My Tears Ricochet ~ Taylor Swift

crying isn't embarrassing.

but supporting those who use slurs, assault/abuse women, are generally misogynist, racist, enforce toxic masculinity, etc is pretty fucking embarrassing.

I LOVE YOU, I'M SORRY (lestappen)

max verstappen x charles leclerc

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Warnings : ANGST, swearing, alcohol, mention of break up, depression, mentions of suicide, mention of smut

song: I love you, I'm sorry ~ Gracie Abrams

a/n: i know it's been months since i last posted a fanfic and i am truly sorry about it. love u all (hope we get to 200 followers soon). Yes I sneaked some lyrics in here. Likes, reblogs and comments are always appreciated!!!

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Charles' POV

I was on my boat in the Monaco harbour with a glass of a drink wich i didn't remember the name of in my hand. The last few weeks complitely destroyed me. Failed races, shitty strategies, Ferrari's mistakes and my break up with Max.

Yes the fans are right, Max and I dated and it lasted for a few years, since 2021 but things took another turn when I got my first home race win. One girl that I knew from Monaco invited me to eat something together out of pure friendship. I assured Max that it wasn't a date but he didn't want to believe me.

He accused me of cheating and we ended things after a bad fight. The day after, he was gone. All of his things were gone from my place and the house felt empty just like my heart.

Wich brings us back to me, on my boat, watching the sun set while drinking. I looked up and saw a plane flying in the sky. Who knows where it's heading, I thought. What I didn't know, was that on that plane, there was someone that I knew really well.

Max's POV

I was looking out of the plane window, the emotions of my break up with Charles were still fresh in my mind. The sight of the other happy couples next to me made me feel sick. Why couldn't I feel all of this? Why did I push my true love away? I put on my headphones and watched a movie to distract myself from the golden eyes that had control over my heart.

I looked at my phone and texted Daniel to tell him that I'll reach Australia at nearly 4am. I drifted off on the plane wondering what could've happened if I didn't break up with Charles.

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I reached Daniel's house in the middle of the night and he greeted me with one of his bright smiles. "Hey mate! How ya doing?"

"Hey Daniel. I'm doing kinda good. You?"

He shrugged "Like always...Miss racing a bit but I'm happy here."

He guided me to the guest room. Daniel went back to sleep but I couldn't bring myself to close my eyes. My mind started to wonder as I started at the ceeling. I wished I was in Charles' bed in Monaco now, cuddling or doing more pleasant things.

I loved how he used to call me 'his champ' after I got a podium and how he rewarded me. I missed being inside of him. I felt my pants getting tighter and the memory but I ignored it. No one could get me off like Charles did.

Charles' POV

I leaned over my boat's railing contemplating to or not to jump. After all I had nothing left. Ferrari was doing shit, I'll never get a championship, the fans of other teams hated me and Max had left me.

He was my everything, my lover, my soulmate, the loss of my life. I had let him slip out of my grip. I didn't even fight to make him stay. That's why i started to get bad results in races but i hope that summer brak will help me.

I took my phone and called Carlos, my teammate, needing some advice.

"Hola Charles. How are you mate?"

"Hi Carlos. Can I talk to you? I'm not feeling really good."

"What's wrong? Is it still about Max?" Carlos asked, a hint of concern in his voice.

"Yeah....I just can't get over him Carlos. I still love him! But he clearly has moved on."

"I'm sorry for you mate, you always seemed so happy at races. I thought you had moved on."

"Well y'know...I tend to laugh whenever I'm sad so when i stare at the crash it actually works."

"I don't know what to say mate...you should talk to him. I think he misses you too I mean have you seen his results? Even Lando is doing better than him." Carlos said trying to make me feel better.

"Yeah...maybe I'll do it."

Max's POV

I woke up the next morning feeling like shit. I needed Charles back, now. I packed my bags, apologised to Daniel for not even staying one day but he told me that it was okay. He knew how much I missed Charles and he really wanted us to get back together. He proposed me to fly with his jet. When I reached Nice, I drove to Monaco as quick as possible. I knocked at Charles' appartment door and when I didn't have an answer, I guessed that he was on his boat.

I rushed to the harbour and that's when I saw him. He was standing there, shirtless with bags under his eyes. His body was sweaty and glistening under the sun. He looked like a vision from heaven. His brown hair were messed up and his eyes widened when he saw me.

God I loved him.

I walked over to him. "Hi"

Charles' POV

I turned around and saw Max. He was standing there with his perfect face and perfect hair. I was a mess compared to him.

"Hi" I answered.

We stood there awkwardly before Max spoke up.

"I....Are you going somewhere?" he asked pointing to my boat.

"Yeah I was going out for a swim."

He nodded

"You can come too if you want" I said immediately regretting it. He was probably going to say no. God why was I so nervous?

About one hour later, I was sitting on the edge of my boat with my feet over the water.

Max's POV

I sighed while looking at Charles' back facing me. I wanted to reach out to him, to talk to him, to hold him but I couldn't. Not after all I did to him.

After a while, I finally gathered my courage and sat down next to him. I waited a few seconds before speaking.

"The view is nice"

Charles hummed before doing something that caught me off guard. He leaned his head on my shoulder. HIS FUCKING HEAD ON MY SHOULDER! A small smile made it's way on my face. I wrapped an arm around his shoulder and looked down at him to find his big golden eyes already starring into mine.

"Hi" I whispered.

He smiled sweetly up at me and that made my brain short-circuit. I leaned down slowly and brought my lips to his soft ones feeling alive after many months spent away from him.

Charles' POV

My eyes widened when Max kissed me. Does he still love me? All my doubts vanished when his tongue ran along my bottom lip. I melted onto him closing my eyes and opening my mouth for his tongue.

Max smirked as he pulled back pleased to have taken a reaction out of me. I looked up at him admiring the sight of his lightly pink cheeks. He looked angelic. Wait....Max didn't love me anymore....That's why he broke up with me...Right?

I pushed him away and got up putting distance between us.

"Charles?" Max called out with a frown.

"Fuck off Max! I know that you're playing with me!"

Max's POV

I looked at Charles with wide eyes. "What? No I'm not playing with you!"

"Really? Because from what i remember you broke up with me without any reason!"

"I never wanted to hurt you Charles"

I reached out tentatively to cup Charles' cheek.

"Leave me Max! I used to say you were the best? Well you were the worst! As sick as it sounds I loved you first!" He yelled.

"I was a dick it is what it is a habit to kick the age old curse. I don't know why I did it. It haunts me Charles. I never wanted to hurt you. I was just jealous that you spent time with Alexandra. I was such an idiot for leaving you I'm sorry."

"I love you Max"

I reached out and hugged him holding him tightly against my body. I kissed his temple gently before whispering.

"I love you, I'm sorry"

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