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What if BEAST Dazai edited everyone's brains in the BEAST universe?

In BEAST, we don't get to see the bond of trust that Chuuya and Dazai has in the main series.

I usually see a lot of angst fanart of BEAST skk where Chuuya is mourning Dazai, but I genuinely don't think he gives a shit about his partner.

I'm not even sure if they're partners.

I think Dazai edited the minds of everyone he loves, so they could be safe from his plan.

So they don't try and save him.

Let's be real, Chuuya fought a dragon and activated Corruption, which by the way, could KILL him, to save Dazai.

Chuuya pretended to be a vampire and almost drowned, to save Dazai.

If Twin Dark still had that bond in BEAST, Dazai would not have been able to commit suicide.

If you think about it more, Atsushi respects and fears Dazai instead of loving him like he does in the main series.

He gave up his friends.

He gave up everything for Odasaku.

Odasaku, the man who guilt-tripped him into being something he isn't.

Odasaku, one of two people that could ever understand Dazai.

Although only a diamond can polish a diamond, it can still break at sharp points and edges after being polished.

camilla at henry's grave every year whispering his name over and over to herself because of the time he told her that the romans believed saying a dead person's name gives them just a little bit more immortality

the fact that richard sees/wants us to see judy poovey as sort of dumb, while also seeing/wanting us to see julian morrow as some revolutionary mind when they're having the same damn thoughts is crazy to me

like near the end of the first chapter when we hear some about the class discussion, one of the points julian discusses (in simple terms lol) is how people who tend to bottle things up and stay composed all the time end up causing greater amounts of destruction when they "lose control" than people who allow themselves to lose control on occasion, but he does it with many words and references

and richard is like "wow this is awesome how sick is this guy"

then at the beginning of chapter two, judy poovey is telling richard about the time henry beat the fuck out of spike romney and she says something about how when uptight people lose it they REALLY lose it, but in terms just as simple as those

and richard just goes "yeah, i guess"

which there for sure is something to be said about the way people use words and the difference that use of language has on the way people feel about certain concepts, but you know

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also: misogyny, clearly

Personal headcanon that Henry has shed real tears over the burning of the Library of Alexandria and the fact that he'll never be able to study there like so many of the scholars he idolizes.

I like your brain ty

possibly hot take but I think it’s actually more in character for Dazai to not have a tragic backstory in the traditional sense. like no dead parents, no childhood abuse (at least not overtly). just a brain wired for entropy. just a kid who looked at the sky and couldn’t feel anything. a child who should’ve been fine—but wasn’t.

I love the tragic orphan story as much as the next guy, but isn’t it worse if he had everything he needed and still turned out like this? not because the world hurt him, but because of his own brain. because his chemistry betrayed him before anyone else had the chance to. dazai’s not the product of trauma. he’s the product of existential rot. he’s not broken by something—this is just who he is. a factory defect.

it’s the difference between “i hurt because they hurt me” and “i hurt because i exist.”

like yeah it’s sad when someone’s shaped by their circumstances, but dazai is so, so unsettling as a character because his pain is self-generating. he didn’t need outside influence to spiral. to turn into what he became.

there’s something so deeply upsetting to me about a character who isn’t reacting to tragedy, but who is the tragedy. the kind of person who you want to save, but there’s nothing to save him from. there’s no villain to fight. no curse to break. it’s just him and the awful weight of his own existence.

dazai is not a story of destruction followed by redemption. he's a story of continuance. of surviving in spite of. he is not healed. he is not saved despite bettering himself some with the agency. he just keeps living by the thread of a promise because someone good looked him in the eyes and asked him to keep going.

and I just personally find that so much more devastating.

1992: Donna Tartt being interviewed by Jill Eisenstadt shorty after the release of TSH.

People who grew up on Naruto how does it feel to have a constant motivation in life because one blond cartoon dummy repeatedly said “never give up” and also have been through one of the most unhealthy demolishing provocative outrageous traumatising relationships in your life with that one dark emo dude who hates everyone because you are “friends”