This May Be A Sad Chapter But You Are Not A Sad Story

Don't let Your Emotions Bully You

Aunt Natalie

Some people don’t understand the promises they’re making when they make them.

If you wanna love the world, where do you start?

I wanna write a story

about the sun that was once my chest,

about the cloud that was once my head,

about reaching for air, how I was finally able

to fill my lungs with a single breath,

how I've learned about peace and then heard

something inside me crack.

If you wanna love the world, where do you start?

I move too fast, it's my thing

to set a pace and outrun it;

it's my thing to collect my tears just in case

all drinking water gets poisoned -

can only hope that I've cried enough

so I won't die of thirst.

If you wanna love the world, where do you start?

'Cause I can feel like I'm about to break,

again;

I remember so very clearly

how I was making deals back then

for just a splinter of, not joy,

but potential.

Cycles over cycles, little athlete, tell me -

didn't you pass yourself a million times?

Do you still mourn the dreams

you once had when you were more than stuck

and just needed to get out?

If you wanna love the world, step by step,

how do you do that without needing to resurrect;

I found my place in the world and came back from the dead,

but casket diaries, they become quite exhausting -

take a second, just imagine it,

it's no fun anymore the millionth time

'cause I know by now

how my coffin's shaped and

my fear has turned to resignation.

So how does it come the sun still hurts as badly,

so how does it come that the light on my skin

still feels like it did on the first day?

I think people would be happier if they admitted things more often. In a sense we are all prisoners of some memory, or fear, or disappointment—we are all defined by something we can’t change.

Things I learned from failing classes:

Failing classes can be a result of many things and not just your lack of understanding the material. Life, mental health, stress levels, sleeping habits, and poor communication can all factor into it

It is not a reflection of how good or bad you study, especially if you pass your other classes

Sometimes you need to take a class several times before you finally understand the material, even if you work your ass off the first 3 times you take it. Sometimes concepts just won't click and you just need to memorize tests. That's ok

Cry. Cry it out

Keep class notes and tests. They make amazing review material when you retake the class

When you retake the class, approach it like it's your first time. If you go through it like you know the material, you're going to miss key points and probably fail again

Emailing a professor probably won't help you too much. If you can, go to office hours and workshops instead where you can interrupt and ask questions as you go

Sometimes you just have a bad professor. When you retake it, try a different teacher. Different teaching styles and presentations can greatly impact your comprehension and retention of information

Be honest with yourself about where you failed and why. Focus on the material you suck at and try to relate it to the stuff you're good with.

Teach your pets. Go through the lesson and talk out loud to them and explain everything. You're much more likely to catch areas of concern when trying to teach the material

Your professors want you to pass (mostly) and it's their job to answer all your questions

You're paying for that class so be annoying and ask questions every 5 minutes. Save yourself some money

Teachers are more than happy to discuss with you your problem areas and provide materials to help you out. They're there to ensure your success. Reach out to them

There is no shame in retaking a class 5+ times. Don't let other people define where you should be. All that matters is that you keep trying

Don't take the class over each semester. Give yourself time to recover from the failure. Pushing it will just lead to frustration and failing again

Ask other students for help. Chances are they'll understand parts you don't and be able to explain it in a less formal manner

If you dwell on it or compare yourself to others, you're going to feed a depression and anxiety around that class, making it harder for you to pass

Don't beat a dead horse. Acknowledge that you failed and need to take a break

Failure does not define you and failing classes in your major doesn't mean that you picked the wrong field

I like you a lot, yes its true and I hope one day you and I can become more than friends, discerning my feelings for you sometimes feels like I'm sailing around the cape of storms in a small dingy, at least in this small bay I'm winning but if you don't feel the same way its okay. l will just quietly beach my boat and watch the waves go by...

how to tell my friend I like her..,,

Ah that motherfucker, there she is, what a bitch

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.