I Think Younger Me Would Be Disappointed, But Current Me Is Just Grateful For The Opportunities I Have

the flesh is unwilling and honestly, the spirit isn't too keen on the idea either

this is why i always have headphones in

"it's not polite" well neither is my pain so fuck off

"Stop looking at your phone"

No. I need a constant distraction from the pain I am in. I promise you, you'd rather see me play solitaire on my phone for 45 mins than deal with me while being fully aware of my body. I PROMISE YOU I am listening better if i'm fiddling on my phone than if I'm sitting and being aware of my agony.

Also to everyone who has ever called me an iPad kid, die in a hole.

Just because it’s “to be expected” doesn’t mean you’re not allowed to be upset about it.

i wish stores would have more places to sit and rest for a little

like pleaseee i don't wanna pass out on your floor

everytime i am out of a flare i convince myself i am usually dramatic and this won't impact my life in any significant way in the future... then the next flare is coming up and changes my mind real quick

pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering,

"you complain a lot" when i haven't even told them half my symptoms and mentioned not feeling well two days in a row

asking for accomodations shouldn't be this emberassing and shouldn't be a big deal and i shouldn't feel this guilty for needing them

really tired but making sure to stay awake until the point of exhaustion so i hopefully actually fall asleep

i can't get rid of this constant nausea ffs