I've Literally Been Reduced To Burnout So Many Times For This Exact Reason, It's So Unbelievably Awful.

I've literally been reduced to burnout so many times for this exact reason, it's so unbelievably awful.

The amount of times I've wanted to write out all of my headcanons, story ideas, world concepts, and what-have-you's and then all of it suddenly just... Vanishes. No words. Nothing. Completely blank. All because I can't get over the innate fear (and expectation) of, "This person doesn't actually care. They're just waiting for me to stop talking so they can divert the subject to something else as quickly as possible." And it's just so heartbreaking to watch my own passion be doused and deflate in real-time.

Sometimes, I wish I could seriously relate to someone else who has the same level of fixation on my niche interests that I do, understands it, and has genuine care for me whilst participating, but I haven't really gotten that click with someone, yet. I still feel pretty alone in the things I fixate on, but I'm trying to enjoy it more in my own time! 👍🏻

that feeling of wanting to talk about hyperfixations/special interests to someone but not knowing how to put it into words anymore after a lifetime of being told "shut up no one cares stop talking about the things you like" By literally everyone in your life and learning to completely suppress that part of yourself into numbness

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