Madly In Love With My Newest IKEA Purchase And The Neighbor‘s Cat Timmy (even Though He Constantly

if academia ever makes you feel like you're not good or smart enough . . . it's not you, it's academia.

-Ali Hazelwood

"I am out with lanterns, looking for myself" (E.Dickinson)

© Jee Won Park (ig: zeewipark)

It took me f*cking two full years, but I finally managed to finish my first diary ✨

they should invent a life that is liveable and a sleep that comes easy and a winter that doesn't feel like decay and a spring that doesn't feel like the past and a head that doesn't hurt and a heart that doesn't sit in your chest like a rock and a body that doesn't hate you and a hometown that doesn't make you lose your mind and a university that won't kill you they should invent a me that is normal I think that would be really neat. ok good night I love you

one thing i need to start living by is “become the thing that you want” if i want friends who throw themed parties maybe i should start throwing those parties. if i want someone who writes me love letters maybe i should start writing letters for the people i love. if i want to hang out at museums and pretty cafes maybe i should invite my friends to these places. and maybe even then i won’t find the kind of people i want to be around. but then i would have become the exact person i want to be around. and maybe that’s good enough.

Went to a beautiful café in my hometown today with one of my best friends 💕 I also decided to start playing the piano more frequently again and bought the Bridgerton Song book, since I prefer modern piano covers

ok universe, i’m ready to feel good things. make me feel good things.

Today’s soundtrack ✨

Same energy ✨

Do you ever feel like it was way easier to find friends, when you were younger? I don’t know what happened, but somehow between the age of 13 and now, I lost most of my social skills. I get really bad anxiety when talking to strangers and now I only have one friend at Uni and she’s skipping classes pretty often so I don’t know if she’ll pass the exams. All of my close friends live far away, I’m scared of being lonely.

Well, at least I have the neighborhood cats, that’s step one of my 15-year-plan to become a crazy cat lad 🩵🤍