At 9 Am. On Sunday. After Church.

at 9 am. on sunday. after church.

“dear sirius,

it’s been over a year since you left. i understand it, i do, and i wish i could do the same. but we don’t all get the same choices in life. and this was not one i could make.

do you remember when we were five and six, and i wanted to climb onto the roof? you found me hanging out the window and dragged me back in. i think you saved my life. i hope you know that the floo was me paying it back.

i don’t understand why you won’t talk to me. well, i say that, i do understand it, but i wont pretend it doesn’t sting. just because i can’t show it, doesn’t mean i don’t feel it. you know better than anyone how i work.

by the time you get this, it’ll be too late, and that’s how i’ve planned it. don’t try any stupid heroics, sirius. that’s not how our story works. dumbledore is too dangerous, you have to listen to me. go back to grimmauld place, and get the box out of my room. it’ll explain everything. please make sure james gets his letter too (and no, you can’t read it, you nosy twat).

i love you, sirius. i’m sorry i stopped saying it.

see you in the sky,

regulus.”

-a letter found on the floor of an empty flat on halloween 1981

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have you ever thought about how YOU were the problem? and then you start feeling really guilty and sad and oh my god why did i do that to them? then after a while you think back and you’re just like WAIT. i gave them chances. i told them about how i felt. they never changed. or was it me with standards to high? and then you’re just confused and lowkey frustrated

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Had a dream this morning that Archive of our Own had a Random button which would simply take you to a random fanfic, like Wikipedia has. (AO3 does not appear to really have this, I checked and couldn't find one, but I kinda wish they did.) Someone had started a game where whatever fic you got, that was your new fandom, which is very fun! I would love this meme in real life.

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*sighs dreamily* what is Wrong with him

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