"i can't sleep."
you look away from your book to find a disheveled jihoon standing at the doorway. his eyes seem blood-shot red; his pajamas are crumpled; his hair points out in every direction, defying even the laws of physics and he holds a pillow in his hands.
you never imagined a day you'd see your roommate like this.
even with the initial shock, you keep the book aside and smile and beckon him over. he wordlessly wobbles over and climbs onto your bed. you pat your lap. he hesitates for a moment before gently laying his head on your lap. you immediately start to play with his hair.
"is there anything bothering you?" you ask him. you know he's a busy man — with his classes and music production, he barely even gets time to eat or sleep or stays home. opportunities like these should be seized, you know?
he still doesn't say anything, resorting to shaking his head into a 'no'. you continue to comb through his hair, removing any tangles you find.
"tell me about your day..." he starts out of nowhere. you hum as you remember all the events of the day.
"it was pretty much like usual, I guess. all the classes and stuff- oh! did you know? seungkwan spilled his americano today," you say in between giggles — the incident was way too comical.
"how?"
"it was soonyoung who spilled it. he was imitating seungkwan to a few of their juniors when kwan showed up behind him with his coffee. one elbow lift and baam, everything went flying. you know what's funny, kwan was wearing a white shirt," you start laughing again, tears threatening to escape. soonyoung's and seungkwan's shenanigans have always been your group's free entertainment. everyday was a new episode.
"don't go asking about this to kwan tho, he'll just end me..."
and that's when you notice a cute jihoon curled up into a ball, quiet snores escaping from him. a little string of drool at the corner of his lips. the sight is so endearing, you try to hold yourself back from capturing it.
but you end up taking it anyway. anything for a little blackmail material.
highly important culturally significant collection of snoozis
If that ain't true.
self-care is spending 90% of your day absorbed in fictional worlds/characters to avoid thinking about or engaging with your very real problems
WAIT. Not to be controversial but. What if I just enjoy life for what it is right now instead of stressing about what I’ve yet to get out of it. What if I choose to enjoy this time……I know that once it goes, I won’t get it back from anywhere
okay DESI CBSE KIDS ASSEMBLE especially those giving boards exams, PLEASE tell me if I'm the only one who literally has no fucking motivation left to study anything or are we all on the same boat? I've been a pretty studious person my entire life but all the uncertainty around the exams and the fucked up number of cases in our country is giving me so much anxiety. while the thought of going to give the exams is scary, unjust internal marking and assessment is also kinda scary and the thought of postponement and dragging this whole thing on is the scariest. in conclusion I do not know what I want, all I know is I want this to be over .
na jaemin, graduating with PhD in methods to show affection and love unconditionally and unlimitedly.
countdown to jaemin’s birthday (d-1)
not afraid to show his affection
"you sound smart" that's because i've spent years doing academic writing to the point that it's my default cadence plus or minus the use of profanity as a tone indicator
"you sound stupid" that's because i'm dumb as fuck
it's so hard to not plan/think about the future when you have a shitty present. I know that it's best to focus on the present moment but it's tough out here, man 😩
to those in a toxic environment right now, i see and feel u. things will eventually get better. keep going. we got this 🤍
cutie 🍊
reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)
he's so 😭✨✨✋
jaemin // the dream show 2