But Like What's The Fun If You Don't Get Carpel Tunnel

What about the empty polycule

I don't necessarily agree with this but it has such a mathematical quality to it somehow

One of the most frustrating things about being ADHD is the way hyperfixations and skill levels work.

So I, an ADHD person, will get obsessed with A Thing. I will research, I will practice. I'll check out library books, watch YouTube videos, seek out podcasts, all to learn everything I can about The Thing.

Thiat Thing is often a skill or hobby. Painting, writing, candlemaking, baking, mixology, tea blending.

But the thing with ADHD is that you'll be obsessed with it only to a certain skill level. Something where all the mystery is gone. It's not as fun once the learning part is over and it's just boring practice to get better.

Then abruptly, you'll lose interest and move to another fixation.

That skill level you've earned may be higher than your average person with a passing interest. But it's also lower than someone who specializes in said thing, who has put in those hard hours of practice and work.

So you start just forming this miscellaneous collection of things that you're good enough at to earn some praise, but still leave you feeling like you're just never *quite* good enough at anything because you can't just choose anything.

And you want to pick a Thing. To find Your Thing. The thing that fits, that you can finally excel at. But you just can't seem to.

So, my spouse has been exploring his gender lately; he also just built himself a new laptop. Today he told me that he in an attempt to process some genderfeels through metaphor, he made a post on a trans forum along the lines of: "I'm a lifelong Windows user and I think I'm pretty good at it. I want to find out what Linux has to offer but I'm afraid I wouldn't be any good at it. And how do you choose the right Linux distro, anyway? Do you have to try them all?"

The responses, he said, were a mix of useful advice about feeling out your gender and useful advice about choosing a Linux distro.

I love trans people so much

It is high time we also start boycotting everyone involved in this project.

all these arguments about the new harry potter casting but all i can think is that every person involved in the series has willingly signed up to work with such an outspoken transphobe

I just watched a beutifull and and emotionall video by Patricia Taxxon on youtube and it reminded me of something I used to be very close to but have since stopped doing, and that is to just look at math and play! Math is inherently arbitrary! By definition math is art! It's a way to grasp at the world, yes, but it's also a vehicle into creating entierly new worlds! New dimentions! New, novel kinds of logic and causality! You can take any single operation, map it to an arbitrary unused symbol, and just! Use it! In different eqasions! In different contexts! You can stretch you conceptions of what is a number, a value, space itself, and it's all so fun and inventive, and you can draw fractals! So so so so many fractals!

And it can be hard to see it that way. Especially after going through public education, especially after being beaten into the ground with incomprehensible notation of lond dead professors, after being offered only the most optimised and abstracted of formulas with no basis on which to place them but! Math is a jurney! To discovery of not only reality but yourself! What compells you; what you see with ease and what just does not compute, what is the rjeason for all of that notation, what would happen if you just assumed something stupid! And that stupid thing can sometimes be revolutionary to your understanding of numbers! Math and notation is an art form and I'm heartbroken people aren't seeing it for that! Because it's too esoteric or intimidating or because they've been made to feel like they could never succseed at it! Becouse someone hurt you in an attempt to teach you how to fill out a standardised test.

My plea is, to give math a try, look for something that resonated with you, or just draw some triangles and sqares; make a fractal; define how it's built and try to see what comes of it, there's so many things to discover. Try to proove a simple formula. Visualise! Solve a simple problem! It's intimidating; but it doesn't have to be! It's impossible to fail at mathematics, you can only learn from your mistakes, I beg of you, try.

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I have a headache

This should have been my thesis

there should be a flat-earth-like conspiracy theory for every 2-manifold. show me the real projective plane earthers