Hananene Teacher AU Cont.

Bro is sleeping in Heavenly peace

If I were to give a general estimation as to when i think Maomao gained romantic feelings for Jinshi, it would have been at the end of LN4

Jinshi saves Maomao from her kidnapping, and she returns to working as the Verdigris House's Apothecary. With Jinshi's true status revealed, Maomao assumes she's never going to see him again

She thinks about this a lot, about how she's too low born for someone of his status to ever see her, and how he doesn't even need her help with his injury anyway, because Luoman is at the rear palace now. There's no logical reason for them to ever see each other again. And it itches at her

And so she starts her experiments again, harming herself. There doesn't seem to be a purpose for the concoctions she's making either, as if she's trying to treat something with no obvious cause. Something too deep for the failed medicines to reach

So she goes to cut off her finger. Specifically, her left pinky finger.

Again, there doesn't seem to be a purpose for this behavior at all- until you remember that her mother cut off the tip of her left pinky, out of anguish and rage at Lakan for abandoning her. Fengxian's love for Lakan is the reason her mother harmed her.

Maomao relates that particular finger of her's to romantic love, because of her parent's tragic love story and the trauma it caused her

Maomao knows how stupid love can make even the most intelligent of people, and has consciously and subconsciously avoided it, because she doesn't want to experience that same sort of attachment and hurt. She's heard her parent's story, heard stories of those seeking love at the Verdigris House, how courtesan's speak about love in hushed tones, and how it always ended in pain for everyone involved

But when she thinks she's never going to see Jinshi again, she goes to cut off her left pinky finger, as if on instinct. The finger she associates with romantic love. The same action Fengxian did, when she thought she'd been abandoned by Lakan.

Maomao is doing the exact same thing as her mother, for the exact same reasons.

It's only when Jinshi walks in through the door that Maomao unties her pinky and puts away the knife, and returns to her normal self.

It's one of those things where - I don't think even Maomao understands the reasons behind her actions here. Something was bothering her, something deep, and she went to the only solution she could think of to fix it- cutting off the piece of her that she associates with romantic love- but she stops feeling that subconscious itch as soon as Jinshi comes to see her. As soon as he's back in her life, things are right again, and she stops hurting herself

it's a moment i think about a lot, and it's one of my favorites in the series, because of what it represents for Maomao specifically. it says a lot about her character and how she feels about Jinshi, even if it takes years for those feelings to fully bloom

⭒ kaeya and childe with a s/o that faints ⭒

request for anon: continuation of this post with kaeya and childe

this has the same premise as the post linked above, so check that post for more in-depth details if you haven’t read it!

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pairing: kaeya and childe x reader (separately)

characters: kaeya alberich, childe

genre: fluff

word count: 616

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kaeya

⋆ he’s never fainted, but he has witnessed others faint (and maybe even caused it) so he knows what it looks like

⋆ but when he sees you start to look a little unstable and woozy after having just been fine, he honestly thinks you’re messing with him

⋆ he throws the thought away, though, when you stumble a little and then fall

⋆ kaeya is quick to catch you, pulling you close to him to prevent any injury

⋆ when you come to, you’re met with kaeya’s concerned face mere inches from your own

⋆ “was that uh… a joke?”

⋆ you blink up at him, confusion crossing over your face, and he grows more worried. when you realize what he’s asking about, your eyes widen, and you jolt back from him

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Lol sorry

Its ok..what are you apologizing for ?? ;o; 

hey guys, so i been working on these character sheets and i haven’t drawn everyone yet but im sharing them anyways cause im excited to share LOL

ft. stupid notes to myself about the characters. i don’t have a very strong definition of everyone’s style, but i kinda narrowed it down with these.

truly the goal of this au was to draw nene in whatever i wanted haha. i suppose that goes for everyone in it.

if you guys have questions my asks are open btw!

edit: i added the lineup so you can see them all next to each other

THE APOTHECARY DIARIES SEASON 2 (EP. 17)

// spoilers below

OH one more thing about the luomen scenes:

luomen going "i can't let this interfere with my duties" vs. jinshi thinking "my duty is to find maomao" just hits for me. like, i know luomen was referring to his literal and official duties in the medical office, which are largely to care for the pregnant consorts, but like. he also makes this choice because he believes this is the path that will lead to the most good (this is not the same as the greater good btw). so if this is the intentional parallel i think it is, then jinshi calling finding maomao a duty, making it a priority above all his other official duties, feels like him saying that to him, that's the path that leads to the most good ^^ (i'm aware this is me overanalyzing the lines okay but *waves at the blob on the floor* jinmao!!)

OMG MY QUARANTINE WAS THR EXACT SAME

oh! well I hope yours doing well and staying healthy!! 💖

These scenes being a cinematic parallel is so funny to me because the Hanako and Nene scene is like: "Let's be together in the real world!! <3" and then the Mitsuba and Kou scene is "do you want me to KILL MYSELF for you? :D"

Maomao, every time she looks at Jinshi:

fight fight fight!