Ngelo-b - Rosemallow

The universe is leaving pretty Korean boys on my path like bread crumbs to lure me into the Kdrama forest.

If anyone else screams at me about my brain power I'll upper cut them. I want to drink wine, eat bread and grow flowers. And maybe...if God is feeling generous, dance in a sun-lit kitchen with a man whose eyes resemble "melting silver" with a really warm body, and the softest rough hands in all of middle earth.

writing playlist: on

google docs: open

mind: ready

Drink tea

Forget fear. Chase your dreams!

sometimes a bitch jus want a love letter u know

I have trouble sleeping, but you wear me out. I think I confused that with finding rest in your arms.

Unless you’ve personally been there, I imagine it’s something that’s difficult to stretch you mind around. It’s a position you can’t picture yourself being in and believe me if you could - you wouldn’t want to. But some people live there… in that darkness… on that knife edge (if you can call that living). But has it ever occurred to you that the reason you can’t imagine suicide ever being a viable option… the reason you can’t wrap your mind around the idea of a person wanting to choose a solution as devastatingly final as ending their life is because you’ve never really considered the kind of hell someone has to go through to arrive at that conclusion? The way you see the world – with its intoxicating highs and terrible lows and its mediocre boring ‘most of the time’ – is not how everybody experiences it. Some people have only lows. You experience life as an ever spinning ferrous wheel of emotions, but some people are hopelessly stuck at the bottom far lower than you will ever go. You think it’s a selfish option because you see a loving family, friends and lovers who will miss you if you left. You see lists of things that make life worth living but some people see a list of things they feel they’ll never be able to escape. You do not know how heavy a person’s burden is unless you’ve walked in those shoes, you do not know how dark the world looks to some people because you cannot see it with their eyes and that is why you cannot imagine a future so terrifyingly bleak and painful that you would do just about anything to get away from it; a pain so soul destroying you’d do anything not to feel it any more. You cannot know it, cannot imagine it unless you’ve been there… so don’t judge. It’s just that simple. You’re not required to fix it, you’re not even required to be supportive if you don’t want to… just be kind to people and don’t judge. If you lack the emotional depth to empathise with someone else’s pain, then at least keep your mouth closed and stop contributing to it.

Ranata Suzuki | For anyone who says suicide is a cowards way out  (via theprocast)

All these men friends that are good, but not good to me.