Starlight, Star-crossed

If I were to give a general estimation as to when i think Maomao gained romantic feelings for Jinshi, it would have been at the end of LN4

Jinshi saves Maomao from her kidnapping, and she returns to working as the Verdigris House's Apothecary. With Jinshi's true status revealed, Maomao assumes she's never going to see him again

She thinks about this a lot, about how she's too low born for someone of his status to ever see her, and how he doesn't even need her help with his injury anyway, because Luoman is at the rear palace now. There's no logical reason for them to ever see each other again. And it itches at her

And so she starts her experiments again, harming herself. There doesn't seem to be a purpose for the concoctions she's making either, as if she's trying to treat something with no obvious cause. Something too deep for the failed medicines to reach

So she goes to cut off her finger. Specifically, her left pinky finger.

Again, there doesn't seem to be a purpose for this behavior at all- until you remember that her mother cut off the tip of her left pinky, out of anguish and rage at Lakan for abandoning her. Fengxian's love for Lakan is the reason her mother harmed her.

Maomao relates that particular finger of her's to romantic love, because of her parent's tragic love story and the trauma it caused her

Maomao knows how stupid love can make even the most intelligent of people, and has consciously and subconsciously avoided it, because she doesn't want to experience that same sort of attachment and hurt. She's heard her parent's story, heard stories of those seeking love at the Verdigris House, how courtesan's speak about love in hushed tones, and how it always ended in pain for everyone involved

But when she thinks she's never going to see Jinshi again, she goes to cut off her left pinky finger, as if on instinct. The finger she associates with romantic love. The same action Fengxian did, when she thought she'd been abandoned by Lakan.

Maomao is doing the exact same thing as her mother, for the exact same reasons.

It's only when Jinshi walks in through the door that Maomao unties her pinky and puts away the knife, and returns to her normal self.

It's one of those things where - I don't think even Maomao understands the reasons behind her actions here. Something was bothering her, something deep, and she went to the only solution she could think of to fix it- cutting off the piece of her that she associates with romantic love- but she stops feeling that subconscious itch as soon as Jinshi comes to see her. As soon as he's back in her life, things are right again, and she stops hurting herself

it's a moment i think about a lot, and it's one of my favorites in the series, because of what it represents for Maomao specifically. it says a lot about her character and how she feels about Jinshi, even if it takes years for those feelings to fully bloom

Namjoon: Hey, does anyone know how to render? Just curious.

Yoongi: I can render my enemies immobile.

Namjoon: I meant 3D computer renders, but I'll keep you in mind for future reference.

Maomao, every time she looks at Jinshi:

THE APOTHECARY DIARIES SEASON 2 (EP. 17)

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OH one more thing about the luomen scenes:

luomen going "i can't let this interfere with my duties" vs. jinshi thinking "my duty is to find maomao" just hits for me. like, i know luomen was referring to his literal and official duties in the medical office, which are largely to care for the pregnant consorts, but like. he also makes this choice because he believes this is the path that will lead to the most good (this is not the same as the greater good btw). so if this is the intentional parallel i think it is, then jinshi calling finding maomao a duty, making it a priority above all his other official duties, feels like him saying that to him, that's the path that leads to the most good ^^ (i'm aware this is me overanalyzing the lines okay but *waves at the blob on the floor* jinmao!!)

IT’S DAY 7 OF TSUKASA WEEK, FREE DAY!! I didn’t have a single bit of time to write today, sob. BUT! A while ago, I promised a compilation of some of Tsukasa’s best moments in the AmaNene Fake Dating RP I do with my friend (the RP where Ako originated), so here they are!! More beneath the cut!

CONTEXT: 1) Nene has just told Amane about a guy who rejected her very rudely. 2) and 3) Nene and Amane have been on a fake date and have accidentally gotten covered in food, so they go to the Yugi household to clean up. Amane has gone to wash up. Nene sees someone walk into the room, and asks if Amane is back already. It is not Amane. 4) Nene has asked Amane on another fake date, but since Tsukasa is also in the room, she feels obligated to ask Tsukasa if he wants to come, too. Tsukasa, sensing Nene’s desperation to be alone with Amane, says he has other plans. 5) Actually Amane sums it up pretty well. Just enjoy Tsukasa’s weird-ass texting. 6) Nene has come over to the Yugi household to study, but she and Amane get a little… distracted on the couch. Tsukasa is supposed to be upstairs in his and Amane’s room right now. It is storming outside. 7) and 8) Tsukasa wants Nene to stay overnight since the power is off and it’s raining too hard for her to go home. 9) Tsukasa has gone upstairs to take a bath, since he was soaking wet from trying to climb out the window earlier. 10) Ah, brotherly love.

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⭒ albedo, diluc, and jean with a s/o that faints ⭒

super indulgent headcanons for myself because i’ve been getting a lot more dizzy spells and even fainting more than usual lately and it’s been bumming me out.

most of you don’t know but for the past seven years or so i’ve suffered from dizzy spells and fainting spells. i can usually catch them and stop them, but sometimes all i can do is find somewhere to lay down until it passes. honestly, i’m not sure how long i’m usually out (because i’m unconscious lol) but it usually only feels like a few seconds before i wake up confused about where i am. i’ve had one test done regarding it five or six years ago but they didn’t find anything and i haven’t been able to get anything else done regarding it. it doesn’t seem to be anything life-threatening, and i’ve only gotten hurt a couple times, so no need to worry :)

but yeah all that information was just so i could explain what reader is pretty heavily based on!

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pairing: albedo, diluc, and jean x reader (separately)

characters: albedo, diluc ragnvindr, jean gunnhildr

genre: fluff i think?

word count: 926

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albedo

⋆ he’s never fainted before, so he has absolutely no clue what it feels like

⋆ fallen asleep at his desk in the middle of working? yes. but actually fainted? no.

⋆ so when he sees you stand up and then suddenly fall, he panics

⋆ he rushes over to make sure you’re alright, and keeps himself composed for your sake as you come to

⋆ “are you… alright?”

⋆ after he helps you get situated, he backs off, hesitant to touch you more than he already has

⋆ you nod, intending on getting back to whatever you were doing beforehand, but albedo is looking at you so concerned. honestly, you’ve never seen him so worried, his eyebrows furrowed, his gaze distant but roving over you to make sure you’re really fine, his lips drawn in a tight line

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Let's run away together. To the real world!

Hold me, forever

you’ll find me shining just for you

pairing: albedo/reader

rating: general

summary: You think it might just be an illusion, a figment of your imagination, and you’re already halfway out of the door until you hear a voice calling your name. Slowly, you turn around, and find a stranger, familiar as though you’ve met him before.

notes: tried to do something different this time, hope its ok! has a mix of a few different au’s: soulmate and modern, sprinkled with a few other elements. in any case, reqs are open for him!

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amane: windows XP shutdown noise

flood my inbox with your teen drama au headcanons so that i actually have something to draw as stress relief for the next few weeks