“And When I Drove To The Seafront To Find Myself In The Comforting Silence Of Waves Rolling To The

Yeah, there are liars but then there's you..mmm, in retrospect that's what probably brought me to you

Priest by Julia Michaels

Things I learned from failing classes:

Failing classes can be a result of many things and not just your lack of understanding the material. Life, mental health, stress levels, sleeping habits, and poor communication can all factor into it

It is not a reflection of how good or bad you study, especially if you pass your other classes

Sometimes you need to take a class several times before you finally understand the material, even if you work your ass off the first 3 times you take it. Sometimes concepts just won't click and you just need to memorize tests. That's ok

Cry. Cry it out

Keep class notes and tests. They make amazing review material when you retake the class

When you retake the class, approach it like it's your first time. If you go through it like you know the material, you're going to miss key points and probably fail again

Emailing a professor probably won't help you too much. If you can, go to office hours and workshops instead where you can interrupt and ask questions as you go

Sometimes you just have a bad professor. When you retake it, try a different teacher. Different teaching styles and presentations can greatly impact your comprehension and retention of information

Be honest with yourself about where you failed and why. Focus on the material you suck at and try to relate it to the stuff you're good with.

Teach your pets. Go through the lesson and talk out loud to them and explain everything. You're much more likely to catch areas of concern when trying to teach the material

Your professors want you to pass (mostly) and it's their job to answer all your questions

You're paying for that class so be annoying and ask questions every 5 minutes. Save yourself some money

Teachers are more than happy to discuss with you your problem areas and provide materials to help you out. They're there to ensure your success. Reach out to them

There is no shame in retaking a class 5+ times. Don't let other people define where you should be. All that matters is that you keep trying

Don't take the class over each semester. Give yourself time to recover from the failure. Pushing it will just lead to frustration and failing again

Ask other students for help. Chances are they'll understand parts you don't and be able to explain it in a less formal manner

If you dwell on it or compare yourself to others, you're going to feed a depression and anxiety around that class, making it harder for you to pass

Don't beat a dead horse. Acknowledge that you failed and need to take a break

Failure does not define you and failing classes in your major doesn't mean that you picked the wrong field

i don't dance anymore

not like i used to

life gave me a love to dance

then took away the reason

j.c.g

My lover had a lover

oh it wasn’t fun

but I loved him like no other

oh it wasn’t fun

wasted time is pure golden

in the red eye of the beholder

Take my hand because I can’t see

all the things I let you do to me

counting tears as they fall up

I’m upside down, and totally fucked

I won’t dare let you let me down

for you made me a fool, a goddamn clown

“I have no enemies, but my friends don’t like me.”

— Philip Larkin

Garden Snake

There is a snake that dwells in my backyard

who finds it deeply soothing to spread himself

across a flat rock in the afternoon sunshine

until I stomp along and disturb his slumber,

sending him slithering, S-like, forwards and

sideways at the same time in total silence

sending him into the deep green of the lilies,

into the shadows, slipping in close to the soil

where those things hide that wish not to be seen

and I sense the shame of having scared away

a denizen of the sun, of stone, and replaced it

with the shy emptiness of where he used to be.

-GeorgeFilip

Me irl