Not Being Able To Sleep Due To Pain Sucks, Because Sleep Is The One Time I Am Not In Pain

i feel like i only really developed something similar to health anxiety after a chronic illness...

because what if this is just a new thing now?

i need people to understand that when i say i can't do something it means that i can't do something, it is not up for discussion

wanted to go to london to see a festival with some friends and i realized i would need to get an accessible ticket to go...

it feels odd to actually depend on accessibility

i can't get rid of this constant nausea ffs

this is why i always have headphones in

"it's not polite" well neither is my pain so fuck off

"Stop looking at your phone"

No. I need a constant distraction from the pain I am in. I promise you, you'd rather see me play solitaire on my phone for 45 mins than deal with me while being fully aware of my body. I PROMISE YOU I am listening better if i'm fiddling on my phone than if I'm sitting and being aware of my agony.

Also to everyone who has ever called me an iPad kid, die in a hole.

i really respect people that say "oh i wouldn't wish this on anyone else" about their chronic illness because I WOULD

(unfortunately i might have become a little bitter, but i'm working on it)

had a low fever for almost a week now, but am refusing to see a doctor cause "not like they would do much"

and that's on doctors constantly dismissing people with chronic illness

i ate a dry piece of bread... nothing else... my stomach feels like someone is stabbing me

SAY IT WITH ME: MEDICAL GASLIGHTING IS MALPRACTICE

collapsing on the floor in front of people that question my chronic illness just for them to freak out like i haven't told them this could happen at least 5 times