A/N: Iโm so full of Angst ideas and Iโm not sure why. I promise to write more fluffier, cheesy stuff later on down the road, but for now, take this anguish my lovelies. (I might make a part two of this, only because I liked it so much.)
Word Count: 2.2k
TW: Cussing, Arguments, Brian and Tim are toxic, grief.
Reader is a female!
The apartment door slammed shut with a resounding crack, the force reverberating through the small space. You flinched, startled, and looked up from where you sat curled on the couch. Tim and Brian were back, their faces hard and unreadable, though the tension between them filled the room like smoke.
โItโs midnight, where the hell were you?!โ you demanded, standing up as your voice quavered between anger and worry. Your heart pounded. They had been gone for hours with no word, leaving you to stew in an anxious cocktail of fear and frustration.
Tim tossed his jacket onto the back of the chair, not even sparing you a glance. โOut,โ he muttered, the single word cutting through the air like a knife.
โOut? Thatโs all youโve got to say?โ You stepped closer, your fists clenched at your sides. โI was worried sick! You canโt just disappear for hours and notโโ
โAre you even listening to me?โ The words tumbled out, louder than you intended. The silence that followed was suffocating.
Brian leaned against the kitchen counter, arms crossed over his chest. His eyes were sharp, like he was sizing you up, ready to dismantle you piece by piece. โWhat more do you really want?โ he sneered, his tone cold. โWeโre back. Isnโt that enough?โ
โEnough?โ Your voice cracked. โYou left me here, with no explanation, no text, nothing! Do you know what that feels like?โ
Brianโs laugh was bitter, a sound devoid of warmth. โYouโre so pathetic. Always clinging, always demanding.โ
Your chest tightened, the words hitting harder than they should have. โWhat is wrong with you guys? I stayed up all night worrying about you. I thought you mightโve been hurtโor worse!โ you snapped, though your voice wavered under the weight of Timโs sharp glare.
Tim finally turned to you, his expression a mixture of exhaustion and something sharper. โCan you just fuck off already?โ he said, his words devoid of emotion.
The ground felt like it was slipping beneath you. You stared at him, unable to process what heโd just said, eyes starting to form small beads, glistening when the kitchen light reflected off them.
Brianโs smirk widened as he tilted his head, his voice dripping with mockery. โOh, is the poor little thing going to cry? Canโt handle a bit of truth, huh?โ
You stood there, rooted in place, as the words rained down on you like blows you couldnโt dodge. Your chest tightened, each syllable slicing deeper, but you couldnโt move, couldnโt speak. The walls seemed to close in around you, the air growing heavier with every passing moment.
Tim remained unmoved, his gaze sharpening.
Brian pushed himself off the counter, his movements slow and deliberate as he walked past you, his shoulder brushing yours in a way that felt intentional. โEver since we first met, youโve been nothing but a burden,โ he muttered, his voice low but clear enough to pierce through the din of your spiraling thoughts.
Something in you cracked. The fragile hope youโd held onto, that this was just a bad day and things would work themselves out, shattered completely. โFine,โ you said, your voice trembling but steady enough to carry the weight of your resolve. โLeave, then. Both of you. I donโt need this.โ
For the first time, neither of them had a quick retort. They exchanged a glanceโsilent, unreadableโand without another word, Tim grabbed his jacket. Brian didnโt even bother to look back as they walked out the door.
The silence they left behind was deafening.
โโฟฬฉอโฟ เผบ โฐ เผป โฟฬฉอโฟ
The door closed with a soft click this time, and the sound made your stomach twist. The fight was over, but it didnโt feel like a victory. The quiet that followed wasnโt peaceโit was suffocating. You stood frozen in the center of the room, your arms hanging limply at your sides, heart hammering in your chest.ย ย
Youโd told them to leave. And they had.ย ย
Tears pricked your eyes, blurring your vision as the weight of everything began to settle. Their words echoed in your mind, each one sharper than the last.ย ย
โYouโre so pathetic.โ
โCan you just fuck off already?โย
โYouโre nothing but a burden.โ
Your knees buckled, and you sank onto the couch, trembling. You hugged yourself, as if you could somehow shield yourself from the bruises their words had left behind. It wasnโt the first time arguments like this had erupted between you three. The stress of working with the Operator, the endless, mind-numbing missions, and the constant danger had frayed everyoneโs nerves. But tonight had been different.ย ย
Tonight, they hadnโt just been angryโtheyโd been cruel.ย ย
You wiped at your face with the sleeve of your hoodie, your breath hitching as the tears came faster. โWhy did it have to be like this?โ you whispered to no one.ย ย
For a moment, you let yourself remember the good daysโthe laughter, the late nights spent curled up together, the small moments of tenderness that had made all the chaos bearable. Youโd thought that those moments meant something, that they could carry you all through the worst of it.ย ย
But maybe you were wrong.
The clock on the wall ticked loudly, each second dragging on longer than the last. The apartment felt too big, too empty without their presence, even if that presence had been brimming with anger. You couldnโt stop replaying the argument in your head, trying to pinpoint the moment where everything had spiraled out of control.ย ย
Had you pushed too hard? Or had they finally shown you what they truly thought of you?ย ย
Your phone buzzed on the coffee table, snapping you out of your thoughts. You reached for it with shaking hands, half-hoping it was one of them. Maybe Tim or Brian would apologize, or at least explain what had set them off so badly.ย ย
But it wasnโt them. It was just a useless notificationโa weather alert. You threw the phone back onto the table, the small hope youโd allowed yourself fizzling out as quickly as it had come.ย ย
A cold wave of exhaustion swept over you. You pulled a blanket over your shoulders, curling into yourself as the tears continued to fall.ย ย
โ โฟฬฉอโฟ เผบ โฐ เผป โฟฬฉอโฟ
Hours passed, though you couldnโt tell how many. You didnโt sleepโhow could you, with your mind racing and your chest aching like this? You wanted to hate them, wanted to banish their faces from your thoughts, but it was impossible.ย ย
The door opened again sometime near dawn. The sound jolted you upright, your breath catching in your throat. For a split second, you thought maybe theyโd come back to make things right.ย ย
Tim stood in the doorway, looking drained and disheveled. Brian was behind him, his face an unreadable mask. Neither of them spoke at first.ย ย
โWhat are you doing here?โ you asked, your voice hoarse from crying.ย ย
Tim looked away, scratching the back of his neck. โWe forgot some stuff,โ he muttered. โItโs not like we came back for you.โย ย
The sharpness of his words was dulled by his toneโit wasnโt cruel, just... hollow.ย ย
Brian crossed the room without a word, grabbing a duffel bag from the corner and stuffing a few things into it. He didnโt even glance in your direction.ย ย
The sight of them, so detached and indifferent, made something inside you snap. โThatโs it?โ you said, your voice trembling with anger and disbelief. โYouโre just going to walk in here, grab your shit, and leave? After everything?โย ย
Tim turned to face you, his expression darkening. โWhat do you want me to say?โ he snapped. โThat weโre sorry? That everythingโs fine now? Itโs not.โย ย
โI donโt want your empty apologies,โ you shot back. โI wanted you to care. I wanted you to try.โย ย
Brian finally spoke, his voice cold and sharp. โWeโve been trying. You think this is easy? You think we can just continue acting like everythingโs fine when itโs not?โ
โDo you even hear yourselves?โ you said, your voice rising. โYouโre blaming me for thisโlike Iโm the one whoโs broken us!โย ย
Timโs jaw tightened. โMaybe you should look in the mirror, then.โย ย
The room fell silent again, the weight of his words pressing down on you like a heavy stone.ย ย
You swallowed hard, blinking back the fresh tears that threatened to spill over. โIf this is how little you think of me, then why did you stay for so long?โย ย
Neither of them answered.ย ย
Brian slung the duffel bag over his shoulder, his expression unchanging. โWe couldnโt handle faking it anymore,โ he said.ย ย
You stared at them, your chest heaving as anger and despair warred within you. โFine,โ you said, your voice trembling. โI donโt know what I saw in you both to be together this long.โ The words you spoke came out like venom, even shocking you.
Tim hesitated for a moment, but Brian didnโt look back as he opened the door and stepped out. Tim followed, the door closing behind them with a finality that left you breathless.ย ย
And then, once again, you were alone.ย ย
โ โฟฬฉอโฟ เผบ โฐ เผป โฟฬฉอโฟ
The hours that followed their departure stretched endlessly, every second heavier than the last. The apartment felt like a hollow shellโan echo chamber of everything they had said and everything you hadnโt had the chance to say. Sleep evaded you; every time you closed your eyes, their voices lingered, cruel and sharp like glass shards digging into your chest.ย ย
When the sun finally rose, its weak light spilled through the curtains, and you sat up, exhausted but restless. Their things were gone now, but the spaces they had filledโthe chair Tim always slouched in, the spot on the kitchen counter Brian leaned against when he teased youโthose remained, taunting you.ย ย
By noon, you had reached your breaking point. You had to confront themโnot to bring them back, but to purge the poison theyโd left in your veins. You grabbed your phone and sent a message to Tim.ย ย
We need to talk. Face-to-face. Please.
You didnโt expect him to reply. You didnโt expect him to come, either. But an hour later, there was a knock at the door.ย ย
When you opened it, Tim stood there, his expression guarded. He had changed out of his wrinkled clothes from the night before but still looked just as tired.ย ย
โWhereโs Brian?โ you asked flatly.ย ย
โNot here,โ he said, stepping inside. โHe didnโt want to come.โย ย
โOf course he didnโt,โ you muttered under your breath.ย ย
Tim frowned, crossing his arms. โYou wanted to talk. So talk.โย ย
The sight of him standing there, so detached, made your blood boil. โYou promised me,โ you said, your voice trembling. โYou both did. You promised weโd stick together, no matter how hard things got.โย ย
Timโs eyes narrowed. โYeah, well, promises donโt mean much when everythingโs falling apart.โย ย
โYou think I donโt know that?โ you snapped. โI gave you everything I had. Everything! Look where that got me.โย ย
He flinched, just barely, but it was enough to spur you on. โEvery time I look at you,โ you said, your voice breaking, โall I see are the faces of the people who once told me they loved me, that I was the only bright spark in their dark world. And now youโre just like themโanother person who tore me apart and left me here to bleed.โย ย
โStop,โ Tim said quietly, but you werenโt done.ย ย
โYou changed me, Tim. You and Brian both. You broke me down until there was nothing left. And the worst part? Neither of you will ever find someone who loves a soul as filthy as yours.โย ย
โThatโs enough!โ he shouted, his voice cutting through the room like a whip.ย ย
The silence that followed was deafening. Tim looked away, his jaw tight, his hands clenched into fists at his sides.ย ย
You let out a shaky breath, your anger giving way to exhaustion. โWas any of it real? Did it ever really mean something to either of you?โ you whispered, looking at Tim with some form of hope in your eyes.ย ย
Timโs head snapped back toward you, his expression shifting. โOf course it meant something!โ he said, his voice cracking. โYou think I didnโt care? You think none of it mattered to me?โย ย
โDid it?โ you asked, your voice flat. โBecause if it did, why did you let it end like this? Why didnโt you fight for us?โย ย
He stared at you, his mouth opening as if to say something, but no words came out.ย ย
Finally, he shook his head and turned toward the door. โI canโt do this,โ he muttered.ย ย
โOf course you canโt,โ you said bitterly. โRunning away is the only thing youโve ever been good at.โย ย
He hesitated, his hand on the doorknob, but didnโt look back. And then, just like that, he was gone.ย ย
โฟฬฉอโฟ เผบ โฐ เผป โฟฬฉอโฟ
The next few days passed in a blur. You didnโt hear from either of them, and part of you was grateful for the silence. But the pain lingered, festering like an open wound. You replayed the argument with Tim over and over in your mind, dissecting every word, every glance, every moment where things could have gone differently.ย ย
You werenโt sure if you wanted to fix things anymore. Maybe there was nothing left to fix.ย ย
But one thing was certainโyou wouldnโt let them tear you apart again.
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I love this sm!! ๐ฅน @writeriguess did an absolute amazing job!! Please go check their work out, they are truly talented!! โค๏ธ
Hi lovely! Iโm not sure if you do this, but I would love to see poly!141 x reader! Preferably angsty or comfort (If not, then could I get one with Soap?)
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Ghosts of the Past
The darkness felt suffocating.
Sweat clung to your skin, the thin fabric of your shirt damp and sticking to your back. Your chest rose and fell in quick, ragged breaths as you stared into the abyss of your room, trying to convince yourself that you were here, not there.
But the nightmare had been too real this time.
Gunfire. Smoke. The weight of blood-soaked earth beneath your knees.
It had been all around you, swallowing you whole, dragging you back into the worst moments of your past. The smell of burning flesh still clung to your senses, making your stomach churn. You swore you could feel the phantom sting of a bullet grazing your ribs, the echo of a comradeโs last breath filling your ears.
Your throat locked up, and a choked sob broke free before you could swallow it down.
That was all it took.
Price stirred first. He was always the first to wake up, his instincts sharper than the rest of them. There was a heavy exhale, the rustling of fabric as he shifted beside you, and then the familiar weight of his hand on your arm.
"Love? You alright?"
You couldnโt answer. Your breathing was still erratic, chest rising and falling in quick, shallow bursts as you clenched the sheets in tight fists. You knew where you were, knew you were safe, but your body wasnโt listening.
Soap was next. You felt him move before you heard his voice, his warmth pressing closer as he propped himself up on one elbow. His voice was softer than usual, still tinged with sleep, but laced with worry.
"Another nightmare?"
You barely managed a nod, body trembling as you struggled to regain control of your breathing.
A large, warm hand slid over yours, squeezing gently. Gaz. He didnโt say anything right away, just offered the grounding pressure you needed. His touch was solid, realโsomething to tether you to the present.
Ghost moved last, but when he did, it was with quiet purpose. You barely heard him shift until his voice rumbled through the dark, thick with sleep but firm in its concern.
"Breathe, sweetheart. Slow it down."
You sucked in a shaky inhale but couldnโt seem to hold onto it. Your heart was still racing, your body still trapped in the ghost of a past that wouldnโt let you go.
A second squeeze from Gaz. A reassuring rub along your back from Price. The weight of Soap pressing his forehead to yours, his presence humming with quiet strength.
"Youโre safe," Soap murmured. "Itโs just us, bonnie. We got you."
The weight of their presence surrounded you, warm and steady. Slowlyโpainfully slowโyour breathing began to even out.
"Can you tell us what it was about?" Gaz asked gently.
You hesitated.
How could you put it into words? How could you tell them that the nightmare wasnโt just a nightmareโthat it was real, that it had happened? That it wasnโt just your subconscious playing tricks on you but a memory etched so deep into your bones that you doubted it would ever fade?
Your silence stretched, but Ghost didnโt push. Instead, he shifted closer, his arm wrapping fully around your waist and pulling you against his solid chest. His warmth seeped into you, pressing down the last remnants of the nightmare like an anchor.
"You donโt have to talk about it," he murmured. "Just let us hold you."
Your fingers clenched the fabric of Soapโs shirt, body still trembling as you finally let yourself sink into them.
Price was still rubbing slow, steady circles against your back. "You're not alone, love," he said quietly. "Weโre right here. Always."
You squeezed your eyes shut as Soapโs hand found your jaw, tilting your face slightly toward him. His forehead pressed against yours again, a silent comfort, his voice softer than youโd ever heard it.
"Youโre ours, bonnie. Nothingโs gonna get you, not while weโre here."
Gazโs fingers brushed through your hair, slow and deliberate. "You should get some rest," he murmured, voice gentle. "Weโll stay awake if you need us to."
You shook your head. You didnโt want them to watch you, to stay awake just because your mind refused to cooperate. "You donโt have toโ"
Ghost cut you off with a quiet, firm whisper. "We will."
It wasnโt up for debate.
You sighed, exhaustion tugging at your limbs now that the initial adrenaline had faded. You still felt raw, frayed at the edges, but the worst of the panic had passed.
Soap let out a soft chuckle, but there was no teasing in his tone. "Gotta be honest, love, youโre not getting rid of us that easy."
Price hummed in agreement. "You need rest. Youโre safe here. Just close your eyes."
They werenโt leaving.
You shouldโve known better than to think they would.
As if sensing the last of your resistance, they all settled closer. Ghostโs arm remained firm around your waist, anchoring you. Soap nuzzled against your temple, his warmth a silent reassurance. Gazโs hand traced absent patterns along your arm, soothing, steady. And Priceโs slow, methodical rubs against your back never wavered.
Soap murmured something in Gaelicโsomething quiet and familiar. You barely understood it, but it was enough to lull you, the cadence of his voice washing over you like a lullaby.
The last thing you felt before slipping into sleep was the weight of Price pressing a gentle kiss against your forehead, his voice a low whisper in the dark.
"Sleep, love. Weโve got you."
And for the first time in a long time, you believed it.
A/N: I am filled with angsty ideas, you guys to need recommend me some fluff! Anyway, I figured I would write about Jinx next, since i wrote about Vi.
TW: Death, Hallucinations, Guns, Accidental Murder.
Word Count: 1.4k
Reader is Female
You were always there for Powder.
From the moment you two stumbled into each otherโs lives as kids, scuffing your knees and laughing through the grime of Zaun, you knew she was special. Powder, with her bright blue hair, endless dreams, and that mischievous light in her eyesโshe made you believe in something more. Maybe it was the way she rambled on about her silly inventions, or the way her hands danced when she explained her wildest ideas, her voice full of hope. Or maybe it was because you saw her as she saw you: someone who wanted to belong.
You loved her. Even as kids, it was there, silent but true. Not that you ever said anything. How could you? She was Powder, your Powder. The girl who wanted to ride a blimp and touch the clouds. The girl who dreamed of the topside skies.
โโบโโ โโโโโฑเผ๏ธ โข เผ๏ธโฐโโโโ โโบโโ
Then it all fell apart.
You remembered the smoke, the shouting, the chaos that swallowed your home whole. Vander was gone. Vi was gone. And Powderโฆ
No, Jinx.
They said she vanished. They whispered about the girl with the bombs, the one who burned bright like a firework and destroyed everything in her wake. The Zaunites called her a ghost, a demon, Silcoโs pet monster.
But you couldnโt accept that. You couldnโt believe it.
You spent weeks wandering through the debris-strewn streets of the Lanes. Every alley, every shadow seemed to hold a trace of her. You heard whispers of Silco, of strange explosions, but none of it led you to her. The places you once played togetherโthe old sewer tunnel, the abandoned warehousesโwere empty now, silent ruins filled with ghosts.
The nights were the worst. Youโd sit under the broken pipes of your hideout, staring at the dim glow of Piltover above, wondering if Powder was watching the same light. You whispered to the darkness, hoping she might hear you. โCome back, Powder. Please.โ
But there was only silence.
โโบโโ โโโโโฑเผ๏ธ โข เผ๏ธโฐโโโโ โโบโโ
Months became years, and time changed you. The streets taught you how to survive, how to scrape by when the world turned cold. You worked odd jobs, scavenging parts from scrap heaps, running errands for merchants who barely paid you a coin. But you never stopped dreaming for something betterโnot for yourself, but for her.
You still saw her sometimes, in glimpses. A flash of blue down a crowded street. A laugh that sounded just like hers, only to turn into static when you followed. You knew it wasnโt real. She was a ghost now, the ghost of your Powder.
And yet, you pressed on. You worked harder, pushing yourself through the grime and the hunger. You told yourself it was what Powder wouldโve wanted. Weโll go live topside with Vi and Vander, weโll make something of ourselves she would say tinkering with her latest invention. And you tried.
โโบโโ โโโโโฑเผ๏ธ โข เผ๏ธโฐโโโโ โโบโโ
Eventually, you saved enough to get out of Zaunโeven just for a little while. The topside was everything Powder once described to you, from the clean cobblestone streets to the strange, humming machines in Piltoverโs marketplace. You marveled at it all, feeling out of place yet unable to tear your gaze away. And that was when you saw it: a blimp soaring high above the streets, its silver hull gleaming in the sunlight.
Youโd promised her once. Weโll ride one together someday.
It hurt, but you paid what little you had for a single ride.
When you stepped onto the deck, your heart pounded. The wind whipped through your hair as the blimp climbed higher and higher, leaving the city behind. Below, the sprawling streets of Piltover gave way to clouds, soft and endless.
It was beautiful.
You closed your eyes and let yourself imagine that she was there beside you, her small hand in yours, her face full of wonder. โSee, Powder? I made it. Just like you wanted.โ
The words were stolen by the wind, but you hoped she heard them wherever she was.
โโบโโ โโโโโฑเผ๏ธ โข เผ๏ธโฐโโโโ โโบโโ
It happened on a day like any other.
You were wandering through an abandoned factory on the outskirts of the Lanes, searching for scrap to sell. The air smelled like rust and smoke, and the metal creaked beneath your boots. It was late in the evening, the shadows long and the silence unnerving. You had learned to tune it out over the yearsโthe way Zaun felt like it was always waiting to swallow you whole.
Then you saw her.
A flash of blue.
You froze in place, your heart slamming against your ribs. At first, you thought it was just another hallucination, a cruel trick of the fading light. But then she moved, the unmistakable sound of footsteps echoing across the concrete.
Your voice caught in your throat. โPowder?โ
She turned, slowly, and for a moment, your world stopped.
It was herโand yet it wasnโt. The girl you remembered, the girl you loved, had changed. Her hair, once braided carefully with your help, now hung in wild, tangled strands. Her clothes were a chaotic patchwork of leather and belts, torn and smeared with soot. Her eyesโฆ they werenโt the soft blue you remembered. They glowed pink, sharp and unnatural, like embers left too long in the fire.
Her gaze settled on you, and she tilted her head, smiling in a way that didnโt feel quite right. โHavenโt heard that name in a while,โ she said, her voice sing-songy, almost mocking.
Your chest tightened. โItโs you,โ you whispered, tears pooling in your eyes. โItโs really you. I thought you were gone.โ
The smile widened. โIโm not gone. Iโm justโฆ better.โ
โPowder,โ you stepped closer, ignoring the alarm bells going off in your mind. You had to be sure. โItโs me. Iโm here. I looked for you. I never stopped looking.โ
Something flickered in her gazeโa hesitation, like she recognized you. But it disappeared almost as quickly as it came.
โJinx,โ she corrected. โThatโs my name now. Jinx.โ
The word made your stomach drop. Youโd heard the name whispered in hushed voices across the Lanes. The girl with the bombs. Silcoโs girl. But this wasnโt Jinx. This was Powder. It had to be.
โPowder, please,โ you begged softly. โItโs me. Remember? Iโฆ I love you.โ
Her smile faltered, and for the briefest moment, you saw her. Powder. The girl you shared everything with. The girl who promised you both would touch the sky one day.
You surged forward, wrapping your arms around her trembling frame. โYouโre okay,โ you whispered against her shoulder. โYouโre safe. Youโre home now.โ
Then it snapped.
Her body went rigid, and suddenly you were shoved back, her strength far greater than you remembered. You stumbled, confusion turning into panic as you saw the wild look in her eyesโeyes darting around like they were chasing something you couldnโt see.
โNo, no, no,โ she muttered, hands clutching at her temples. โYouโre not real. Youโre not real.โ
โPowder, itโs me!โ you cried. โIโm right here! Look at me, please!โ
Her gaze snapped back to you, sharp as glass. โLiar,โ she hissed. โYouโre one of them. Youโre just like them!โ
You opened your mouth to plead againโฆ and thatโs when you saw it.
The gun in her hand.
Your heart stopped. โPowderโฆโ
โJinx! Itโs Jinx now!โ she screamed, her finger trembling on the trigger. Her pink eyes flickered, caught between recognition and madness. For a moment, you swore you saw tears there, too.
โPlease,โ you whispered, stepping forward. โI love you, Powder. I always have.โ
The words hung in the air, fragile and fleeting.
Her expression brokeโjust for a second.
Thenโฆ Bang.
โโบโโ โโโโโฑเผ๏ธ โข เผ๏ธโฐโโโโ โโบโโ
The world was quiet.
The pain was immediate and blinding, burning through your chest as you fell to your knees. You gasped for breath, your vision swimming with spots of color.
JinxโPowderโstared at you, her eyes wide, her hands shaking around the smoking gun. The grin had vanished. In its place was horror, her lips quivering as she dropped the weapon to the ground.
โNoโฆ no, no, noโฆโ she whispered, stumbling forward. โI didnโt mean toโฆ I didnโt mean to!โ
You tried to speak, but nothing came. The air was too thin, too far away. All you could do was look at herโthe girl youโd loved since you were kids. The girl who dreamed of touching the sky.
Your vision blurred, and as the darkness crept in, you thought of the blimp. The sunlight. The clouds stretching out forever.
โFor you, Powder,โ you mouthed, your lips barely moving.
And thenโฆ nothing.
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Jinx sat there for a long time, cradling your lifeless body.
In the silence, the hallucinations whispered their cruel mockery. But for once, Jinx didnโt listen. She just stared at you, the only person who ever loved her, truly loved her, and wondered if she had finally broken something she couldnโt fix.
The sky, somewhere above Zaun, remained blue.
๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐๐ฆ ๐ค๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐กโ๐๐ข๐ก ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ง๐. ๐โ๐๐ ๐ ๐คโ๐ ๐๐ ๐ค๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐โ๐๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข! ๐
๐ท๐๐ฃ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ฆ: @๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐โ๐๐๐ -๐-๐๐๐๐
The real barbie is Y/n.
Y/nโs a doctor, a cop, a scientist, an agent, vet, hero, villain, astronaut, lawyer, spy, criminal, artist, chef, engineer, psychologist, architect, journalist, firefighter, event planner, mechanic, photographer, musician, actor, interior designer, bartender, fashion designer, barista, florist, forensic scientist, flight attendant, profiler, tour guide, translator, etc.
Iโm so obsessed with Taraโs writing I might just cry.
what a heavenly way to die || the proxies
โforever is in your eyes, but forever ainโt half the timeโ
sum: after being stranded in the middle of a snow storm, youโre forced to take shelter with masky, hoodie, and toby. you need to stay warm, by any means necessary
tw:SMUT, FILTHY, LONG, AGGRESSIVE SMUT, foursome kinda? idk?, sub!reader, soft dom!masky, hard dom!hoodie, sub!toby, gun play, overstimulation, exhibitionism, lowkey throat fucking, praise, humiliation, power dynamics lowkey do be in place
a/n: FOR ALL OF MY OG HITCHHIKER BABIES <3
โBut I donโt wanna wear gloves!โ
โToby if you donโt wear gloves, your fingers are gonna fall off.โ
Maskyโs voice was hoarse, his patience thinning the longer he walked. Not even a fresh cigarette could make this situation any better. Only some shit like this would happen to him.
On the way back from an assignment the car ran out of gas, courtesy of allowing Hoodie to drive for more than five minutes. Now with the tank on E, the four of you were stranded in the middle of no where. Snow fell from the sky, coating each of you more and more by the second. Hoodie seemed perfectly content with his offense, minus the occasional shiver. Toby couldnโt comprehend the need to wear so many layers, the kid practically fighting for the right to freeze to death. Masky found himself silently regretting his choice of a mask, his gaze landing on you.
Normally he discounted your presence, you being the newest member of the group. But heโd be lying to himself if he shrugged you off. Although you had only been around for a few years now, for such a tiny little thing you sure pulled your weight. He never thought much of you at first, your small stature and loud mouth telling him everything he could ever want to know. But over the years of enslavement together you simmered down, sometimes more quiet than Hoodie. Masky could deal with his silence, having been dragged into this shit show by his hand.
But you? He couldnโt handle it.
His dark gaze landed on you, looming over your shaking form like a dark cloud. You always wore skimpy clothing, even if not practical. This happened to be one of those times, your skirt riding up your thighs and knee high socks failing to conceal the goosebumps that littered your skin. โCold, kid?โ Masky asked, ignoring his own shaky fingertips as he took a drag of his cigarette. The four of you had been hiking for what felt like hours, more and more of your limbs becoming numb by the second. โT-Told ya life wasnโt a f-fashion show,โ Toby chimed in, clearly enjoying the weather.
โCan it, you ticking time bomb,โ Masky interjected, frowning. He noted the way you avoided his gaze, as if you were afraid of judgment. But why? You had never given a shit about his opinion before. He grunted to himself as he shrugged off his signature mustard jacket, forcefully shoving it on your shoulders.
โBut youโll freeze-โ
โPut it on and donโt bitch about it.โ
His voice was stern and full of authority, threatening you to question it. His mask hid his satisfied expression as he watched you put it on. โAny plans here boss? Or do we plan on camping out here?โ Hoodie asked sarcastically. It was in moments like these Masky was thankful the two of them wore mask, his distain written all over his face. โWe just need to keep heading south like boss ordered,โ Masky huffed, blowing cigarette smoke out into the cold night air. Tensions were arising quickly, the freezing cold fizzling out any trust that had been formed.
โHead south? Are you on crack or delusional? Tobyโs fingers are so frost bitten theyโre about to snap off and the kid is so fuckin cold iโm surprised sheโs able to stand at all,โ Hoodie barked, his words laced with venom. Masky didnโt like to go off schedule. He didnโt like to piss off The Operator. If it were him and him alone, heโd continue walking south until he either made it or The Operator himself found him. However, as his eyes raked in the sight of his companions, he realized Hoodie was right.
โFine, weโll have a sleepover. Follow me. I saw smoke over this way,โ Masky agreed reluctantly, tossing his cigarette bud carelessly onto the ground. Toby began to yap about Masky being a litter bug, earning him a knock upside the head from Hoodie. The silent proxy gritted his teeth, annoyed with Masky neglecting to tend to them sooner.
โYou saw signs of civilization and just now told us? How long would you have let us walk before we fuckin froze to death?โ Hoodie questioned, his gaze so deadly Masky could feel holes burning into his back. You awkwardly tugged his jacket closer to you, your breath shallow. โHeโs k-kinda right, kinda an asshole move,โ You said softly, completely exhausted from marching in a borderline snow storm. Maskyโs gaze softened for a moment, before noticing Toby had taken off his gloves. โWe need to get going before this dipshit loses his fingers,โ Masky grumbled, shrugging off the issue at hand. The three of you trailed behind him, satisfaction washing over you as a cabin came into sight.
You werenโt an advocate for death, but you quite literally wouldโve killed someone for a warm spot in that cabin. The four of you burst inside, scanning the room for any sign of human life. None of you could deny your eagerness to be warm. A small fire crackled in the background in the fireplace, providing a soft orange glow to the room. Masky gestured Toby to follow him upstairs, leaving you and Hoodie to scope out the remainder of the first floor. โAny guesses on why itโs abandoned like this?โ You asked the taller proxy, avoiding his lingering gaze. Hoodie tended to be a bit unsettling sometimes, whether he meant to be or not.
โMy guess? Some rich couple cut their honeymoon short and hauled ass once they saw the forecast,โ Hoodie said blandly, shrugging off his ski mask. It had been a while since you had seen his face, his stubble grown out more than you could remember. โGood for us then,โ You mumbled, averting your eyes. You stared at the ground so much you tended to forget what your fellow proxies faces looked like. Footsteps trampling down the stairs regained your attention, your head snapping in the direction. โGood news, place is ours. Bad news, the only heat source is that lovely fireplace right there,โ Masky said, sitting down in front of the small couch. The three of you followed his lead, crowding around the tiny fireplace.
โThis is your grand plan?โ Hoodie questioned, his distrust visible on his face with his mask off. Masky fought the urge to light another cigarette, bringing his knees to his chest. โThe fireplace as well as our body heat is enough to survive. Unless you have a better idea, be quiet,โ Masky replied dryly. Toby took the opportunity to lay his head in your lap, a place he had been time and time again. You had taken on this role long ago, stroking his chestnut hair until the unpredictable ticking time bomb fell asleep. Tonight was no exception, even as you settled in next to Masky.
You ignored the ever growing tension that sprouted with each second as your arms touched, the smell of his cologne mixed with tobacco flooding your nostrils. Tensions were ever growing as your arm brushed against his, your energies so magnetic it made you unmistakably nervous. Nervous. You never felt nervous in any other situation. But around Masky? Especially close like this? You might as well have been a flirty high school girl. Hoodie ignored the three of you, jumping over the arm of the couch and making himself comfortable. He was always reserved like that, refusing to touch any of you unless he was back handing Toby. The couch squeaked under his weight, the squeaks continuing until the older proxy got settled.
You continued to play with Tobyโs hair, swirling your fingers around his scalp. โWarm enough kid?โ Masky asked, his voice more rough than usual. You tried to avoid staring, noticing him taking off his mask out of the corner of your eye. You wanted nothing more than to soak in his features, especially since his mask was practically glued to his face a majority of the time. Instead you forced yourself gaze to remain forward, watching the fire flicker. โI suppose,โ You mumbled, catching a knot in Tobyโs hair. You refrained from cringing as you brushed it through with your fingers, thankful he couldnโt feel pain as he slept soundly. The sound of Hoodieโs soft snores put Masky a little more at ease, his next words something he wouldnโt admit to the other two men next to you.
โYou were right about earlier. I was an asshole, I shouldโve had us head here to begin with,โ Masky admitted timidly. He didnโt like being the leader, that role automatically assigned to him like it was his birth right. What he didnโt like even more than that, was admitting that he was wrong. He expected ridicule, which he wouldโve gotten if you were Hoodie or Toby. But instead you laid your head on his shoulder, nuzzling your cheek against the fabric of his sweater. โI know you were just trying to please The Operator,โ You whispered. You continued playing with Tobyโs hair, ensuring your hand didnโt stop. You glanced up in his direction, soaking in his thick eyebrows and awkward side burns. His chocolate eyes met yours unsurely, an eyebrow raising.
โWhat are you doing to me kid?โ Masky grumbled, his own heart beginning to race. This was bad news, feeling this way towards you. But the orange glow against your skin had him reeling in his own skin. โYou tell me boss,โ You whispered back, edging your lips towards his. It caught you off guard that Masky made the first move, planting his lips against yours. His lips were as chapped as yours, his taste a recognized mixture of mint and cigarettes. You melted under his touch, eagerly kissing him back. He was intoxicating, his large hand slipping into your hair.
You could feel your core throbbing with desire, your cheeks flushing pink as you realized this. Being a proxy didnโt exactly equate a productive sex life, your body longing for the touch of another human. You couldnโt get enough of his lips, his desperation. It was just as passionate as yours, both of you longing for human compassion. You shuddered as his large hand slithered down to your thigh, your legs parting instantly. His cold fingertips trailed up your sensitive skin, tracing your skin teasingly. You held back a soft groan, Masky eager to hear you make sinful noise for him. He was so close to your core, your body shuddering at the idea-
โWhat the fuck are you two doing?โ
Hoodies voice was sharp, abruptly interrupting your lustful daze. Love affairs between proxies was forbidden, a strict rule made clear to you by The Operator. While he gave the same speech to Kate, he knew that her feralness would unintentionally have her follow his rule to a T. You, however, were semi more mentally stable, with a knack for fashion and semi put together appearances. For the first time you saw panic across Maskyโs eyes, causing you to clear your throat. โSharing body warmth obviously, you cold Hoodie?โ You asked, the lie leaving your lips before you had time to consider the repercussions. For a second you couldโve swore you saw a glimpse of Brian, a playful smirk crawling up his lips.
Your hand abandoned Tobyโs hair, grabbing a handful of Hoodies coat to drag him closer to you. You managed to spare a moment of hesitation, dragging his lips to clash into yours. You were tense at first, unsure what the proxy would do. You were surprised to feel him meet your desperation all the same, the nagging realization of his similar loneliness crashing over you. Teeth clashed with teeth, his desperation resulting in a deeper kiss than you expected. You found yourself getting even more flushed, knowing Maskyโs eyes were burning into yours. He took the opportunity to press his hand against your core, noting how damp your panties were already.
โYouโre gonna wake the kid up,โ Hoodie grunted, reluctant to pull away from your lips to begin with. Masky rubbed against your swollen slick, earning a small whimper from you. โIโm a-a-already up,โ Toby said groggily, sitting up. You avoided his gaze as he soaked in the sinful sight in front him, Maskyโs hand on your cunt and Hoodieโs lips mere centimeters from yours. You swallowed, your core throbbing at the idea of taking all three of them at once. After all, you had to convince yourself you werenโt lying. This entanglement was nothing more than an exchange of body heat, a way to keep warm.
Right?
You turned your head towards Toby swallowing nervously as you leaned forward to kiss him. It caught him off guard, his light grey cheeks forming a tint of pink as he matched your actions. Two sets of large hands rearranged you as you lost yourself into the kiss, your ass in the air as your skirt got flipped up. โFuck,โ Masky mumbled, his cold hand sending goosebumps across your skin. You could hear Hoodie moving on the couch, causing you to pull away from sucking on Tobyโs bottom lip. The clinking of his belt fully caught your attention, your eyebrows raised. โDo you um, not wanna be warm?โ You asked slowly. A pang of embarrassment shot through you, a creeping worry of his lack of desire for you arising. The taller proxy smirked, unzipping his jeans.
โI just wanna watch you get knocked down a few pegs, now go on and kiss Masky again,โ Hoodie ordered, palming himself through his jeans. You turned to Masky, cheeks flushed red and heart pounding as you met his gaze. His pupils were blown with lust, his face in the softest state you had ever seen it. You met his lips eagerly, obeying Hoodies demand. Toby took the opportunity to come up behind you, his cold hands slipping under your shirt. Your hand slithered its way down to Maskyโs crotch, palming his hard boner. You were satisfied to hear a small groan claw its way out of his throat, your lips eagerly swallowing it. You arched your back as Tobyโs curious fingertips found their way to your breast, squeezing harshly at your perky nipples.
โN-No bra? Youโre just d-d-dying to get fucked huh?โ Toby snickered. Goosebumps trailed down your spine as you whimpered, nibbling on Maskyโs bottom lip. Your eyes slowly fluttered open, soaking in his facial expression. โLet me suck you off,โ You whispered, biting the inside of your cheek as Toby harshly twisted your left nipple. Masky seemed at a loss of words, something that rarely occurred to him. He looked over you, eyeing a mischievous Toby. โHey kid, make yourself useful and let her ride your face,โ He said, his words laced with authority. You couldnโt ignore the warmth that spread over you as Toby laid on his back, nuzzling himself between your knees.
โSit back on his face princess,โ Hoodie ordered, pulling his cock out of his boxers. Masky clenched his jaw, having momentarily forgotten Hoodie was even there. He watched your shaky hands fiddle with his belt, slowly lowering yourself onto Tobyโs eager mouth. You nervously glanced down at the younger proxy, licking your dry lips. โYou can uh, touch yourself you know, or something,โ You offered unsurely, feeling him shove your panties to the side with his cold fingertips. Masky placed his hand on the back of your head, gently reminding you to focus. โHeโll figure it out kid, stop worryinโ so much,โ Masky grumbled. You continued to focus on undressing him, whimpering as you felt Tobyโs warm tongue dart in between your folds.
โThis is taking way too fuckin long. Letโs speed things up shall we?โ Hoodie asked, his cock already exposed and in hand. Your eyes widened as he took out his hand gun, clicking off the safety. โGet to sucking princess,โ Hoodie barked. Toby continued to lap at your folds, his tongue messily flicking your clit. โAre you out of your goddamn mind? What the fuck is wrong with you?โ Masky argued. His attention was diverted once you took him in your mouth, eagerly bobbing your head up and down on his hard cock. Hoodie smirked at your reaction, noting the way your thighs squeezed Tobyโs head harder. โLook at her Mask. You think a girl like us isnโt into some freaky shit? Now shut up and enjoy it,โ Hoodie snickered, stroking himself to the sight.
Toby was eager, his hand pumping his own shaft as he devoured your cunt. He couldnโt get enough of your taste, his soft groans muffled by your soaked folds. Your hips involuntarily grinded against his face, your own moans sending vibrations around Maskyโs cock. The brunette tried to hide his own sinful noises, but you taking him to the base cancelled out any possibility of him being able to do so. His hand grabbed a handful of your hair, assertively guiding you up and down his cock. Hoodie couldnโt get enough of the sinful sight, your knees digging into the hard wood as you struggled to hold yourself up. He wouldnโt stop watching even if the world collapsed.
Meanwhile Masky was struggling to hold on, having spent years and years with his hand as his only companion. Your mouth was so warm and wet, your throat only making it harder to resist cumming right then and there. โFuck kid, youโre gonna be the death of me,โ He grunted, feeling your tongue swirl around his tip. Your eyes were already flooded with tears, your gaze meeting his as you deep throated him. It was embarrassing to Masky how fast he knew he was going to cum, your sweet face only bringing him closer to the edge. Hoodie noted this as well, noticing the way Maskyโs hips began slowly stuttering. A sadistic thought came to mind, one that he knew would ensure a good time for every party involved.
Your orgasm was approaching quickly, your thighs squeezing Tobyโs head so tightly you were almost worried about him. โGo on princess, thatโs it. Ride Tobyโs face like the good whore you are,โ Hoodie purred, stroking himself. He enjoyed watching your micro expressions, your mannerisms. The way your eyebrows furrowed when Toby licked you just right. Masky momentarily pulled out of your mouth, craving to hear your moans. Your spare hand was tugging at Tobyโs hair, whimpers clawing their way out of your throat. โFuck, feels so good T-Toby-โ You whined, tilting your head back. Precum and saliva covered your swollen lips, your gaze meeting Maskyโs. โCan I cum? Fuck, please let me cum,โ You whined, struggling to contain yourself. Masky smirked at your request, briefly giving Hoodie a cocky glance.
โGo on kid, cum for us,โ He cooed. Words couldnโt describe the satisfaction he felt as you came on Tobys face, your eyes rolling back and legs shaking. You planned to get off, a click from Hoodies gun ripping you away from your ride of euphoria. โI didnโt tell you to get off, did I? Keep riding princess,โ Hoodie barked. Toby was still as eager as ever, his mouth gratefully accepting you as you lowered back down onto him. He lapped at your slick, devouring your cum. โNobodyโs stopping until everyone cums. Thatโs only fair, isnโt it?โ Hoodie asked mockingly. You rolled your tongue out across your bottom lip, presenting yourself for Masky to use. โMasky, please, let me taste you,โ You pleaded, struggling to stay upright. The overstimulation was making your body twitch, the brunette quick to shove himself back in your mouth.
Something about this, watching you be overstimulated and cumming, drove Masky feral.
He was more aggressive this time, pulling your hair and forcing your jaw to go slack. You whined as you struggled to keep up, saliva trailing down the sides of your mouth. โSuch a good hole for me to use, fuck,โ Masky groaned. He could feel himself coming closer to his orgasm, his hips stuttering as he thrust one final time down your throat. His warm seed made you gag as you struggled to keep him in your mouth. Tears streamed down your cheeks as you gripped his thighs, swallowing him whole. He pulled out of your mouth, watching you gulp for air. You were so pretty like this, your face fucked out and sounds nothing more than incoherent babbles. You could hear Tobyโs groans growing louder as well, your thighs squeezing around his head as he came on his stomach. The three of you were spent, Tobyโs tongue momentarily coming yo a pause.
The sound of Hoodies gun clicking caught all three of your attention, the taller proxy not hiding his sadistic grin. โNot all of us have cum, have we?โ He asked, sending a shiver of fear and arousal down your spine. โKeep sucking princess,โ He barked. His gaze landed on Toby, whose eyes were barely visible from between your thighs.
โAnd keep eating her out kid, I wanna see her squirm.โ
A/N: Here is Part 2 of โI Love You, Iโm Sorryโ for all my lovelies that requested it! I tried to write it to where it has even more angst, and I hope you all enjoy! :)
Word Count: 2.3k
TW: Mentions of Suicide (If you or a loved one is suffering, I urge you to reach out for help, you are loved even if you cannot see it), Aruging, Toxic ex-relationship.
The city of Piltover always hummed with life, its streets alive with industry and ambition. Tonight, however, it felt subdued, as though the city itself shared your unease. You walked aimlessly, boots scuffing against cobblestones worn smooth by countless steps. The festival lanterns glowed faintly in the distance, their light flickering like dying embers.
Your mind refused to quiet. It circled back again and again to Viโto her laughter, her fire, the way sheโd make even the darkest corners of Zaun feel like home. But those memories now carried an edge, cutting deep whenever they surfaced. Youโd spent so many nights hoping sheโd return, only to realize that hope could be a double-edged sword. Sometimes, it kept you alive. Other times, it made the fall so much worse.
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You thought about the first time youโd met her. It had been at a Zaunite rally, a chaotic clash of voices demanding justice. You had been there to observe, to report back to your Piltover contacts about the growing unrest below. But then sheโd stepped onto a crate in the center of the crowd, her pink hair catching the faint light as she spoke with raw, unyielding passion. Her words had seared into your soul, leaving you questioning everything you thought you believed.
โIf weโre going to survive,โ sheโd said, her voice ringing clear above the noise, โwe have to stop begging for scraps. Weโre not the broken pieces of Piltoverโs machine. Weโre the ones whoโll tear it down and build something better.โ
Even now, you could feel the electricity of that moment, the way her conviction had drawn you in like a moth to a flame. You hadnโt known it then, but that was the night your life had begun to split in two. There was the you that belonged to Piltover, its orderly streets and gilded towers. And then there was the you that longed for something moreโfor her.
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The sound of footsteps pulled you back to the present. You looked up and saw someone walking toward you. For a brief, gut-wrenching moment, you thought it might be Vi. But as the figure drew closer, you saw that it was a man, hunched and shrouded in a heavy coat. He gave you a passing glance before disappearing into the shadows, leaving you alone once more.
You sighed and turned down a narrow alley, the noise of the festival fading behind you. This part of the city was quieter, almost eerily so. The buildings here were older, their facades cracked and weathered by time. It reminded you of Zaun in a way, though the air was cleaner and the streets more stable underfoot.
Your thoughts drifted to Caitlyn Kiramman, Piltoverโs golden enforcer. Sheโd always been an enigma to you, with her poised demeanor and piercing gaze. Vi had spoken of her often, always with a mixture of admiration and frustration. โSheโs too good for this city,โ Vi had once said. โToo good for me, too. But sheโs got thisโฆ way of seeing things, you know? Like sheโs already ten steps ahead of everyone else.โ
You hadnโt known what to say to that. The jealousy that prickled at the edges of your thoughts was ugly, but undeniable. You had wondered, even then, if Caitlyn was the reason Viโs heart always felt just out of reach. And now, after what youโd seen tonight, you couldnโt help but feel youโd been right.
The kiss between them had been soโฆ certain. So unguarded. It had felt like the final nail in the coffin of everything you and Vi had built together. You tried to remind yourself that she deserved happiness, that Caitlynโs steady presence might be what Vi needed. But the thought only twisted the knife deeper.
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You stopped walking and leaned against a lamppost, the cool metal grounding you. The city stretched out below, a labyrinth of light and shadow. Somewhere out there, Vi was laughing, living, moving on. And you? You were stuck here, caught in the liminal space between what was and what could never be.
โWhat am I even doing?โ you muttered to no one in particular. The words dissipated into the night, unanswered.
Your gaze drifted upward, toward the towering skyline of Piltover. Youโd spent years climbing its social ladder, trying to carve out a space where you could make a difference. Youโd believed in its promise of progress, in the idea that change could come from within. But now, all you could see were the cracksโthe lies and corruption that seeped through the cityโs polished exterior. Vi had seen them too, but sheโd never shared your faith that they could be repaired.
โPiltover doesnโt change,โ sheโd told you once, her voice heavy with resignation. โIt just finds new ways to keep people in their place.โ
At the time, youโd argued with her, insisting that things could be different. But now, in the aftermath of her absence, you werenโt so sure. Maybe sheโd been right all along. Maybe your efforts were nothing more than a foolโs errand.
The sound of distant laughter reached your ears, and you turned instinctively toward it. A group of festival-goers passed by, their faces bright with joy. You watched them for a moment, feeling like an outsider looking in. Once, you might have been among them, caught up in the revelry. But tonight, it felt impossible. The weight of your grief was too heavy to set aside, even for a moment.
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You pushed off the lamppost and kept walking, the streets growing quieter as you moved further from the festival. Your feet carried you toward the border between Piltover and Zaun, a place youโd avoided for months. It was a strange sort of no-manโs-land, a place where the two cities bled into each other without ever truly meeting. Here, the air was thicker, the lights dimmer. It felt like a fitting backdrop for your mood.
You stopped at the edge of a rusted bridge, the same one Vi had once described in her dreams of a wedding. Sheโd envisioned it covered in lights, filled with people from both cities coming together to celebrate something real. But now, it stood empty and decayed, a monument to everything that had gone wrong.
The thought crept in quietly, unbidden but persistent. What if you justโฆ let go? The bridge loomed over the murky depths of the water below, its surface reflecting the faint glow of distant lanterns. You stepped closer to the edge, the wind tugging at your coat. For a moment, you imagined the releaseโthe quiet, the stillness. No more pain. No more longing.
But as you gripped the railing, a voice cut through the fog of your thoughts. โHey!โ
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You froze, your heart lurching as you turned to see Vi standing at the other end of the bridge. Her pink hair caught the faint glow of the city lights, her broad shoulders framed against the night sky. She looked differentโtired, older somehowโbut the fire in her eyes was unmistakable.
โVi,โ you said, your voice barely above a whisper. The air between you felt charged, heavy with everything that had been left unsaid.
She stepped closer, her expression unreadable. โI didnโt expect to see you here.โ
โFunny,โ you replied bitterly, stepping away from the edge. โI wasnโt expecting to see you tonight either. Especially not with her.โ
Viโs jaw tightened, her eyes narrowing. โSo thatโs what this is about? You spying on me now?โ
โI wasnโt spying,โ you snapped. โI was justโฆ there. And I saw enough.โ
She crossed her arms, her posture defensive. โYou donโt get to judge me. You donโt know what itโs been like these past few months.โ
โDonโt I?โ you shot back, the anger youโd been holding back finally boiling over. โYou think youโre the only one whoโs been hurting? Iโve been trying to hold everything together, Vi. For you. For us. And all this time, you wereโโ Your voice broke, the words catching in your throat. โYou were moving on.โ
โMoving on?โ she echoed, her voice sharp. โYou think thatโs what this is? You think I wanted any of this? You donโt understand what itโs like to feel like youโre drowning, to grab onto anything just to keep your head above water.โ
Your chest ached, her words cutting deeper than you thought possible. โI was there for you, Vi. I wouldโve done anything for you. But you left. You left, and now youโre standing here acting like Iโm the one who doesnโt understand?โ
Her gaze softened for a moment, but then she shook her head, her expression hardening again. โI didnโt leave. I fought for what I believed in. And if you couldnโt handle thatโif you couldnโt handle meโthen maybe this was doomed from the start.โ
The words hung in the air, heavy and final. You stared at her, tears blurring your vision, but you refused to let them fall. โMaybe it was,โ you said quietly, the weight of your grief settling over you like a shroud. โBut it doesnโt make it hurt any less.โ
Vi looked away, her jaw clenching as though she was holding back words she couldnโt bring herself to say. Her fists tightened at her sides, the leather of her gloves creaking under the pressure. For a moment, it seemed as if she might walk away again, leaving you with nothing but silence and the weight of her absence. But instead, she let out a ragged breath and turned back to you, her eyes shadowed with a pain that mirrored your own.
โI never wanted to hurt you,โ she said, her voice cracking. โBut what do you want me to say? That I didnโt screw up? That I didnโt let you down? I did. And I hate myself for it.โ
Her admission hit you like a punch to the gut. Youโd dreamed of hearing her say those words, of having her acknowledge the chasm that had opened between you. But now that she had, it didnโt feel like the closure youโd hoped for. It felt like another wound, raw and bleeding.
โYou donโt get to hate yourself,โ you said bitterly. โYou donโt get to take the easy way out. You donโt get to kiss someone else and then come here acting like youโre the victim.โ
Vi flinched, her eyes narrowing. โYou think itโs easy? Being with Caitlyn, pretending Iโm okay when every part of me feels like itโs falling apart? Sheโs safe. She doesnโt make me feel like Iโm standing on the edge of a cliff, waiting to fall.โ
The words stung, and you took an involuntary step back. โSo thatโs what I was to you? A risk? Something dangerous you needed to escape from?โ
โNo,โ Vi said quickly, her voice desperate. โYou were everything. But thatโs the problem, isnโt it? I couldnโt handle it. You saw me as something more than I could beโas someone better than I am.โ
โI saw you as someone worth fighting for,โ you countered, your voice rising. โBut you couldnโt do the same for me. You couldnโt even stay.โ
Vi ran a hand through her hair, her frustration palpable. โIt wasnโt about not wanting to stay. It was about surviving. Every time I looked at you, I saw everything I couldnโt haveโeverything I wanted but couldnโt hold onto. And it killed me.โ
โThen why are you here now?โ you demanded, your voice breaking under the weight of your emotions. โWhy did you stop me if youโve already moved on? What do you want from me, Vi?โ
She stared at you, her lips parted as though she had an answer but couldnโt bring herself to say it. The silence between you stretched, heavy and suffocating. Finally, she whispered, โI donโt know.โ
You laughed bitterly, the sound devoid of humor. โThatโs just like you, isnโt it? Always running, always unsure. Youโre so afraid of being vulnerable that youโd rather destroy everything than risk getting hurt.โ
Viโs eyes flashed with anger, but she didnโt deny it. Instead, she took a step closer, her voice low and trembling. โAnd what about you? Huh? You think standing on the edge of that bridge is brave? You think giving up is some kind of statement?โ
โItโs not about bravery,โ you shot back. โItโs about not knowing how to keep going when everything feels so goddamn empty.โ
Her face crumpled, and for a moment, she looked like she might break. But then she straightened, her shoulders squared. โYou keep going because youโre stronger than this. Because youโre better than this.โ
โAm I?โ you whispered, tears streaming down your face. โI donโt feel strong. I donโt feel better. I feel broken, Vi. And youโre part of the reason why.โ
The words hung between you like a dagger, sharp and unrelenting. Vi reached out as if to touch you, but her hand faltered, hovering in the air before falling back to her side. โIโm sorry,โ she said softly, her voice barely audible. โFor everything.โ
But it wasnโt enough. It would never be enough. You took a step back, shaking your head. โSorry doesnโt fix this. It doesnโt bring us back. It doesnโt make me whole again.โ
Vi nodded, her expression hollow. โI know.โ
And with that, the distance between you felt insurmountable. She stood there, framed by the faint glow of Piltoverโs lights, and you realized that this was the end. There would be no mending, no reconciliation. The chasm between you had grown too wide, and neither of you had the strength to bridge it.
Without another word, you turned and walked away, the sound of your footsteps echoing in the stillness. Vi didnโt call after you, and you didnโt look back. The weight of everything youโd lost pressed down on you, but for the first time, you knew it was a burden youโd have to carry alone.
Above you, the stars shone cold and distant, offering no comfort.
๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐๐ฆ ๐ค๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐กโ๐๐ข๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐. ๐โ๐๐ ๐ ๐คโ๐ ๐๐ ๐ค๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐โ๐๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข! โค๏ธ
๐ท๐๐ฃ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐กโ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ค๐๐๐.
Johnny who became ridiculously jealous of the giant seal plushie that took most of his space on the bed as you cuddled with it to sleep.
So he bought a seal onesie for himself, because of course the most logical solution to compete with the plushie, is to be the plushie
Hello everyone,
As Christmas ๐ approaches, I want to thank everyone who has supported my campaign and helped me get closer to achieving a small but meaningful dream for my family. We are now so close to reaching our goal of $10,500, with only $133 left to go!
This amount will help us cover our basic needs and bring some stability back to our lives after everything weโve been through.๐๐ป
Christmas is a time for giving and love, and even the smallest contribution now can help us complete this campaign and reach our goal. Thank you to everyone who has stood by us during these tough times.๐ฅบ
Wishing you a Merry Christmas filled with peace, love, and joy with your loved ones.โจโค๏ธ๐
https://gofund.me/abbc2759
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Hello everyone,
I donโt typically post this kinds of things, but it needs to be known. This family tragically lost their house from the bombing in Gaza. Unfortunately they are still suffering from the devastating loss. They are so close to reaching their gofundme goal of $10,500. If anyone could help donate to their cause it would mean the absolute world to not only me but his family as well. It doesnโt have to be much, and if you cannot donate please share!
Thank you guys,
โMerxcy โค๏ธ
WAIT WAIT WAIT but what if in the angst duchess au, she reaches her breaking point but instead of crying she gets angry, really angry? she did nothing but be kind (JUSTICE FOR DUCHESS)
What would happen if she threatened to reveal their secret if they didn't at least start treating her with respect? Would they accept or threaten her back? (i can see simon protect his man and and their relationship) I NEED ANSWER
(really really love your blog, even if i'm still busy with university i Always find time to read It <3 <3 <3)
Iโm more focused on the idea of her threatening them and them threatening her back- that must cause sooo much tension omg?? Especially if you adapt a very frosty, very cold attitude towards everyone in the duchy after that disastrous day of threats. Thereโs an awful pressure surrounding everyone, and even the staff take to silently doing their jobs to not risk anyoneโs ire- especially after you fire several maids who had been whispering about you, and John didnโt put up a fuss and neither did Kyle.
They become used to feeling your glares, your chilling silence, the downright crude way you tell them how much you hate them, the constant threats- they become used to it. Or at least, they think they are becoming used to it until they notice you one day, a smile on your face while reading a letter that came with a big bouquet of red roses.
An admirer.
Hi, Iโm Merxcy! Here a few things about me to get to know me better:
๐ Iโm 19 years old
๐ My pronouns are she/her
๐ I am an INFP
๐ Iโm obsessed with writing
๐ I have a black little kitty named Binx
๐ I love vinyl records
๐ Iโm an addict for cheesy romance novels.
๐ I live off of coffee
โข---โขยป ๐น๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ผ ๐ค๐๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ ยซโข---โข
๐ถ๐๐๐๐๐ฆ๐๐๐ ๐ก๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ป๐๐๐๐๐ก๐
๐๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐น๐๐๐
๐ธ๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐๐๐
๐๐ก๐๐๐๐๐ค ๐๐๐๐๐๐ฆ
๐ด๐๐๐๐๐
๐ป๐๐๐๐ข๐ฃ๐ ๐ต๐๐ ๐
๐ป๐๐ง๐๐๐ ๐ป๐๐ก๐๐
๐ถ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ท๐ข๐ก๐ฆ
๐ป๐๐๐ค๐๐๐ก๐ ๐ฟ๐๐๐๐๐ฆ
(Feel free to suggest any fandoms you want me to write, Iโm always open to explore new fandoms ๐งก)
โข---โขยป ๐โ๐๐๐๐ ๐ผ ๐ค๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐: ยซโข---โข
๐น๐๐ข๐๐
๐ถ๐๐๐๐๐๐ก
๐ด๐๐๐ ๐ก
๐ป๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐ต๐๐ข๐๐๐ /๐ท๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐๐/๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐๐ โ๐๐๐
โข---โขยป ๐โ๐๐๐๐ ๐ผ ๐ค๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐๐ ๐ก๐๐: ยซโข---โข
๐๐๐ข๐ก (๐๐ท๐๐ผ)
๐ถโ๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ ๐ฅ ๐ถโ๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐
โข---โขยป ๐โ๐๐๐๐ ๐ผ ๐ค๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ก ๐ค๐๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐: ยซโข---โข
๐ป๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐ ๐ก๐ข๐๐ (๐ผ ๐๐๐๐ค ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ โ๐๐๐)
๐ผ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก
๐ป๐ข๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐ถ ๐ฅ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐
โข---โขยป ๐ผ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐: ยซโข---โข
๐ ๐๐๐ข๐๐ ๐ก๐ : ๐๐ฉ๐๐ง!
โโโ* ๐ฎ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ *โ โค
โ* ๐ธ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ณ๐๐๐๐๐๐ *โ โค
๐ต๐๐ข๐๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐ - Tim Wright x Reader x Brian Thomas
โ* ๐พ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฑ๐๐๐ *โ โค
Sal Fisher Relationship Headcanons
โ* ๐ฐ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ *โ โค
๐ฝ๐ข๐ ๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐ท๐๐๐๐. - Tom x Reader
โ* ๐พ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ *โ โค
Nothing here yet..
โ* ๐ฌ๐๐๐๐๐ *โ โค
๐ผ ๐ฟ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐๐ข, ๐ผโ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ฆ - Vi x Reader
๐น๐๐๐๐ ๐ท๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐ ๐ต๐๐ข๐ - Jinx x Reader
๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ฒ๐๐๐๐ - Vi x Reader (Requested)
๐โ๐๐ก๐ก๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ - Vi x Reader (Part 2 of I Love You, Iโm Sorry)
โญ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ช๐ฐ๐ฌ๐ซ-๐๐ฌ๐ฒ๐ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ก ๐๐ฌ๐ณ๐ข - Vi x Reader (Requested)
๐๐ฅ๐ข ๐๐ซ๐ฃ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ ๐ข๐ฏโ๐ฐ ๐๐๐ช๐ญ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ข - Vi x Reader (Continuation of Crimson-Touched Love) (Requested)
๐ด ๐ฟ๐๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐ ๐ฟ๐๐โ๐ก - Vi x Reader/Lux x Reader (Final Part of I Love You, Iโm Sorry)
โ* ๐ณ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ญ๐๐๐ *โ โค
Nothing here yet..
โ* ๐ณ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ณ๐๐๐๐ *โ โค
โ๐ข๐ฉ๐ฉโ๐ฐ โ๐๐ณ๐ข๐ซ - Platonic!Charlie x Platonic!Reader (Requested)
๐๐ฌ๐ฒ ๐ ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ข๐ฏ ๐๐ซ๐ฌ๐ด ๐๐ฅ๐๐ฑ ๐๐ฌ๐ฒโ๐ฏ๐ข ๐๐ฆ๐ค๐ฅ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ซ๐ค ๐๐ฌ๐ฏ - Platonic!Charlie x Reader (Requested)
โ* ๐ฎ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ฏ๐๐๐ *โ โค
๐ด ๐ท๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐๐๐๐ค - Poly!141 x Reader
๐๐ก๐๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฆ๐จ๐ค๐ ๐๐ฅ๐๐๐ซ๐ฌ - Johnny โSoapโ MacTavish x Reader
โ* ๐ณ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ท๐๐๐๐๐ *โ โค
Nothing here yet..
๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐ค๐๐กโ๐๐ข๐ก ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐. ๐โ๐๐ ๐ ๐คโ๐ ๐๐ ๐ค๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐โ๐๐๐๐ ! <3
โ๐โ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ค๐๐ฆ๐ ๐๐ข๐ ๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ก.โ - ๐๐ก๐๐โ๐๐ ๐พ๐๐๐|| ๐๐๐ช๐ฎ๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐ฌ: ๐๐ฉ๐๐ง! || ๐๐๐๐ || ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ซ๐ฅ๐ข๐ฌ๐ญ ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ง๐ญ๐ซ๐จ๐๐ฎ๐๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง ๐ ๐ข๐ซ๐ฌ๐ญ! ||
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