"She Placed A Smile On Her Lips But She Couldn't Remove The Tears In Her Eyes...

“I always felt that nobody was going to understand me, going to understand what I felt about things. I guess that’s why I started writing. At least on paper I could put down what I thought.”

— Truman Capote

“It’s funny how when you were a kid, a day could last forever. Then you grow up, and all these years just seemed like a blink.”

-Stephen King

For the moment I am really very, very tired of everything — more than tired.

— Friedrich Nietzsche

7llin’ in our Youth “The sun is setting and we’re still dreamin’ ”

now would be a perfect time for some bagel powers

not a waitress but i can take ur tip

long ass ask (so sorry) but thank you so much😭😭❤️✨

NA JAEMINNNN

• [fav thing about them]

cheesily enough I'd say everything, but yk how he's just there without doing much and that's like his thing but I just love it when he's really active and goofy as if he just had his namericano and everyone's just rolling on the floor because of the really weird but funny jokes that he cracks and he's laughing so hard to the point that he's crying too and you just realise it's a happy and memorable moment right there. Like that one part from hello future live where he's enacting a squid(? was it)... I just blabbered but times like this warm my heart

• [when you knew they became ur bias]

he wasn't my bias right away but no kpop idol ever is neways when I fell deeper into the nct rabbit hole and i noticed a lot of similarities between his personality and mine own and how he just gives everyone around him soooo much love but never asking for anything back like he's just there silently pouring his love for everyone and the bias list in my head just updated itself with his name just shining (like his smile) right on top

• [fav looks on them]

THAT RECENT GLITCH MODE TEASER OUTFITS OMG and universe leather jacket outfit and hello future mv outfit and chilling jalapeno version outfit and his cat hoodie and his classic pink-purple-green colour Celine tee and and that brown shirt outfit of his from nct dream cinema and his work it suit outfit and that one hot sauce mv outfit and button-up outfits and white tee outfits okay I'll stop-

• [fav verse/choreo]

do i really have to spell it out? do i really? JAEMIN BOOM AND GO VERSE SUPREMACY plus his verse the song of my life ANL (underrated queen) and a number of others but mostly bye my first, quiet down, maw (heck yes) and ofc from work it (his love for czennies>>>>>>)

As for choreo again, Go and Boom choreo supremacy, or the chorus part of exo's growl cover and also the Pennywise move from we go up and there's this one move he does in his starting verse in ridin where he like twists his hand and then points it backward during "everyone sit back" (https://youtu.be/M9kctl7bSu8 at 0:20) idk how to describe it but the first time i saw it I lost my breath (also taking into acc that it was the song that got me into dream but yes)

• [your wish for them]

a really amazing coffee lol, but in all seriousness i'd love to see him in more videos like just do it (sm pls give us more episodes pls) or a thriller drama some day (sm *puppy eyes* pls) and a cover song pls pls pls AND OMG more songs like countdown 3, 2, 1 where he can do a fast rap because his verse from the bridge of that song just kills me everytime but I also want more vocal performances from him because his voice in my youth or anl just gives me life

• [random]

i love him. very much okay? like "i see a 1 sec clip of him smiling at it makes my day" kind of love. like "his voice helps me fall asleep" kind of love. or "his lives and bubbles make me feel warm" kind of love. i cannot physically or verbally explain the extent (hence this long para) but it lowkey breaks my heart when it hits me at times that he might be a bit underrated. pls don't come at me, maybe it's just me but there are times when I feel like he's overshadowed in some places and underappreciated by fans (and i don't wanna sound rude by not respecting their choices or biases) but there's just a small part of me which thinks that way. but as long as he's happy and enjoying his time i really don't care about anything else cause, with every ounce of honesty in me, his smile makes my day. so, imma say it again.

I love na jaemin.

oh my god i smiled so much reading this post and your fav looks?? i know exactly which ones you're talking about LOL

that part in ridin where he points backwards YES YES i love that part too 😞 and the way everyone parts for na jaemin in that choreo ahhhhhhh. so good. SAME the chorus part of their growl cover is sooooo good i thought it was just me (https://youtu.be/gf6kbW0SgMQ?t=68 also he looks great in this outfit lol)

i also love when he doesnt do much and then he cracks a joke and everyone is on the floor laughing 🥺 the part in the hello future live where he was imitating a stingray IS LITERALLY MY FAVORITE THING EVER he is SO CUTE!!!!

i too love how he gives the people around him so much love but he doesnt seem to expect anything in return, and he does things without complaint <33 he'll cook for the dreamies (and he might "complain" about it but he still does it) and makes sure they eat first 😭

also yes.............his rap in countdown 321 i literally gasped when i first heard it, i love that part so much he went so hard and it kills me every time as well. i also super love his part in my youth, his lazy rap in his deep voice and when he harmonizes with renjun - literally my fav part of all time (my youth is also one of my top songs ever)

im sure everyone thinks their bias is underrated in some way but i think a lot of people see him for his looks (and of course i love jaemin center) but i think there seems to also be a lot more to him like his sweet personality (at least given what he shows to us), as you mentioned!!

and agreed, his smile is the best!!! 😍

send me an ask for bias loving hours <3 (honestly open anytime)

*melts into a puddle of love for na jaemin and na jaemin only*

nakitty with his new puppy friend 🐶

bonus:

only thing that stands between me and going to bed is the entire internet that fits in the palm of my hand

— 7llin’ in our youth ♡