I Will Make This Life Large, Beautiful And Eventful. I Will Live. I Will Live. I Will Live.

The only problem with not talking to oneself was that oneself was the most fascinating conversational partner one could imagine. Nobody had more patience in listening to one than oneself, and while nobody knew one better than oneself, nobody misunderstood one more than oneself.

Viet Thanh Nguyen, The Sympathizer (via larmoyante)

damn I require so much reassurance

A winner knows when to stop

On the screen near Debonairs in Montecasino, Johannesburg

If anyone else screams at me about my brain power I'll upper cut them. I want to drink wine, eat bread and grow flowers. And maybe...if God is feeling generous, dance in a sun-lit kitchen with a man whose eyes resemble "melting silver" with a really warm body, and the softest rough hands in all of middle earth.

I am so in love with him, and he makes me feel so small. I know I should let go, I'd be so lonely even if he gave me the title. I need romance, I need safety. I need so much more than costume sex, and a couple of hangouts. But, God the hurt of it all. Am I grieving the loss of him? Or, the death of the hopeful girl in me? I know I'll never be the same...but I gotta let go. I gotta let go.

I hate that he says hi after 2 years, and I'm right back to daydreaming about laughter in a sunlit kitchen. I hate that so much.

Red is the color of strength, war, determination, passion, and love.

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Standing your ground like the walls of stone castles. I see you champs...I see you.

Here’s to the people who know the real me but still stick around.