"Well, For Such A Sight, It Was Worth Feeding His Delusions."

I was js trying to find smth😭😭

LIKE WTF IS THIS😭😭

The fact that I just realized I have to go to that damn building for my own ✨️education✨️ is wild and so the fic might come out like next month I think??? Idk imma have to see how much I work on it

@yayasvalveplay

MORE FERAL BROODMARE OP AU

BUT

Let's start off with how Optimus would be like in this universe alright

Cause I'm building this shit up instead of going for it tbh😭 so mb if you were expecting valveplug😔 imma probably do it in the next Feral OP post

So what I was thinking was that in this universe, the Primes were known as the broodmares right? Yea, let's tie that into them also being cryptids in order to protect their sparklings and sires

Yes, it's mainly the LHP's job to care and protect them BUT the matrix won't allow them to just be broodmares. They need to also be WEAPONS

SO what I was thinking that they would be larger than the sires by maybe a couple feet or so, they have larger teeth to defend themselves, they have thicker bodies to sustain any damage and to carry many sparklings/eggs, they have claws, etc.

That was Optimus.

Now, let's focus on Orion Pax.

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Okay, now imagine this (imma combine all sorts of ideas, so stay with me now): imma say that OP, in this universe, used to be a dock worker, alright? Dock workers were BIG. They all had some sort of upgrades in order to fit the qualifications of their job. BUT they also had these upgrades because the docks were so fucking dangerous that you would need to have all sorts of weapons and training just to survive the day.

Energon rations were scarce here, yes, so they had to fight for that, too. They had to fight for everything, basically. OP, who desperately didn't want to fight anymore but couldn't because he can't go the pacifist route in this line of work, killed a lot of mechs. He felt guilty because they never chose to fight to survive. They couldn't help that the caste system doesn't benefit them; it only serves to beat them down until they're nothing, used till they're deactivated from either turf wars or some other cause.

Orion Pax figures that if he can't go for pacifist, then he should try to lessen the amount of casualties by striking deals with some of the other gangs. Does it work? Not always but at least the number has gone down. When a mech deactivates, he sends them off to the Allspark with sorrowful prayers. When a mech is injured, he tries his best to repair them before carrying them to Ratchet, with some ending up dying.

The deaths, fighting, protests against the caste system, secret meetings, mechs getting tortured and executed-- all of these were getting to him. He doesn't have any means to save them from starvation, from the frigid winters and scorching summers, from the enforcers, from each other, from themselves.

And the only happy things going in his life are his found family and his sparklings, Mirage and Bumblebee, whom he carried.

His pregnancies were brutal, to say the least, no matter how much his Amicas tried their hardest to give him what he needs. No matter how many energon rations they gave him. No matter how much they tried to keep him from stressing or in any danger. No matter how much shanix they tried to spare/save to buy items for the sparklings. No matter how much blackmail and bribes they had on others / made just to keep OP safe and keep the dock workers afloat.

And the birth. Oh, Primus below, the birth. He couldn't even describe the pain he felt other than excruciating. He was in labor for almost a full cycle. And afterwards, he was so exhausted that he was too weak to try to hold his sparkling. Too tired to even keep his optics online.

Mirage--his firstborn, whom he was forced to give him up after the overseers discovered him. He knew that Mirage wasn't made for this life as he was only so young. He knew (even though he didn't want to admit it) that he couldn't keep him, not for long. He knew that he couldn't raise him here, not in a constant state of war.

Then, he had his little Bumblebee. He doesn't believe that Bee should live in a war-like environment either. But he doesn't want to give him up. No, not entirely. So he sends Bee to live with Ratchet and his conjunx, Deadlock, this time round.

Does Bee know that OP is his carrier? Yes. Does he know why he couldn't live with his mama? No. And he'll never know why for the next couple of vorns. Does he know what they all did to make sure that he had a good life? No.

Does Mirage know about him, that he's his carrier? No. Does he know anything about his past and the family he could have gotten? No. And he wouldn't meet them until later on, when the war broke out.

(This going down the angsty route was not what I intended but whatever)

Skip forward to when Orion Pax meets Gladiator Megatronus via fighting in the Pits.

How did he get there, you may ask?

Well, he got caught fighting some enforcers who were physically assaulting one of his Amicas, and he just snapped. And, in the end, he killed 2 of them while severely injuring the rest. He was then charged without a trial and immediately sent to the Pits since they saw it as going against the system.

The Pits were a lot like the Docks, he found out. Yes, you may have to fight to the death but wasn't that what they were practically doing anyway? Yes, you have to fight to earn medical care, energon rations (those were more than what they ever got in the Dockyard), frame upgrades, more training, etc. (At least there were most benefits. He hasn't felt this good since he onlined). Yes, you have to fight with mechs who you were close to. Yes, you have even have to kill them just to survive another cycle.

Anyway, he goes against everyone in the Pits, makes a name for himself and earns quite a reputation. He then goes against Megatronus. Everymech is expecting that he would put up a fight but not win. Every single one of them placed their bets on Megatronus.

They were proved wrong when Orion Pax manages to incapacitate him

Megatronus, who has never lost a match in several vorns, was suddenly beat by a mech who He was astounded. Yes, the mech is several feet taller and larger than him, but he had won matches against larger opponents than him! He should have won!

Mind you, he wasn't angry when he woke up. No, he was just in shock because, logically, he should have won. But this got him interested.

Who was the mech? Where did he come from? How did he beat him? All of these questions ran through his mind and no answer. Because of this, he has Soundwave look into it.

What he finds is almost nothing. There's a name, when he onlined, record of his working at the Docks and being a supervisor there, but nothing else. That has him intrigued.

Mind you, the Decepticons were just starting out by the time OP got put into the Pits. Meaning, he saw and quietly listened to the mech behind the speeches; the lyrical poetry coming from the spark; the way the crowd quiets when he speaks, eager to hear from the one that will lead them to victory; to see Megatronus and the way he offers comfort to those who need it; the way everymech is comfortable around him.

Megatronus, surprisingly, offers him a place in the cause. A position that would grant him the ability to oversee the operations of the cause. One that he would have to share with Soundwave (not that he minded. In fact, he was thrilled but he never let it show either in his face nor his EM field.)

(And when Megatronus leaves him gifts and spoiling him rotten as best as he could? Megs would only that they are just friends.)

(And during this time, Bumblebee began to ask questions. Why couldn't he visit mama anymore? Did he do something wrong? Did he do anything to upset mama, to make mama not allow him to visit him?

"No, little honeybee, you didn't. In fact, he wants you there, but we can't visit him anymore, alright?"

"But why?"

"Oh, you'll understand when you're older. You'll understand why mama wants to protect you."

He never did.)

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Bumblebee finally gets to visit his carrier for the first time in 2 vorns! Sure, he got to exchange datapads filled with writings and little charms with it; he got to taste candies he got sent straight from Kaon; he received numerous gifts over that time; he got voice recordings from him; he even got shanix from him to spend! ("Don't spend it all, little bitlet. You have to save some for later on." "I know, mama.")

And when he got there with Ratchet and Deadlock, he already has several mechs cooing over him.

"Oh, how adorable that bitlet is!"

"Such a precious thing, ain't he?"

"Would you like this rust stick, little one? Or an entire bag, perhaps?"

"Maybe he'll like this trinket?"

When they finally manage to get to the location, Bee's already squirming out of Deadlock's hold.

"Hold on, bitlet! We need to find your carrier first!"

"Please? I'll be right here! I can be good!"

Ratchet sighs out of amusement. "Fine. You can let him go."

As soon as he's let go, he immediately sprints from them with the both of them shouting after him. He needs to find him!!

After a while of running, he slows to a walk, admiring everything around him. He snaps out of it after a few kliks.

He's using his EM field to find him because Ratty told him that he could find his mama this way!

By this point, every mech walking by turns to look at him, sensing the little EM field that was saying 'Mama! Mama! Where are youuuuuu!'. Bee is oblivious to it all.

Then, suddenly, he's being picked up by a pair of strong arms. He's squirming uncontrollably and in a mini fit of rage. He wants to find his carrier! Who is this mech!

The mech turns him around and it's Ratchet with Deadlock trailing behind him.

"Oh!" Bumblebee looks at them sheepishly.

"Oh, is right, bitlet. Now, don't go running off, trying to find your carrier, ya?"

"Okay..." Bumblebee pouts.

After a few breems of searching, Bee manages to find his carrier among the crowd of mechs surrounding the vicinity. He loudly chirps at him, startling everyone.

Said mechs turn around and look directly at him, causing him to hide his face in Ratchet's neck.

Orion Pax, who was talking to Megatronus and Soundwave, snaps his head at Bee, optics widening. Bee is here? He thought that he wouldn't see him for another few joors!

"Oh, sweetspark!" Orion is already moving towards them, oblivious to the stares he's getting.

He takes Bumblebee from Ratchet's arms and spins the both of them around. Bumblebee giggles in delight at finally being able to see his carrier!

When they settle down, Orion Pax turns and tells them that he won't be with them for the next couple of cycles.

He turns to Ratchet and they both leave, leaving Megatronus and the rest in confusion.

(And maybe Megatronus does find Orion attractive because of this. I mean, who wouldn't? Especially once you find out that they're a carrier. And maybe he does think about getting him sparked up with his babies this time round.)

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Not my best work but I was kinda running out of ideas sooooo yea😭

Every time I see a notification from tumblr and I see that it's you, it immediately makes my day so much better

Lux I'm going to cry.

I'm so glad that I make you happy every time I post.

Ykw if I had the money for it I would buy it.

But I don't so it's even more sad😭

I hate when I say things like "oh I want an ipod classic but with bluetooth so I can use wireless headphones" and some peanut comes in and replies with "so a smartphone with spotify?" No. I want a 160GB+ rectangular monstrosity where I can download every version of every song I want to it and it does nothing except play music and I don't need a data connection and don't have to pay a subscription to not have ads and don't have popups suggesting terrible AI playlists all over the menus.

Gimme the clicky wheel and song titles like "My Chemical Romance- The Black Parade- Blood (Bonus Track)- secret track- album rip- high quality"

AWWWWWW

✧₊‧˚⁀➷Two Sparks✧₊‧˚

✧₊‧˚⁀➷One love ✧₊‧˚

For @sparkboundd ! Of his Oc Demeter and Optimus Prime (TF:LS) ♡ early Valentines day present ♡

Imma need this shit for when I actually get to my first draft instead of laying around and daydreaming

some fucking resources for all ur writing fuckin needs

* body language masterlist

* a translator that doesn’t eat ass like google translate does

* a reverse dictionary for when ur brain freezes

* 550 words to say instead of fuckin said

* 638 character traits for when ur brain freezes again

* some more body language help

(hope this helps some ppl)

Ykw Archivist Orion Pax is not gonna be innocent/naïve in this other AU I have. Like, idk why, but the mech has to have seen some shit that not even Megatronus has seen.

This mech would have access to some of the most fucked up shit known to Cybertron. I'm talking murders, conspiracies, acts committed by the Council and against them, unethical projects / research, empurata / shadowplay victims, etc. etc.

Orion Pax is NOT fine. It's quite the opposite, actually.

He is meant to be a puppet for the council. He is meant to allow them to do whatever they want with him, whether it being an assassin, Archivist, or something else.

But, sure, OP may play the part of an oblivious, naïve middle-caste who doesn't know the terrible side of life. But, in fact, he does know--he just couldn't do anything about it. He couldn't help them get justice. He could only send them Ratchet's way to have them repaired, giving them energon, providing them with basic necessities, and trying to educate them.

Though, when he met Megatronus, that's when he realized he could finally be able to help the victims by getting rid of the Caste system (imma say that in this AU, OP not agreeing with Megatronus' methods is still there. Probably a bit toned down as he can see where he's coming from), and he knows what they have done.)

Soundwave, of course, eventually finds out all of this. That OP has access to everything they could think of since he is the most trusted mech there in the Archives. That OP has interacted with the most terrifying creatures to exist and has done many things, albeit unwillingly, for the council. That OP has tried to help the less fortunate with varying degrees of success.

(Imma go a bit OOC with Soundwave here so sorry)

Soundwave suddenly tells Orion that he knows.

Orion is shocked. He thought that nobody would ever know what he had done outside of his family. He thought that he could manage to keep all of this from them, from Soundwave and Megatronus specifically. But it's Soundwave. He will always find a way.

What he didn't know was that Soundwave already told Megatronus when he found out.

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The next time that he met up with Megs, he is attending a meeting with the others in Kaon. They were talking and laughing, but he could feel that something was wrong, that something was about to happen.

At the end, he is met with Megatronus' anger and a load of questions.

"Why haven't you told us, told me? Were you so confident in your abilities to trick us that you didn't think we would find out eventually? Is that why, for many stellar cycles, you weren't here in Kaon with us? You were playing for the council?"

"Megatronus, if I can expla--"

"What is there to explain? You were tricking us into believing that you would fight with us against the caste system!"

"I'm sorry--"

"Sorry for what? Sorry for not being good enough to keep it a secret--"

"MEGATRONUS, PLEASE!"

All went silent.

Orion never begged, Megatronus duly noted.

"Leave Kaon, Orion." He said with finality.

"Megatronus, please, if you would just listen to me--"

"Leave, Orion Pax." He commanded.

Orion stopped trying. He left the room without saying another word.

(Later on, when Orion Pax died and Optimus arose, Megatron would think to himself, "Why didn't I try to listen to him? Why did I do that?")

(As he was leaving, OP was so heartbroken that he couldn't do anything else other than what he had to do for them. He will then regret his decision of keeping it a secret and fall in on himself as the Matrix burns through every part of him, leaving a husk of what he once was.)

(May the galaxies know that they will forever regret and forget what they once stood for. What they could have had. And maybe Primus will have mercy on their sparks, for they were driven to betrayal and insanity. May Primus forgive their sins and start anew with the eternity they now have with each other in a void of boundless, endless joy.)

HIIIIIII

THIS IS SO SJJDISJDJDMS

@beautyconsumer OH MY GOD????

The draft I'm writing doesn't even have any ounce of valveplug (not yet at least). It's just full of angst😭

I'm putting optimus through it rn

Me rn: