Y Is Everyone Slowly Leaving Me :((

Nicole’s very very pissed off ride-or-die

Someone needs to take away the mha editors phone privileges I’ve been sitting here crying for the past 20 minutes

genuinely obsessed w class of 09 bc wdym nicole

- actively, in canon, hates all men

- only builds any semblance of emotional connection with women

- states in text that shes never liked a guy enough to call him a "boyfriend"

- wishes multiple times that she was a lesbian

- only goes out of her way to help jecka

- IS IN A LESBIAN RELATIONSHIP

and then when the audience interpreted her as lesbian the creator went "YOURE ALL CRAZY" like this is the funniest shit in the world

This is like that one progman fic where Nicole and Jecka are coming home and they almost crash and Nicole stats tweaking out because shes rlly horny and ends up calling Jedka mommy 💔 that fic was like a fever dream tbh I read it at 4am 👩‍🎤 it was funny though because I didn’t read the tags

I had a dream that I was writing a fic where Jecka was having some kind of breakdown and she was begging Nicole to just kiss her so she didn’t have to think about anything and Nicole was stunned bc she never saw Jecka so unstable. I can barely remember what it was

“take of ur shirt”

“jecka, you can’t be serious”

that’s literally all I remember but I stg it had more substance😭😭

This took way longer than I’d like to admit 💔

I hope someone sees my vision here jeez 😭

You don't see stars here, they're just city lights

I think back to where you live and how you can see the entire sky.

It's occasional, sometimes I'll see the moon

And I'll think of you

Jecka’s left for college, shes left home, cut contact with everyone, and starting over. However it’s not the same like it is back home, where she would sit on the roof with Nicole and look at the stars, and the moon. The moon she can’t see anymore. She tries hard to see it and the star once more, but she’s unable to.

My mom will convince me, and I'll get the courage to ask

We will get coffee in Canton and you'll nervously laugh

When we hug, 'cause we don't hug, we never used to do that

We don't do that

Nicole’s mom finally gets her to leave the house, and it ends up being when Nicole texts Jecka after 6 months asking to meet again, for coffee. She thinks it’s gay, but you gotta do what you gotta do. When they finally see each other again, they’re awkward and nervous and unsure in what to do, and that spirals into an awkward hug, that doesn’t feel like “them”. They never hugged (besides when they were drunk or high off of their tits) and it just doesn’t feel right because it wasn’t their thing and wasn’t about to become it either.

Sometimes I go to sleep

And I'm still 17

You still live down my street

You're not mad at me

Sometimes Jecka falls asleep in her shitty college bed, and if she thinks hard enough it’s like being back home. Home where she was able to walk a few minutes and she’d be at Nicole’s house. She misses this but Nicole isn’t good for her. Jecka had always thought Nicole was made at her for leaving, so when she starts thinking, Nicole isn’t mad. In fact, shes happy - something Jecka didnt normally see, but genuinely loved it.

And in that dream, I will say everything I wanted

That every day after May, I haven't found what I needed

No one has come close to you

And I don't think anyone will

The said thoughts become a constant dream for the next week, and Jecka’s able to spill her guts to Nicole. She’s rambling about anything and everything when she starts talking about how leaving her feels like a piece of her was missing, and she hasn’t found something to permanently fill it, because nothing will ever come close to Nicole. She was like a rare, one of a kind artifiact you could never replace.

Sometimes I go to sleep

And I'm still 17

You still live down my street

You're not mad at me

Nicole still lives at her mom’s house, paying rent but unemployed. Most nights she lays in bed, mind wandering but it always comes back to jecka. She falls asleep and shes once again in her prime era - being seventeen - and everything back to normal. Jecka is still a ten minute walk away (it would be five but Nicole cant be asked to walk faster). Ever since jecka left, Nicole blamed herself, for no particular reason. She just felt like it was fitting - everything was her fault anyway, this wasn’t anything special. Except it hurt worse when jecka stopped texting and calling. “Shes mad at me” was a constant thought, but now, in her stupid yet comforting make believe land, Jecka isn’t angry at her, and they’re smoking cigarettes in her bedroom again.

I have a feeling you got everything you wanted

And you're not wasting time stuck here like me

You're just thinkin' it's a small thing that happened

The world ended when it happened to me

Jecka always wanted to go to college, and do something with her life. She was getting everything she wanted - a well paying job, a rich husband, a new life with no toxicity or abuse or drugs. Nothing to ruin the perfect image she was slowly building brick by brick, chapter by chapter, line by line. She wasn’t wasting time like Nicole, who was still taking every pill in the medicine cabinet. Like Nicole, who was staying in bed until 6pm the next day, wasting away. Like Nicole, who couldnt move out of her mom’s house because she had learned to be depends on her. Jecka would say it was a small thing, her moving away “I’ll still call you, dumbass,” but being left alone with her thoughts, the only one left who hadn’t gotten their life together yet might if actually ended Nicole’s world.

I have a feeling you got everything you wanted

And you're not wasting time stuck here like me

You're just thinkin' it's a small thing that happened

The world ended when it happened to me

Jecka thinks back about Nicole, and that girl has what she wanted - no job, no school, drugs and alcohol and a bed. She had razor blades, and shit - maybe she would kill herself before she was 30. It didn’t seem much, and probably stupid to other people, but they didn’t know Nicole like Jecka did. College had been a slow, slow walk so far - Jecka felt like she had learned nothing, since she learned all this back in high school. It felt like she was wasting away at her desk, slaving over her laptop and a bit of A4 paper. Nicole always seemed uncaring or unaffected when jecka mentioned college. It was a small thing, supposedly. It didn’t matter, because they were only high school friends anyway - this was destined to happen. However Nicole didnt know how Jecka would lay there and sob, because she was fucking her life over. She didn’t want a career in the medical field. She didn’t want a rich husband. She didn’t want a new life; she wanted something small, but payed her rent - or something big like an actor, so she could get the attention she craved. She didn’t want a rich husband - shit, she didn’t even like guys! She wanted a wife. Or girlfriend or whatever you called it. She didn’t want a new life - she wanted the messy, toxic one she had before with Nicole. Her world collapsed inwards when she started her car, her own glassy eyes catching Nicole’s dead ones in the rear view mirror.

When it happened to me, when it happened to me

They both have no idea how much it’s affected the other, being apart and not talking. It’s like a telepathic sort of thing, or voodoo or whatever. It physically hurt them both.

I have a feeling you got everything you wanted.

Jecka got to go to college, and start over

And you're not wasting time stuck here like me

Nicole is wasting away in bed, doing drugs and getting drunk by midday

You're just thinkin' it's a small thing that happened

They both said it wasn’t a big deal

The world ended when it happened to me

Yet they feel empty and unfixable without each other. They had one fragment of themselves missing, and nothing was the right size to fix it, like a jigsaw puzzle. So until something happens, they’ll remain memories just out of reach.

Idk what this means but I could make a sick edit of them if it was a show 💔💔 @st4rlight-kayz @spaceboyden @silverwasafukintrainwreck @polomarco2

THIS IS WHAT IM SAYING BRO 💔

did anyone just realized nicole was likely raped by her older brother

They're best friends your honour!

Lolol

Top set/ bottom set is basically how well you do in your core subjects (English, maths, and science), so top set would be for the people who do well and excel/are good at the subject, middle set is for the people who are good at it, but struggle with some aspects, and bottom set is for the people who struggle in it (roughly). I think most people irl would say it’s top set for the clever people, middle set for the okay people and bottom set for the stupid people.

GCSE’s are the subjects you pick to do tests on in year 10 and 11 (year 10 you do mocks, and year 11 is the real thing). Idk what it stands for so you might wanna loook it up if it would help.

Yeye I hope thats helps,jbskvjb

@st4rlight-kayz okay so YK how I was lwk infatuated for like an hour about British co09?? Because (I will never get over this) MY FUCKASS ACCOUNT GOT TERMINATED FOR SOMETHING I DIDINT EVEN DOOOO ⛓️⛓️😔🖤👩‍🎤 im going to doMORE headcanons.. 👅

Anyway

Nicole

Year 10

Her attendance is 72.1%

Uniform consists of: untucked, creased grey-white shirt with the top button undone, fat tie, jumper, rolled up way too high skirt, socks and adidas trainers

In iso 3/5 days a week and basically an after school almost every day 💔

Has no bag, and is surviving off of floor loot.

Pushes past everyone in the corridors and doesn’t give a fuck

Always skipping with jecka

Emily gave her a stick n poke heart on her hand

Always eating in lessons (stolen from a year 7 or ari)

Constantly safeguarded

Picked history, art, music and photography for GSCE (along with English, maths and science)

Middle set for science, bottom set for maths and English

Jecka

Year 10

Attendance is 89.2%

Uniform consists of: tailored blazer, tailored shirt, top button undone, FAT tie, rolled way too high skirt, knee high socks, slip on shoes.

Skips lessons she isn’t taking for GCSE

In iso 2/5 days and lots of detentions 💔

Has a somewhat nice handbag, and most of her equipment (Nicole and Emily r stealing her highlighters 💔)

Asthmatics worst nightmare - always spraying something

Always brushing her hair

Best friends with her french teacher

Always has drama

Constantly safeguarded

Picked triple science, higher french, history and psychology for GCSE

Top set for everything

Emily

year 10

Attendance is 54.3%

If she is at school, shes in iso or on a flexible time table, or skipping.

Uniform consists of: untucked shirt with no top button, no tie, no jumper, no blazer, knee high socks and nike trainers

No bag, also surviving off of floor loot and Ari.

Fights all the time

Shoving year 7’s, 8’s, and 9’s down the stairs and hallways so she can get to the canteen first 💔

Has a toilet pass

Stick n poke heart on her hand from Nicole

Constantly safeguarded

Picked Geography, Art, food tech and PE for GSCE

Bottom set for everything

Ari

Year 10

Attendance is 95%

Uniform consists of: blazer, shirt, medium tie, skirt JUST above her knees, knee high socks and Mary Jane’s

Has an actual bag with loads of charms on it from Megan or Kelly (does get bullied by Nicole, Jecka and Emily for it)

Had a villain arc in year 8

Nicole normally bully’s her into buying lunch for her.

Actually on okay terms with jecka, they just don’t speak a lot

Often chosen to be new kids partners to show them around

Got safeguarded once and never recovered because they were so bad 💔

Picked Geography, art, music and drama for GSCE

In top set for English and maths, middle set for science

Nicole and Jecka are in a talking stage, and like .. that close to dating.

Ari has a FAT crush on Emily but still hasn’t recovered from Nicole, and Emily is too busy scamming year 7’s with empty vapes

Kylar with shove jeffery down the stairs and start crashing out when he gets screamed at WHATSAHSK I DIDNT WVEN DO ANYTHINGJNDJCN??!?

Megan and hunter are like THE couple atm but Megan hasn’t realised her crush on Kelly yet

Kelly is friends with everyone and their mums and always has a face full of makeup

Jeffery has never been late for a lesson before and has 100% attendance

Hunter got beat up by a year 8

Karen is getting nearly £20 a week for doing everyone’s homework, and is friends with the dinner ladies.

Emily and Nicole have beef with the safeguarding leader, and made a hate page about her on TikTok

SLT tremble when they see Nicole, Jecka and Emily enter the school gates 💔

Someone ask me abt the class of 09 characters so I can do a deep dive on their trauma and character ty very much