Two Words That Really Shouldn't Be The Same Word:

I'm running out of fonts to use and it is now blackbaords

Them : What do you even do in graduate-level math?

Me: Invent symbols no one understands, stare at whiteboards for hours, and occasionally cry into my coffee.

I just watched a beutifull and and emotionall video by Patricia Taxxon on youtube and it reminded me of something I used to be very close to but have since stopped doing, and that is to just look at math and play! Math is inherently arbitrary! By definition math is art! It's a way to grasp at the world, yes, but it's also a vehicle into creating entierly new worlds! New dimentions! New, novel kinds of logic and causality! You can take any single operation, map it to an arbitrary unused symbol, and just! Use it! In different eqasions! In different contexts! You can stretch you conceptions of what is a number, a value, space itself, and it's all so fun and inventive, and you can draw fractals! So so so so many fractals!

And it can be hard to see it that way. Especially after going through public education, especially after being beaten into the ground with incomprehensible notation of lond dead professors, after being offered only the most optimised and abstracted of formulas with no basis on which to place them but! Math is a jurney! To discovery of not only reality but yourself! What compells you; what you see with ease and what just does not compute, what is the rjeason for all of that notation, what would happen if you just assumed something stupid! And that stupid thing can sometimes be revolutionary to your understanding of numbers! Math and notation is an art form and I'm heartbroken people aren't seeing it for that! Because it's too esoteric or intimidating or because they've been made to feel like they could never succseed at it! Becouse someone hurt you in an attempt to teach you how to fill out a standardised test.

My plea is, to give math a try, look for something that resonated with you, or just draw some triangles and sqares; make a fractal; define how it's built and try to see what comes of it, there's so many things to discover. Try to proove a simple formula. Visualise! Solve a simple problem! It's intimidating; but it doesn't have to be! It's impossible to fail at mathematics, you can only learn from your mistakes, I beg of you, try.

mathematics/art

#instead I'm here reblogging this

people who dont experience it cannot comprehend how awful executive dysfunction is. I WANT to do the task, i have the resources TO do the task, i will feel better having DONE the task

but i cant fucking do the task

she abstract my nonsense till my diagram commutes

she graph my theory til i form an edge set

These are so fun to make

I've said this before but every basic feminism 101 women's empowerment event I've ever been to has been all about telling women and girls that it's okay to speak up for ourselves, it's okay to take up space, it's okay to be strong and fast and loud and hungry and sexy and smart and good at things without feeling shame, but apparently, with the way some people talk, the second a trans woman does any of these things it's evidence of "male socialization" and needs to be called out and "corrected." like, even if this were the case, which it isn't, I think it's patently insane to believe "it looks like these women don't have as much crushing shame from a lifetime of experiencing misogyny as most other women" (<- a claim that, from my experience, is simply not true about trans women) and then follow it up with "I must Fix This by teaching them to shut up and be ashamed" instead of, like, idk "good for them, I wish this type of liberation for all other women as well."