I Am Nonhuman. My Spirit Has Lived Long In This Universe, And It Was Once Divine. A Star Shining Brightly

fireflies lighting up a rural Pennsylvania field at dusk

"DrOwn yoURself IN the sound of wHIte noise"

You ever hear a song that makes you feel like someone has been secretly attending your psychiatrist appointments?

THE TALE OF JENNY AND SCREECH [JENNY]

 This is amazing. If you want to see a modern day bard spin a tragedy, watch it. It is… An experience. This tale has three parts. These gifs are from Jenny. Next will be Screech. If you like music - art… Watch it. It’s talent. Each of the three parts are done in single takes. And with live recording using the natural acoustics around him to bring it to life. A Shakespearean tragedy really.

Appreciate some of the lyrics:

Jenny freezes, statue like A lady shaped stalactite Fear like liquid nitrogen in the dark night She tried to find strength to move But stayed as still as a Statue in high heeled shoes

Demonic, monstrous and angelic beanies by Yokaiihime on Etsy

Highly recommend these especially if you have (or had) multiple eyes ❤️

an angel appeared to me

ink and watercolor, 4.5" x 4.5"

prints: https://www.inprnt.com/gallery/mxmorgan/an-angel-appeared-to-me/

(synthetic ox gall + india ink makes some ffunnnn results. fun sketch.)

Hello my dazzling nebulas!

I've seen a ton of kinsona drops lately, so it inspired me to finally do a layout of my own!

[Edit: I realized I didn't color in the thumb claw ToT]

This is me. This is "what I see in the mirror each day" as it says on the page. I would say that I have three forms in total, with a few constants with each one.

One, I am always masculine, no matter my shape. Two, my facial features are never 100%, and three, I never have pawpads on my front paws.

Ver. 1: A more humanoid vulpanthrope with little fur coverage (and noticeably, no fur plume), with prominent ears and a shorter mid length tail. This form is usually my day to day form, being very in tune with my instincts, capable of "human speak" and can communicate with animals. This is when I feel more connected to my therian side, nature and spirituality.

Ver. 2: This is my most feral and beastial form. In this form, I can be territorial, protective, aggressive and temperamental. Most of the time, it's when I'm on edge or in "survival mode". This version is where the heavy relation to lycanthropy comes in, with the themes of hunting, stalking, maiming, etc. I feel most connected to my cryptid, voidian and beastial side when like this.

Ver. 3: This is when I am, completely and wholly a fox. I *am* a silver fox in that moment. I feel particularly close and cuddly with my pack (beings I consider my friends and family). I love to play, wrestle, love bite, and give a lot of physical affection to closer ones. I love to vocalize, wag my tail, and run around due to energy bursts (or zoomies!).

I'm not sure what this third form looks like yet, as my envisage shifts and dreams are usually first person. I can't see my own body, but once I'm comfortable enough to move forward in my spiritual journey, I plan to learn about and exercise meditation and astral projection.

Anyways, thanks for listening to the ramble! Have fun and stay safe ^^

-》M《

LIFE LIKE THIS IS SUCH A MIRACLE. HOW DO SUCH TINY TINY TINY THINGS ON SUCH A MINIATURE SPECK OF DUST GROW TO HAVE SUCH COMPLEX MINDS? DO YOU KNOW HOW LARGE EARTH IS COMPARED TO THE SUN? SO ENDEARINGLY TINY. EASILY MISSED. AND YET THE SHAPE MATTER TAKES ON IT IS SO COMPLEX. ORGANS. A BRAIN THAT FEARS, LOVES AND JEERS. A HEART THAT BEATS. LUNGS THAT BREATHE. SO VERY SWEET.

Huh. You know what. I thought I was a sloth demon before. But... I'm highly doubting it now. The only reason I dont do that much ever (and therefore identifying with the sin of sloth a lot. Also cause of that one memory i have, but solitude means peace—theres nothing to incite my wrath. So no wonder i felt so peaceful in my home in the void) is cause of my disability. Before my disability kicked in so hard, I had a lot of energy.

I think my demonself actually embodies Wrath. I either simmer or burn hot when i shift and i feel that emotionally too. also makes sense for why my element is fire, despite feeling burnt out and no energy most of the time.

I'm still figuring stuff out I guess

Would it be weird if I rubbed my head against you? Would it be weird if I rubbed my face against your shoulder as I settled down beside you? Would it be weird?

Demon Of Pain - Day 1

Going thru withdrawal again. Day 1 without seroquel (a sedative). Wish my sanity luck cause my insomnia came back with a vengeance.

Drew this when I got off of effexor almost a year ago.

My fibromyalgia is a bitch to deal with when it comes to withdrawal. Last time I was often bed bound for a month and then after gradually got my strength back while dealing with less withdrawal symptoms, and at the time I felt like I had lost my sanity. That my mind had fractured from the pain.

It's taken months and therapy to get where I am now. I'm stronger for it. I know I can make it through this, and I know what to do when I get overwhelmed now.

Still. Not looking forward to the upcoming breakdowns.

I'll most likely be posting a lot to the void on this account during this time btw, cause thats what I did last time (on a different site that my family follows so fuck that this time around). It helps for some reason.

Welcome to the Demon of Pain series where you'll be following this demon in its natural habitat... pain 😌