Thinking Of Growing Out My Hair So A Transmasc Can Compliment Me On It

loving boys so much helps me love myself too because i just think of what a perfect boy i am oh dear

“yeah you can call me loverboy

i guess i throw my heart around”

Aesthetic: «Call Me by Your Name», 2017

a double date :)

keep things casual and light-hearted, when i came out to my mom we were just sitting on my living room floor and i asked if she knew what the T of LGBT was, and went from there. if they have questions, answer them if you feel comfortable. i came out to one of my brothers beforehand (via meme) just to test the waters a little bit because my family is religious. luckily, i’ve been out for a year and it’s been great, but my dad took around 6 months to come around. if someone is not accepting, don’t hesitate to do the best thing for YOUR mental health. if that means not talking to someone for a while or cutting them off from your life, do what you need to do. be sure that you have people that have your back outside of your family, i don’t know what i would’ve done without my friends.

Best of luck!!

I think I'm going to come out to my family ahhhh

I could some advice?? Help??

silent charlie fuckers i need you to get loud about this photo

TRANS MAC TRUTHERS YESSSS

woke up thinking about trans mac…

luther let him transition as a child because he wanted a son instead of a daughter anyway, so it benefits him as well as mac, but it’s all under the circumstances that it’s very hush hush and nobody finds out so that “shame” isn’t brought to their family

mac is incredibly performatively hyper-masculine because he feels the need to compensate for being born in a girl’s body

he pretends not to be gay because in his and luther’s mind, being trans is “bad enough” as it is. he was also taught to associate being gay with femininity

gets hormones/surgery with the money he makes dealing weed at high school and whilst working at the ice rink

literally has a therapist tell him he has body dysmorphia, but specifically in the sense that he worries about being too small or frail… i.e, too feminine, not masculine enough. sounds like gender dysphoria to me, pal

“button in a fur coat” = metoidioplasty or clit growth

charlie knows because he’s known charlie for the longest and as a younger kid there’s only so much he could keep secret from his best friend, but charlie forgets that mac was born female by frying his brains with glue and other inhalants

going really hard on the homophobia to compensate for being trans

we only see mac get with one other person in the whole show that lasts more than a hasty hook up… carmen. he sought her out, protested just enough to make him look like he’s weirded out by her being trans, but actually, is the whole reason he sought her out in the first place. if he can’t allow himself to be gay, then then second best option after that is to be with another trans person, somebody who will at the very least understand

the internalised transphobia ends up becoming externalised, ending their relationship. he focuses on the fact that she’s pre-op and doesn’t care to hide it that much, because he’s deep down, envious that she doesn’t hide being trans whilst he’s spent his whole life living in shame and fear that people would find out

when he does come out as gay, it takes a while to breach the topic with luther. before he comes out to him, he spends ages getting absolutely shredded, aka masculine, the most physically masculine he can possibly get himself. only then can he stand in front of his father and say that he’s gay — because he needs to make up for the associated femininity with being gay when it’s in front of him. either way, luther stands up and leaves, so mac stops holding onto the masculine front and allows himself to curl up into a woman’s lap and cry for (i think) the only time on screen

claiming to be a top so valiantly because he associates getting fucked and bottoming with “being the woman”, even if he isn’t a top deep down. he stops pretending to be a top after coming out to and losing luther (the pressure to rid himself of femininity)

also i swear to god. i swear to god he has visible scars in global warming.

i just want a boy who sees me as a boy

kiss me like its the end of the fucking world

kiss me like its the last chance we will ever get

kiss me like you never want to let go