My P0rn Addiction Is Getting Worse Again, Istg I Can't Do This Anymore, I'm Gna Shoot Myself In The Face

XP dawg I never check my follow count

Thxs for 52 ^^ (I have 71 on my main, WHICH IS CRAZY CAUSE IT WAS AT 50 AS WELL LAST TIME I CHEKCED😭😭😭)

uugguughh my stomach hurtsssss nowwwwwww, whyyy can't I js diiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

talking to people who don't cvt or just aren't really mentally fucked is such a jump scare sometimes

(especially if you jokingly say 'imma kms' and they take it seriously + get concerned 😭)

i want a boyfriend :(

hypersexual isn’t just being horny all the time btw please actually shut the fuck up

WAHHHH, I HAVE WCHOOL IN TWO DAYS IM GNA KMSSSS

i am such a terrible and disgusting being!! i deserve to have terrible things happen to me!! ☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆

I was wrong. Things aren’t getting better. I’ve just been ignoring reality

I THINK I FINALLY UNDERSTAND WHY I SWITCH UP ON PEOPLE SO QUICKLY NOW !!!

(this applies more for people I know irl rather than online)

So yk how sometimes you have fake arguments in your head ? I do that but have full conversations. But it can be very specific.

For example, I always think about what will happen in my therapy sessions, and since I hype myself up about what it's going to be like, I get disappointed and upset when my therapist seems to be going off my script

It happened today with my teacher. I built up the courage to go up to him and ask about the test and if I could do it earlier (since I was leaving school, before the time of the test) and the second I asked, he looked uninterested and plainly said I had to do it tmrw. It wasn't the reaction I had thought he would have (nor was it the one I wanted, I think he's a bitch for being uninterested, there was like 4 kids in the class and he was doing nothing, so it's not like I inturputed him or anything)

Anyways, I think that's the best way I can explain this XP