now, but I'm giving myself a pass on being accurate because I am exahsted and I did about 10 hours of work today. I don't know if I've ever done that much work before in a day. Anyway I've been working on my research project report, and it's at 5500 words now out of about 6400 I need as the minimum for a first, so I only need to do roughly another thousand words to be in the clear (bibliographys don't count). I had a bit of a breakthrough because I worked out how to use the proper SDSS explore tool and it has been... life changing. I'm definitely going to be able to write another 1000+ words about my topic before I hand it in on Wednesday.

Day 29: Name your own aesthetic! What's an aesthetic you'd like to try out? I don't want to pretend to be a complex human being here but I really struggle to "try out" new aesthetics, because I feel very dismorphic about my own appearance often enough as is. Dressing like myself involves lots of primary colours, big jeans and a little shirt, or big jeans and a big shirt. I don't recognise myself otherwise. And if I were to name an aesthetic, it would be called astronomercore. It would involve a lot of fleece jumpers and thick jeans and gloves. And like maybe a big duvet stuffed in your backpack. Any fellow astronomy bitches will know.

One of my favorites (and there are a few pictures)

I wish you all a relaxed yet productive day ✌🏿

Physics HW and Calc 3 notes are on the board today

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03/17/2021

After another long period of very little productivity, today I...

Researched some scholarship options

Answered emails/requested a recommendation letter

Filled out the big questions section of a college application

Wrote a brief "why this college" statement

Started planning a longer college admissions essay

The beauty of mathematics

An assortment of computer models rendered employing variations of the Lorenz equation.

Feeling fairly productive today

Calc 3 notes ✔️

Calc 3 HW ✔️

3 min power nap ✔️

Today was rough. Throughtout this time lapse I “finished” 1 assignment ONE it’s day’s like this that really make me dread going into STEM. Diminishing returns are regular, and the burnout is real. However, if my neurodivergent ass can sit in one spot and be miserable, then you can too

17 March (last day of classes)

This quarter has collectively brought out the best and and worst in me. From dealing with heart issues, to dealing with mental issues it hasn’t been a fun time.

I had hopes of getting straight A’s, but ultimately I find myself once again looking just to get through it without failing (read: anything less than a B+). The burnout has been real and very hard to with but, I persevered.

It’s ok just to get through the quarter...

I love y’all ✌🏿

8 March (Calc 3: Test Day)

You know, taking notes by asking questions really has improved my memory retention. I find myself getting the problems correct because I actually understand the process of what is happening not just the system that gets me to where I need to be.

If you haven’t feed yourself or hydrated please do that, every bit helps

Stay up ✌🏿

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