Introduction
I’m Ruth (she/her) and I write a lot, mainly poems, but I am also a historian, proofreader, and tarot card reader. I don't want to spill my whole life story but I'm also dyspraxic and hypermobile. I’m currently studying dress and textile histories, and my research is focused on deliberately concealed garments in UK buildings. I’m going to list a few of my WIPs and projects so that you know what to expect from my blog!
WIPs and Projects:
Substack - I now have a newsletter for my historical research if you are interested! It is about deliberately concealed garments and concealment rituals around clothing and shoes, the stories of the people who owned these objects and their emotional dimensions.
Poetry collection - Holly House. I need to go back over some of my posts and add tags for the poems that are part of this collection. Holly House refers to the name of the house that I first started writing poems in and that has been a massive source of inspiration.
Mirror World WIP - a historical fantasy/magical realism book I have been planning for a long time
Tales and Stories of the Fairy Kind - I can't help but dabble in rewriting fairy tales, but with much more of a historical perspective. Right now, I am writing a seventeenth century take on Cinderella that focuses on domestic relationships and how romance and fantasy is used as a means of escape and freedom for many people surviving through abuse
Here are all my links:
My Substack
My Etsy
My Instagram
My Pinterest
Thank you for stopping by!
Ruth
Rain falls on the many and sunshine only a few. In moments of joy, rain sure does feel like sunshine.
Waking up to a thousand songs
each hour, they chime and sing,
I knew they would never sing again
if there was no new day to bring
.
They mark the time with beak and wing
its slow passing now my desire;
forever bound to their floating song,
forever bound to their charming fire
"It is not every one," said Elinor, "who has your passion for dead leaves."
I feel that my entire experience with reading Jane Austen's Sense and Sensibility can be summed up in the sarcasm of that sentence.
let me stay,
dancing like fae among flowers
lost to the breeze
and summer sun-showers
Elizabeth Bishop, The Complete Poems 1927-1979; from 'The Moose'
I was a gifted child. Until I wasn't. I was the golden girl. Until I couldn't burn anymore.
My parents expected me to build wings of gold and fly further than anyone could ever try. I don't blame them, having a child to raise is like sculpting a clay pot, you can shape it the way you like, paint it the colour you fancy. To raise a child is to play God. To raise a child is to be God.
But to be a child is to fall, to make mistakes, to fail. The thing about being too bright at an early age means you burn out by the time you're 16 and suddenly the world around you becomes more gray and terribly, terribly lonely. The fire is never warm enough, nothing is ever enough. And one day you find yourself begging to a godless sky, begging for a new spark.
I was a gifted child once. I was the golden girl. And one day, I burned out.
-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The world is a sphere of ice and our hands are made of fire
“Accept how you feel but don’t let feelings rule you. You are in control. You are not their slave.”
— Unknown
Richard Hugo, Essay on Poetic Theory: The Triggering Town
Historian, writer, and poet | proofreader and tarot card lover | Virgo and INTJ | dyspraxic and hypermobile | You'll find my poetry and other creative outlets stored here. Read my Substack newsletter Hidden Within These Walls. Copyright © 2016 Ruth Karan.
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