Historian, writer, and poet | proofreader and tarot card lover | Virgo and INTJ | dyspraxic and hypermobile | You'll find my poetry and other creative outlets stored here. Read my Substack newsletter Hidden Within These Walls. Copyright © 2016 Ruth Karan.
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This deafening cacophony
creates a solitary peace
encompassed in small rooms
rippling a quiet release
Hold me over a rainbow
Hold me over the tearful seas
Hear the blackbird calling
Calling through the breeze
You hurt me with your fragile words;
lonely is the new day's speech
and the quiet beholds a solemn time
filled with empty promises, I hear you speak
of nothing more than darkness folding
consuming all to sit and see
a new day filled with quietly spoken
words now absent
of your cruel mind and damning speech
It’s quite nice to spend a while dancing through time
suspended in its ticking hours and days
forever a breath away from endless moments
Ice
Slipper socks
Sun umbrellas
Cherry blossoms float;
Flurries of delicate snow
in the heart of spring
A lady in the sky, she follows
dawn’s peaceful light
in wait of tomorrow's guilt,
burning beneath a mountain of clouds
each one darker than the last,
and yet she shines
brighter than any sun in any sky,
she wanders near those setting scales
backed by lions in a crow like roar
waiting to feed the passing day
a lady in the sky, she waits
A ghost is perched in the middle of the lane
softly swaying in a dull grey wind;
she has bloomed but now is still
full of ghostly feathers, like cotton
sheets fresh and waiting,
a new woven straw hat
balanced on the crowded brass hook,
pillows of clouds and endless days
with no rain but the grass is dewy eyed
and lost in a trailing book,
flyaways cutting a boundless sight,
some days are long and grey
but then the nights --
-- the blossom tree outside my window
tells me when spring is here
yet it is wasted in a silent darkness
softly perched in the middle of the lane,
feathers orange in the glow of a thousand sunsets
waiting to be seen again
I am caught on the wind adrift
bound by a grieving sky
still within a restless storm
buried beneath its striking fire
The days are spent in glory and sun
until rain casts its violent shadow;
a storm to herald a setting moon
and bring life again, glory again --
-- it will be here soon
We can cross over and connect
find peace in small things
travel beyond even our simplest dreams -
I’ll see you in a moment, sitting by the sea
lost in this forgotten memory
Waking up to a thousand songs
each hour, they chime and sing,
I knew they would never sing again
if there was no new day to bring
.
They mark the time with beak and wing
its slow passing now my desire;
forever bound to their floating song,
forever bound to their charming fire
Will this day ever end
for fear of waking again;
a new rise, a new day
forever a lifetime away
There is nothing more hopeful than the delicate touch of rain amongst a thunderstorm of clouds.
We trace our lives in running circles
always waiting for a new path to show
Strained and wanting
I simmer below the surface,
a thousand pieces of light
stretched thin and glaring
piece together my skin,
thoughts rumbling through
troubled waters, fine lines
and wasted moments,
preoccupied with nothing
I dream in hurried whispers
frantically calling for settled peace
amongst troubled thoughts
and empty seats
crowded by a droning babble
forever in a constant struggle
I claim only ease
in my own troubled company
watching their restless words
clamour for attention
over nothing but an empty dream
"It is not every one," said Elinor, "who has your passion for dead leaves."
I feel that my entire experience with reading Jane Austen's Sense and Sensibility can be summed up in the sarcasm of that sentence.
Black foggy mountains
bow beneath the legacy
of a golden sun
This is an old journal I upcycled that I now use for story writing ideas when I'm on the go or if I have an idea I need to research or pursue further. I used the covers from the original journal, some exercise books, some scrap materials, and a ton of glue. And I mean a ton - I'm sure if it ever got to 35 degrees here then all the glue would melt and the journal would fall apart. Oh, and the buttons are purely decorational and serve no purpose other than I used material with buttonholes in it for the spine. It would just look weird if there were buttonholes but no buttons, I guess.
When the people you are closest to, who may even know you more than you know yourself, call you fearless and strong when you start doubting yourself, it makes you realise that there is a whole part of yourself that only others see and believe in. And maybe you could start believing in that too.
We are more than what we appear
layers of voices beyond a moonlit mirror
silver threads wrapping around your ears
a darkness light cannot make clearer
You storm away without a backward glance
only troubled minds seek paradise
an escape to a better world
far from circumstance
you whisper to yourself at night
clearing tear-tracked eyes, a haunted sight
I see you now through the mirror glass
cursing what blocks your well-trodden path
I feel laden with unsaid dreams
spilling over my hair, my feet
walking through a daylit night
full of sparkling stars and troubled sleep
Fallen angels are only humans in disguise, reincarnated to follow a new purpose - heal others in order to heal yourself.
I'll listen for a while
but soon I'll start writing
the air absorbs my words
whispered ink, floating, swirling
a thousand voices silently churning
a brilliant light that clouds the senses
drowning in heady daydreams
and forgotten thoughts.
'I'm sorry, what did you say?' I'll say politely.
Rain falls on the many and sunshine only a few. In moments of joy, rain sure does feel like sunshine.
Over there, a mountain side
billowing over a timeless pride
a valley, full of wisps and sighs
each flower an ear
each leaf an eye
.
The sun does not set here
forever, the full moon bright and sheer
will expel the living of their fear
the light-filled twins
share a darkened sky
.
I sat down amongst it all
my mind swaying, a graceful fall
settled within this imagined world
my head a blur
my heart a whirl
I’m sat here at the kitchen countertop
my laptop on a chopping board
watching my mother's jam pot
simmer away the plums and sugar -
I’m here to stop it boiling over.
It has already done it once
the sticky pink liquid has become
stained glass on the hob cooker
it hasn’t reduced much
so I might be here just a little while longer