Short note for my mid 20 somethings. I feel like I’m stagnating and that’s hard. I feel like I hit my peak 5 years ago. I feel aimless and hopeless and lost. I feel constantly drained. I am measuring my self worth based on how much money I can earn a year and what I say to people when they ask me what I’m doing. At the moment, nothing. I’m doing nothing. I’m unemployed and exhausted by it. I’m tired and tired and tired. I’m trying to remind myself that I’m more than this moment right now. I’m trying to remind myself that there is light and someday I’ll be bathed in it.
Sir, I'm all bra wires and FUPA. Cheesecake is the way to my heart.
damn I require so much reassurance
Franz Wright, from Earlier Poems; “Poem in Three Parts: 2. The Wound”
[Text ID: The wound that never healed but learned to sing.]
I am so in love with him, and he makes me feel so small. I know I should let go, I'd be so lonely even if he gave me the title. I need romance, I need safety. I need so much more than costume sex, and a couple of hangouts. But, God the hurt of it all. Am I grieving the loss of him? Or, the death of the hopeful girl in me? I know I'll never be the same...but I gotta let go. I gotta let go.
Play by yourself. I have a suitcase full of fucks and I wear at least one everyday.
Some days are okay. Some days the universe dissects your soul. You know, to see whether you're made of the stuff of staying alive.